Passion

Today is Sunday, I'm at my bedrooms balcony lounging with my glass of Merlot. Its about 5:30pm and the sun is setting. What could be better than for a late Sunday afternoon chilling at your balcony with a glass of wine. Actually it would be even better if I could see the forest, if this got damn, big, empty house wasn't blocking the view of it. I remember when I was a kid I used to love going out into the woods to play with my former neighbor/ best friend until he left to I don't know where, I tried calling him over and over, but his phone was always switched off.  "Honey, dinner is ready" Oh my gosh, I love how my boyfriend calls me honey, it make me feel like a married women. "coming" I replied. I close the sliding door to the balcony and rush down with my glass of wine in hand. The whole family was already sited at the table, waiting for me to start the prayer. Our family have always been like that, my parents says that its a way to keep us together since we're always in our room.  "Hmm" I couldn't help it but  to moan at the delicious roasted cauliflower Brian had prepared for us. "You guys don't know what you're missing on" I said while chewing the deliciousness. Brian my boyfriend and I are both vegan, so he or I always prepare our food separately from the rest of the family apart from some rare occasions when they are craving something vegan.  After the dinner we watched the news then went to our rooms. "Lets go to the balcony" Brian proposed to me "wait, I'll go grab the wine" I responded. "Babe you need chill with the wine" he walked to me, enveloping me in a warm little hug "but babe its Sunday" I give him the puppy eyes, he chuckles and kisses the tip of my nose " Okay then, go get it" I give him a peck on the lips and hurried down and then back up.  I walk out to the balcony and the first thing I notice is, the lights at that got damn, big, empty house is on and obviously not empty anymore. Could it be that he was back? No, it cant be. Why would he come back after all this time. Maybe its just some new comer. Yeah, maybe the Carter's family have sold their old home. Its been four years since they left and ever since the house has not been in use.  "Do you think he's back?" Brian must have noticed that my mind was somewhere else. He looks kind of worried. " Oh, I don't think so" Damn, now my whole mood for wine and chill at the balcony, in the night breeze have now been ruined. I'm suddenly thinking about Noah, and lowkey wishing that it was him, that he was back, but this is wrong I shouldn't be wanting to see him, I have boyfriend now. One who has been by my side when my childhood best friend and my boyfriend for the last two years before he left, left. "Maybe we should go to bed now, we'll do this another day" Brian agrees without any questions, but I could see that something was bothering him, but I myself wasn't in the best state of mind  to question him right now. I just wanted to go to sleep. I knew that It would all be better in the morning and all this thoughts about wanting to is Noah will be gone.