I was staying there in the rain. It was pouring like crazy. Thunderbolt and lightning…everywhere. We were all in plain sight. Open field. I was shivering…it was getting so cold under the frozen water. “Am I going to die now? In this open field surrounded by friends, but without my Honey Wrath?” Honey Wrath and I have been together for almost 8 years. For our modern era and given the fact that we hooked up when I was 17 years old, this is called a success or an extraordinary thing. And it gets even better if the relationship is not abusive. And we get to a spiritual orgasm. I want to live! What do you want from me?! Making deals that never end on your terms, with gods that you don’t know…What can be more dangerous? But I had to risk it. I wanted to live. But most importantly, I wanted to have those experiences with Honey Wrath. But what if, at the end of this bargain, I am left with different desires? What if I will be a different self. What if somebody else takes my place? What if I get stuck on the Moon, drunk in Red Wine?