disUNITY

PART ONE 1. Anything written is obvious. First to the writer, and then to the readers. What is obvious now is the transparent birch trees and the fresh green gold of the foliage melting in the warm May wind. This process gives rise to a philosopher’s stone: the Sun, that fiery mass, or rather, that amalgamation of gases which punctually and even persistently illuminates our many and varied paths. The morning path leads to milk and bread. Ah, those wonderful non-French French baguettes! And the grocery van, cutely parked there, with its piggy snout and its despondent elephant’s trunk of doleful little steps trailing down to the ground. This is the gathering point for all the paths which run between Projected Prospect and the newly-felled forest cutting. Incidentally, the cutting has had its own name for more than a week now: Academician Afonsky Street. But there is no street as such yet, only three clearings in the middle of the forest which encircles Moscow. Did this acclaimed academician once live somewhere in these woods? He had a cottage here, at least, for it was on the veranda of that cottage that the prominent artist Nesterov sketched his satire of the academician dancing naked around a table littered with manuscript pages scattering down like autumn leaves. That portrait caused such a furore… It depicts the academician sticking his tongue out and pressing his palms to his ears, which are drawn in the form of huge elephant ears. The picture is known as Eureka (oil on canvas, 180 x 120cm, private collection in Baltimore, USA). How good it is to walk unburdened! It’s good to walk burdened with bread and milk, too, though not quite so good. But at least breakfast is underway now, with lilac in bud just under the wide open windows, and the roar of a waterfall as the rubbish cascades down the chute. How do they collect the rubbish from here? How can any vehicle drive up to this clearing? After all, there’s no tarmac… Well, they get here somehow. But for now there are only the stray passersby, sleepy morning bushes and chirpy morning birds. Morning – morning in the forest! Clad in two little yellow bonnets, coltsfoot smiles out from behind a mouldy stump. Someone’s shadow is glimpsed behind the y-shaped aspen. A dog’s? Well, certainly not a wolf’s! No, not a wolf’s. But it wasn’t human, either, though it rustled and slunk away like a human. Grey fur, moulting, with pricked ears flattened slightly as it ran. It was probably just some animal or other; maybe it lives here. The only memory it left was the swaying branches and a chill in the spine, as if a gust of wind had whistled by. Or maybe it was nothing more than an apparition. Only its transparency is remembered, and a few opaque details – horn-rimmed glasses and a tie against a background of grey wool. It was a red tie, with little black squares. 2. “The things you run into in a former soviet forest!” Arefiev was saying to the accompaniment of milk flowing into his stomach and an avalanche of bread. A shrivelled, silver-haired old lady with marble grey eyes was nodding her head as she meticulously chewed her mortadella. She had just dug all the eyes of fat out of it with a long knife and her nods were for the mortadella, too; every morsel of food – or chymus, to give this substance its proper name – which landed in her stomach provoked a rumbling “y-yes!” as her body approved the arrival of nutrition. The fat eyes were saved for dessert. “Maybe it was a monkey?” Arefiev suggested. The old woman was nodding. She had just consumed a fatty sponge cake and was pondering whether she should complete the repast with some smoked fish. After all, sweet and savoury go so well together! The repast over, it is time for him to go. He leaves, and the house is now hers. She walks through to the other room, the room with the curtained windows where her eyes rest in the darkness, her ears in the silence and her lungs in the dust. She quietly settles herself in the corner, occupying the junction of three planes, and then sets to work. It is as though a transparent thread, fine and youthful, comes spinning out from the very centre of her small, convex, saffron tummy, right from her belly button, recently relieved. How it would gleam in the sunshine, how it would waft in the wind! But here it is motionless. A spider’s web? 3. Reality augments itself with us and becomes “surreality”, for we humans are surreal beings. People are taught to supplement themselves to reality in school, during grammar classes. This exercise can go by many names, such as “complete the gaps”: “We read about the persecution of scholars in the Middle Ages but then opened the biography of academician Lysenko* and…” “This stream is narrow but deep and although there are no fish in it, there is something of scientific value and so we carefully…” “Without losing his head, the hunter fired a shot at the bear and … but then, unaware of the danger, he walked calmly along the edge of the forest.” “Masha went into the manufactured goods shop where … but at home she gazed for a long time at the cover of “Burda World of Fashion” magazine.” “This year at school we memorised 120 poems by Pushkin, Lermontov and Nekrasov and we found them all really….” “Larissa went up to the map of the Soviet Union and … but then remembered something funny and laughed.” “Ilyusha took a folio of Pushkin’s poems from the shelf and … but then, with his seat raised, he began watching cartoons.” “Soviet writers portray typical scenes of nature and everyday life thereby invoking in us…” In the latter case the children take their pencils and scrawl: “a sense of deep aversion”. They show this to each other, giggle, then rub it out, but they are wrong. In fact they should have written “familiarity with the grotesque” or better still “a sense of the surreal nature of existence”. 