we choose to fear love

THE FIGHT

it all went down like a volcanic eruption this Tuesday,I have been hanging out with the guys for about three months now and I actually feel like I belong some where but what happened left me shocked .we were all in the cafeteria having our lunch until some crazy weird looking girl walks up to our table .she starts talking to the drop dead gorgeous dude oh his name us Tristan forgot to mention ,okay she says why haven't you been answering my calls Trustan responds is because I got nothing to say to you (the girls name is brenda)

Brenda:did you block me

Tristan:did you do something that will lead me to block you

Brenda:am sorry about last night , I did not mean to kiss the dude ,now stop your pouting ,unblock me and let's get back together .it was a mistake mistake happens and I regret every decision that led me there please Tristan

Tristan: are you OK, you want me to take you back this is not the first time and I don't think it will be the last so if you can get lost so me and my friends can have lunch I will be grateful

Brenda:are you for real, how dare you you talk to me like that

she proceeds to slap Tristan on his face then goes ahead and pours a milkshake all over

Tristan:your a stalker, a slut and you don't deserve me and am really tired I don't know who you are anymore but this isn't the Brenda I met in primary school now you do drugs ,hook up with your cousins and act like your in a gang your beyond saving

Tristan proceeds to stand up so he could get rid of his trash while Brenda on the other hand just stood there mouth wide opened, shock and embarrassed and turns her back to leave when she was just leaving she turns back stares at me then Tristan than his friends proceeds to pull out a knife and stab Tristan. There is blood everywhere I rush in to help but her friend stabs me from the back and am on the ground . Brenda proceeds to stab Tristan three good times before she someone had call the police but it was too late the cafeteria had turn to a war zone , there was blood everywhere , I heard some gunshots while trying to pull Tristan up BOOM I WAS SHOT by who I have no idea was I going to make it I was not sure I laid on the floor with one arm place on my injury and the other holding Tristan hand ,I was terribly terrified the thought of not going to make it and the thought of if Tristan was going to make it both equally scared me and then that was it a deafening silence before waking up at the hospital with little or no memory to what had happened after I had fainted due to the loss of excess blood .....

I had woken up in a hospital with only Tristan by my side I was surprised but tired turns out bullet wounds hurt like crazy .I looked at him he looked angry yet happy at the same time then I asked the question who shot me .he looked at me and started apologising am" so sorry Ian is all my fault I should have"... this made me more confused cause did Tristan shoot me ,I asked did you shoot me? he responded no ,then why are you apologising I asked .Tristan responded saying tge bullet was not meant to hit me but it wasneant fir him and I got in the way who shot the gun I asked and he told me it was Brenda.

I was not shocked but terrified at the things Brenda could do where as Tristan was still saying sorry I did not know what to do so instead I gave him a hug something we both needed at that time.As expected my parents did not come when they found out I was at the hospital they were both busy but Tristan parents came and paid the medical bills and even offered me a place to stay till my wound heals but then again the price to pay when you save a friends life I tried refusing on the offer but my efforts were quite futal

I have stayed in Tristan house for several days,my parents are not back home and I don't know why they are on the plus side Tristan parents are very rich so I have basically been on a holiday since I can not go to school unless the wound closes up a bit,Tristan find suffer some scars from the stabbing but it was nothing quite serious .Tristan keeps trying to make us change in front of each other he says is for fun but I guess am too shy he does change in front of me and I can't help but stare and hope he does not notice cause his body is like a work of art or he is a Greek god that came down to earth . one time Tristan was changing and I noticed his solid rock abs that shine like gold in the morning and his enormous d**k that leaves you questioning your life choices I think he caught me staring but did not care .

Tristan parents do work a lot but they are always home at dinner time Tristan decided to stay away from school until I am ready to go back so is basically always the two of house in a huge mansion.the news about the school shooting and fight had spread so everyone is expecting me at school with something broken since I was one of the casualties ,Brenda got expelled and I don't know what my school is going to do now since they have a lot of bad press.

And no before any one has a weird thought I am not gay ,Tristan and I just happen to be close friends and he happens to be straight I think , am not quite sure .....

XOXO

Ian lawton signing out