Irresistible chains

I've been sitting here,for 3 hours but I can't seem to understand what should I say to her and again this is a full year now ..... huh maybe I shouldn't have came back here not all pain and trauma needs therapy right?..... Mrs Smith:Miss Maya.... should we continue where we left off or you need a break? Maya: I think I'll come back tomorrow, is that right with you? Mrs Smith: It's okay we can carry on tomorrow. But I think you should consider what we first talked about. Maya:Ohh... I slowly stood up it was like there's a mountain on my shoulder. I walk out the door and pass the receptionist, I can't even say I enjoy being Miss now since my divorce but it's better, than being Mrs ohh I can't even call their surname it's like I would puke it out if it rolls on my tongue. I don't even know when I arrived at this restaurant I might as well eat before going home to rest. I order fries and orange juice because I can't stomach anything in the moment since I can't remember. .....:Ohh hi can I sit? Maya: Yeah, sure .....: thanks So we just gonna sit in silence??Urgh nevermind, my food arrives and what's that look?, it's not like you are the one eating!(Sigh) this is useless why am I talking to myself and not him this is even stupid and why is he not eating no he's eating my food I wish I could punch him in the face right but I don't have the strength.... ....: I'm leaving now enjoy your food Maya:Ohh.... bye I guess. why so soon? (Sigh)I paid my bill and went to my apartment, straight to the shower and in the covers tomorrow will be a better day, I can feel it.