4. He walked more slowly on his way home from work. The Sun marked the entrance to the forest with squares and triangles for him. But the forest was melting into the blurred moist haze and slipping away. With each step he took, the forest retreated a step. This went on for some time. Then the forest took a deep breath with its bird-filled canopy and let him in. He followed the fine thread of the path, but then suddenly became aware of someone else walking next to him, following the same fine thread. He shuddered and stopped. The stranger raised his straw hat. “Excuse me, are you looking for the entrance?” he asked, and his pronunciation seemed somehow overly correct. Curious, foreign, yet oddly correct. “The entrance?” Arefiev queried, and raised his hand to his mouth in an involuntary, inexplicable gesture. “Entrée. Eingang.” The stranger’s reply was utterly incomprehensible. A butterfly carried the sun’s light to the stranger’s face. Arefiev shuddered: his face was covered with grey fur, right up to the eyes. With a deft flick of his wrist the stranger caught the butterfly and it froze on his wrinkled brown palm as though paralysed. “I didn’t even knock her powder off,” the stranger congratulated himself. “I’m agile, aren’t I? Really agile, wouldn’t you say?” “Yes, you are,” Arefiev admitted. “Can I look at the butterfly?” “How do you like the pattern?” the stranger asked, pointing at the butterfly with his claw-like nail. Arefiev took a look. The design on the little cherry-coloured wings was unusual: the eyes were not along the edge of the wing but in the middle, forming a spiral. “The pattern’s not right,” Arefiev remarked. The stranger looked at him curiously: “Doesn’t it remind you of anything?” “It’s like a snail,” Arefiev shrugged. “Exactly. A snail,” the stranger said sternly. “The acceleration of gravity at the exit is 10G.” “That has something to do with physics, hasn’t it?” Arefiev put in uncertainly. He worked in a research institute, and, as everyone knows, a scientist’s knowledge only covers one branch of science – the one he is paid for. The Sun measured out mellow sunset honeycombs on the branches. The gusty wind was strangely cold. “From applied astronomy, actually,” the stranger said. “So you don’t know anything about the entrance or the exit, right?” “It depends what we’re talking about.” “About the abstract, my dear, about the downright abstract. As for concrete reality, you will see it on the television this evening. By the way, a question for you: can there be such a thing as an entrance into nowhere and an exit from there?” Smacking sounds came from somewhere in the distance, as though the bog were readying itself to swallow the Sun. Arefiev remembered he was hungry. “Well, I’ll be on my way then, I think,” he said, and without saying goodbye, he wandered off along one branch of the forked path. “Hey! You aren’t allowed down there!” the stranger cried out, and dashed after him. Arefiev ran, too. For a moment they ran neck and neck, but Arefiev couldn’t keep it up. By the time he ran out into the glade, the stranger had already reached the little hill on the far side of the forest. “The hole is closed,” Arefiev heard a mechanical, sexless voice say, and the figure on the hillock vanished. All that remained was a mass of crimson sun, shrivelled spring grass and a heathery wind. Arefiev couldn’t spot anyone in the glade, nor anywhere in the vicinity; it was as if the earth had swallowed the stranger. The serene sky shone blue as though it hadn’t seen anything. 5. The blue sky received its blueness as a gift, primordially, and never asked itself why it is blue. But the blue water collects its blueness gradually, stocking it up from the transparent air, the dark fish and the golden sunshine. The blue of the sky and the blue of the water are both convincing, just as any success is convincing; but as for dirty puddles, life has more than enough of those so there is no need to splash them over the pages. Blue sky and blue water – these form an inter-mirror dimension where time sometimes runs forward, sometimes backward, although actually time never runs anywhere; it simply abides freely in weightlessness. Humankind cannot stay between two looking glasses; from time to time we are overwhelmed by cheerless thoughts which chase wrinkles over our countenance and clouds over the forgetful sky. A human is a swimmer under the icy, cloudy skies. That is his element and he is able to screw his eyes up and blot out any light, even the Sun’s regal shine. After all, it is more relaxing to swim with your eyes wide shut, especially if you are swimming towards the halls of eternal rest. “What did he look like?” Arefiev asked himself when he was almost home. “Like anyone else. A Turkish leather jacket, a white shirt, a tie. No, not a red tie, that was the first one. That was a different person. But was this one a person at all? Was it human? And what about the first one? It didn’t look like a human, not a bit… But then, who does?” The block of flats opened up like a book and let him in. A silvery mesh of threads shone through the wall’s smooth page. The little old woman was sitting in the bull’s eye, gnawing something with her apparently toothless mouth. “Let there be light!” said Arefiev, and switched on the television. The mesh of threads turned blue. The old woman purred contentedly. “Honecker was no longer…” The television was showing the chronicles of the early nineties. “The citizens of the GDR were able to travel to…” Out poked the predatory grin of a German diesel locomotive. “That’s who’s got a really beastly muzzle,” Arefiev thought: “Things”. He shook some tea leaves into a cup and was about to slosh some boiling water over them when the picture suddenly flickered and something utterly and even improbably familiar appeared on the screen. Hey, that’s our institute! He put the kettle down. What are they showing that for?