we choose to fear love

my name is ian ,ian lawton to be precise and my life is terrible not necessarily but I hate it ,I just moved across the country to another state and nextweek am starting at a new school why you may ask ,because my parents decided to hop and leave. I have no friends here I continually miss my friends and I don't wanna go to school ,I just don't think I will fit in. So I started school today and I don't like it everything was bizarre starting from the morning I woke up so late and almost missed my bus , I had no clues where my classes where and yes I accidentally spilled milk on by far one of the most drop dead gorgeous looking person I have ever seen and yes it was a guy . I know what you guys must be thinking but no am not gay neither am I any of the alphabets am a straight ugly looking guy that appreciates beauty when I see it . luckily for me the dude was not upset he decided to show me around school for a bit ,then we chatted a little before his friends came and took him then I was left all alone again with my aching thoughts that I could feel piercing my neck ,I am just an over thinker I probably think that's why and maybe social anxiety. anyway school sucked and I missed my friends (home)but I have to go back to my dreaded house,Today is 3rd of December if any of you didn't know is Heather day thank God for artist like conan gray cause I don't know what the world will be like without him XOXO IAN SIGINING OUT