It's a Monday morning, as tired as I am to go to school I have no choice but to go. I have brothers that strongly believe in education, they would go on and on about the importance of education and how far it'd take me if I wasn't so lazy. Well they should be grateful I'm not dumb, I pass my grades quite well. But that doesn't change how exhausting school is, when I say exhausting I speak for all us learners who wake up every day at 5am and prepare for the day ahead. I know the learners are tired, they just want that soft life delivered on a silver plate... Hello?!! Reality check is a bitch pardon my language I'm just annoyed. My alarm just rang shuttering my sleep, obviously I'm going to be grumpy the whole day. Plus I have brothers that don't know what privacy means especially for a girl. They don't understand what's like having a girl around, I mean I'm their sister but they treat me like I'm... One of them.

It's been a year since grandma passed away and it's been hard cause she left with her pension money and we had to survive with only R1000 my siblings grant which we can't meet our needs with it. Sometimes we have to go to bed on an empty stomach and sometimes Mandla my boyfriend help us around the house and he's the only person who supports me through this even though he is a security for a important person I don't know he earns alot. He's handsome and loves me a lot

BEFORE THE PAST Introduction One moment you're fine the next you're not,my mind is going through the most, overthinking everything,sad, depressed then out of the blue I'm good,perfectly fine. My name is Londiwe Zulu 23 years of age living with my mother . I have been looking for a job for quite some time and it has been depressing seeing my age mates living their best life and succeeding in life. My mom always says the right moment for me to get a job is near and has been always praying for my breakthrough.i appreciate everything that my mother does for me ,I wouldn't be here without her prayers and encouragement.