“What? Is that all I am to you now? A weapon to use to get back to the father that you hate and despise passionately?” The sadness and her teary eyes and shaking hands crippled me, and all I could do was part my lips and shut them up again.There was so much to say, so much to reveal but I couldn't bring myself to say it. I just couldn't due to the fear that whatever I say might break her more. It was what I seemed to do to everyone I loved.I shut my heart off. Willing to suppress the emotions I had I don't deserve her."You promised me," Ama's voice cracked and a lump formed in my throat."Did you even have plans of marrying me? Or you were only using me to fulfil your goal get back to my father?"Yes, I was only using you. Maybe if I said so she would leave and I wouldn't have to worry about her getting hurt staying by my side.The truth is, I feared for her. She had no idea how dangerous staying by my side would be and I had no intentions of telling her.“I'm doing this for you,” I finally said when I found my voice against the twisting in my stomach and the surging pain that nearly ripped me apart.