when the darkness fades

All I can see is the darkness around me. I cant hear anyone beside my own heavy rapid breathing, Im starting to get a little scared. Then a small faint light starts coming into view and it slowly gets bigger and bigger. As it gets bigger my breathing starts to calm down, then I hear him, I hear my dads voice but it cant be he is no longer here with me. "Indiana" he calls, he voice is calming and loving in everyway possible. Again he calls "Indiana, Im waiting", what is he waiting for. I slowly make my way to him only to find that I am my 6year old self, I run to him and wrap my little arms around him, giving him the longest hug I could before he brings me out of it. "What's a matter my little Indy?, its like you haven't seen me in forever" he said. if only he knew. All I could manage to say to him " I just really missed you is that ok", he gave me one of his smiles that only a loving and caring father could give his daughter and took my hand and lead me to our favourite seat which was a old tree that feel down by the lake at the bottom of our land. my heart raced and skipped and my stomach had butterflies in it as I had not seen my dad in almost 16 years. He was the rock of the family the one with the cool and calm head.  But soon reality set in that this was not my father as I lost him years ago in a bad accident, which left my mum and me shattered and heart broken. My dad looked at me and asked 'my little Indy, what is wrong you look like you seen a ghost?', how was I to tell him that it was him who was the ghost, his eyes told me he was waiting for an answer but I wasnt ready to tell him, so I just replied ' Nothing Daddy, just a little upset we haven't seen any butterflies' oh' he said 'maybe if we sit here quiet enough one will come out'. and that was find by me, just sitting next to him made me feel like nothing could drag me down. He was my dad how could I not want to be near him. He loved my mother and me with all of his heart how could he not love his mate and his little daughter, even if he was not the Alpha he was the Alpha in my eyes.