The locked book

My life storyMy name is Zion Eboh Okoh, I'm presently 17yrs old and this is my life story. I was born in 2008 in Lagos state, I was birthed by a single mother, the best mother I could ask for, my mom raised me all by herself from the day I was born till now, she always struggled hard to give me the best in life and the best education.I was just another average child although sometimes people say I do odd things.I was very terrible from the very start when it comes to education, I wasn't as smart as other children were although I was good at some things that people didn't expect. I seemed to be really good at poetry and I love to draw and write stories, I also liked to sing sometimes. My mom never gave up on me even though she knew it wasn't that good in school.l, she'd always put me in the best private schools. Despite how hard I tried my best to do good in school I'd always end up with bad grades. But my mom kept on encouraging me even through her disappointment. I always thought I was a disappointment, I never made any A's in my entire life, even on occasions where I'd get good scores I still wouldn't be satisfied knowing there would be another test or exam coming my way with me being an educational disappointment,I never gave up though , I'd study when no one is watching, I'd make research, despite my hard work I'd still fail. At 16 I graduated from secondary school and to my surprise my WAEC results were actually good B's and C's although I still got an F but just one though . I was filled with joy. I applied for the university of Abuja otherwise known as UofA,it took a long time before I could get an admission. When I finally got my admission I thought I would end up in a paradise state because all the people I see in university are usually always happy and free, little did I know that secondary school was heaven compared to the university.It was easy to understand most of the courses but hard to pass exams because for a bulky course like the course that was given to me "LINGUISTICS" you'd have to answer just one question with filling out more than a page but I had no idea at all,all I knew was write the correct answer even if it's only a sentence but I dad no idea that filling an entire booklet out with leaving no space untouched got you more marks and on the most discouraging part the lecturers where nonchalant and could decide to fail you just because they didn't have the strength to read your answer and I also know this because my mom is a teacher. I studied hard in school though, I made new friends but then I detached from them because I found out who they truly were, I had to squat with someone for my first year and it was hell because she had her own way of doing things and I had my own way of doing things, she'd always act like she's the cleanest person alive but low key she was just making other people uncomfortable especially me, she was from the village and I was brought up a civilized hell called Abuja, I had to squat with her because I didn't have a choice. I kept on making more and more friends almost every week and different guys kept on approaching me,at first it was fun but after some time it became annoying different type of boys kept approaching me more and more, young, old, ugly, handsome, cute,razz, annoying, gentle, forceful or rude, I even met a guy who scolded me all because I rejected him. As I kept on making friends I kept on being insecure about myself. I made more of male friends than female friends, I could interact fluently with guys but I'd always have problems with girls, sometimes I'd get insulted by a girl just for talking to a boy she likes or a guy she's dating,my insecurities became worse because I didn't know how to interact with most guys and I'd always end up interacting with different boys at different times and sometimes I'd think what if his girlfriend sees me and think he's cheating with me or what if several girls like him and are after my life. I don't regret interacting with mostly boys because boys are the best type of friends to have around because they always have your back or at least most of the time unlike girls who are most times filled with greed and jealousy.I always lived in a way no one knew, I had a lot of secrets, I had a lot of burdens, I basically had a lot on my mind but I never showed it because I was afraid people would think less of me, all I could do was write out all my problems in form of poetry , I wrote a lot of free verse poems containing my pain.