Never would have guessedUpdated at Oct 9, 2021, 02:00
I never thought my life would turn out like this, I honestly never thought I'd be where I am today. Packing up my house of 6 years. Leaving all the memories I made here. Over the past 6 years I've made this house into a home, a home that has been tainted by betrayal and lies and deceit. I could stay here, change the decor and make the place feel like me again but what would be the point? Every room holds memories, holds stories. If I want to start fresh I need to move on.
“Rachael, are you done with the living room?” Shannon shouts at me from upstairs, I look at the empty box in front of me, shit. She comes into the living room holding a stack of books, i look at her and i know i’m about to get an earful about not packing but when i look at her i see pity in her eyes. She looks at me a lot like that now.
“Stop looking at me like that” i snap at her, her face changes and she smiles
“Like what?” she asks innocently, i shake my head at her and throw the books she brought down into the box. She huffs and mumbles about organisation but I couldn't care less. All that will happen is I'll pack the box, take it to my car, drive to my new house and through the box in the spare room until I can bear to look at what's inside and unpack it.
“I’ll help you pack up the rest of the living room, my mum has already packed her car full of boxes so its whatever we can get in my car and yours” she kneels beside me, gives my shoulder a quick squeeze and then packs another box full of whatever she can find in the living room.
I stare at the blank walls and empty floor where my couches used to be. I sold those a few weeks ago on facebook and bought myself a new corner couch for the new house.
“Are we ready to go ladies?” Shannon’s mum Susan comes into the room and collects a box, I grab a box and follow her to my car with Shannon on my heels. We load up the rest of the living room into boxes and fill our cars.
“We’ll follow you Rachael” Shannon announces as she gets into her car, Susan nods at us and gets into her car. I lock the door and get in my own car.
I drive the 10 miles to my new house in silence, music at the moment makes me remember and i don't like remembering right now.
I pull into my new drive and stare at my new cottage, its a 2 bed cottage in the countryside, not too far away from people but i have no neighbours attached to me, a huge back garden where i can grow vegetables and here's enough room for Neo to run around in and the cats to explore without fear of cars. I’m pulled from my thoughts by a tap on the window, I look at Susan who gives me a smile while she carries a box to the front door. I quickly get out to open the front door. She knows where she's going as she’s been helping me all weekend move into the cottage with shannon. Shannon booked the weekend off especially to help me move. Her boyfriend helped yesterday but he had family plans today but he will be round later for a thank you dinner of pizza.
I go into my living room and sit on my new sofa that was delivered yesterday, I sigh as I stroke the velvet material. I look around at the new items I bought for the new house. New house. New start. New life.
“You're married?”
“Technically yes but not really?”
“What does that mean?”
“Means that we just exist together, not much else”
“Oh that must be so sad”
A tear slips down my cheek, i quickly wipe it away but i’m not fast enough before Shannon sees it, she drops the box she's carrying and runs to my side, she wraps an arm around my shoulder and gives me squeeze