Everybody lives in darkness, but as we grow, as we change we learn to seek and find the light, make the darkness vanish, why do I say we? When I have not managed to bring a moment of light into my life, but I do get to spend the days watching every single person around me find their light and start living in a brighter world. Am doing something wrong? Don't I too deserve to find the light, the fire, and stop living in darkness? Don't I deserve to experience happiness? **SIGH** Apparently not. Maybe I did what they say I did. Maybe I deserve all that is happening to me. Maybe my recollection of that day is just my brain trying to fool me into believing that I am an evil being, that I to deserve happiness. or perhaps, I have failed to realize that I have been looking for the light, for the fire, when it has been burning in me all this time.