Taste of the Enemy's Lips

Hindi ko na pinansin pa ang pag ihip ng hangin na tumatangay sa aking mahabang buhok. Malungkot na pinagmasdan ko ang ngayon ay hanggang beywang kong alon alon na buhok. Seems like yesterday I am happy. Seems like a year ago I am whole, I am loved and I have a perfect life. "come now Aly.."hinarap ko ang tumawag sa akin. His face, even his eyes resemble me of the man I used to love. The man that I know for myself I will continue to love. I'm longing for that man. The man who used to love me, the man who only think the best for me, the man who cares a lot and the man who holds my heart. He intently search something in my eyes, medyo nailang ako dun kaya nag iwas ako ng tingin. I heard him sigh. "you miss him.."it's not a question but a statement. At sa pagbanggit niya nito ay tuluyan na akong napaiyak. I cried and he just let me. Nakatingin lang ito sa akin bakas ang awa. "how did I end up loving and hating him at the same time!" I cried my heart out and he didn't say anything. "I love him because he'd loved me unselfishly but I hate him for making me feel this s**t! How can he!" asik ko habang humahagulgol. Tinakpan ko ng palad ko ang mukha ko para hindi na nito makita ang sawing sawi na itsura ko. "he never left.."he answered that made my heart crippled. Yes he's right. A new tear fell from my eyes as I looked at him. "pero kinalimutan niya ako.."with my broken voice I said it. How can he say that he loves me when left me in the dark. Alone in a cold and hard road in my life. "maybe he's not for you.."ang balewalang sagot nito ang siyang pumatay ng tuluyan sa puso ko. I'm having a hard time catching my breath while looking at him. "let's go, dad is looking for you.."inilahad nito ang palad para alalayan ako but I only look at his hand. Ayokong hawakan iyon, ayokong maramdaman muli ang init nito mula sa kanya. I've lost him. Kumunot ang noo nito ng mauna akong maglakad at lampasan ito. "you don't want my help?" he looked confuse habang sumusunod sa akin pababa ng bundok. Bumaling ako dito at malungkot na ngumiti sa naguguluhang mukha nito. I heave a sigh to calm my dying heart.  "it's okay Alfonso, I can manage.."