Taste of Poison

Kabanata 11

Needs

Isang malupit na hangover ang naramdaman ko paggising kinabukasan. I was practically tapping my head as I head downstair. Pakiramdam ko ay lasing pa ako nang nag-timpla ako ng kape dahil kumalat pa ang asukal na nilagay ko. Kakaupo ko lang sa upuan nang makita si Azar papasok ng kusina.

As usual, he's shirtless. Pawisan na mukhang kakatapos lang mag-work out. Kumuha siya ng tubig.

"How are you feeling?" Tanong niya matapos uminom.

"s**t," naibulalas ko. "Did I make a scene last night? Or said something weird?"

Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay. "Like?"

Umiwas ako ng tingin.

Naalala ko noong unang beses akong nalasing. Mallory was laughing her ass off while taking a video of me, hugging the post. Minsan ay inuwi akong naka-wheel chair dahil sa sobrang kalasingan, hindi na makalakad. I'm sure my friends has a picture of me wasted until now. That was the first year of enjoying my life outside the forest.

Simula noon ay hindi na ako naglalasing ng sobra. Ngunit kagabi yata ay naparami ako sa inom kaya hindi lahat ay naalala ko.

"Something you find weird?" baling ko sa kaniya.

Dahan-dahan niyang binaba ang baso sa mesa at pinagmasdan ako. I tried to stare at his eyes only. Ayokong bumaba pa ang titig ko sa katawan niya. I tried my best last night not to touch him... or to make him do me aside from kissing.

"I remember you being flirty last night, extra touchy, and... Para kang bata kagabi. You clung to my leg the moment you went out of the car. You didn't let me carry you last night so, I walked towards the door with you clinging down to my leg."

Namilog ang mga mata ko. Kinagat niya ang labi, nagpipigil ng ngiti pero kumawala pa rin iyon.

"I did that?!"

He chuckled. "Yeah, you did. Don't worry, it wasn't weird I think?"

Umiling ako. "No, no! Not at all."

"Papasok ka ba sa trabaho?" May binuksan siyang kabinet doon.

I took a sip of my coffee. "No, I'll stay here muna. Uuwi rin ako mamayang hapon. Why?"

"If that's the case then, hindi na rin muna ako papasok. Let's be lazy together."

I chuckled. "You just want to be with me," sabi ko.

"That and I'm not in the mood to work today," may inilapag siyang gamot sa harap ko. "If your head's still bitching you out, drink this."

Tumango ako at itinabi iyon. Inubos ko ang kape bago tumayo para hugasan ang tasa. Nang matapos ay sumandal ako sa lababo. Pinagmasdan ko siyang umupo roon habang may hawak na dyaryo.

"Do you want to eat? I'll cook." I offered. Kahit hindi naman ako nagugutom.

Saglit siyang sumulyap sa akin. "I had a coffee earlier," he answered instead.

Hindi na ako nagsalita pa. Umupo na lang ako sa harap niya at nangalumbaba sa mesa. Pinagmasdan ko siya.

I admire his patience last night. Naalala ko ang simpleng hirit ko sa kaniya kagabi, lalo na nang nasa kama na niya kami. I remember him saying he won't take advantage of a drunken woman while he was changing my clothes. Doon lang natigil ang kapilyahan ko dahil ramdam kong totoo iyon sa tono ng boses niya.

"Kung ibang babae ang nakakuha ng virginity mo, would you still offer her the arrangement we have now?"

Sinilip niya ako mula sa pagbabasa. "Yes."

"Aw. That woman must be lucky..." komento ko.

"You are that woman, babe. Consider yourself lucky."

Tumango-tango ako roon.

Azar is more like a friend, though. A friend whom I can lean on anytime. Naisip ko nga na siguro mas mabuti kung hanggang doon lang iyon, pero tuwing naaalala ko kung paano ako mag-init tuwing hinahawakan niya ako ay nag-iiba ang ihip ng hangin.

I can't be friends with someone I'd love to f**k, right?

"Have you had a girlfriend?" I asked curiously. Umayos ako ng upo.

Tuluyan na niyang binaba ang dyaryo sa mesa at nakipagtitigan sa akin. Nginisihan ko siya na ginantihan niya rin naman. I think my question wasn't that personal... or personal. Hindi rin naman siguro masama ang magtanong tungkol sa kahit na simpleng bagay sa kaniya.

Puwede rin naman niya akong tanungin. Iyon ay kung interesado siyang malaman.

"Bakit pakiramdam ko ay nagiging interesado ka sa buhay ko?"

I shrugged. "Sa simula pa lang naman ay nakuha mo na ang interes ko, Azar. The moment you coughed and blamed my perfume that day in the restaurant, you already have my interest."

Nagtaas ng kilay si Azar. "Kung gayon, iyon ang dahilan kung bakit hinayaan mo akong angkinin ka noong gabing 'yon?"

"Oo," I paused. "So, have you had a girlfriend? What about that girl na kasama mo noong araw na 'yon?"

Bumalik ang alaala ko sa babaeng kasama niya noon sa restaurant.

She was pretty, tall, and white. The kind of woman every man would want to be with. Hindi ko lang alam kay Azar. But actually, when I looked back again, I think they're pretty good. They would do well as a couple.

"She was a client."

Tumikwas ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya. "A client on first name basis?"

I addressed my mother's clients on their surnames. Even if it's a friend.

"I really don't mind it. Basta kliyente ko 'yon..." aniya na hindi man lang sinagot ang isa ko pang tanong.

Ngumuso ako. "You're dodging my other question. Girlfriend?"

He nodded. "I had a girlfriend but we didn't last long."

"Baka hindi mo kasi mahal? Hindi natibok puso mo, e," sabay turo ko sa hubad niyang dibdib.

Sumama ang timpla ng kaniyang mukha. "I tried, Emory. After that, hindi na ako nag-girlfriend. I was contented having just myself."

"So, you were alone before I happened. Why didn't you try flirting with girls? You should've tried it."

Nagtagal ang tinginan namin. In the end, he sighed defeated.

"I wasn't a good boyfriend or more so. Kaya hindi ko na sinubukan."

"You're a good lover though."

Tinitigan niya ako habang nginingisihan ko siya. His eyes on mine, then on my lips, then back on my eyes again.

"I want to prove to you that again..."

My heart pounded a bit.

"Now?"

He nodded. "Yes, now."

Tumayo siya at lumapit sa akin. Akma na rin akong tatayo ngunit naunahan niya ako. Hinawakan niya ang mga balikat ko at hinila patayo sabay pinaupo ako sa mesa. He put his arms on my sides, his legs in between mine.

I swallowed hard. Mabuti at nakapag-ayos ako ng sarili kanina bago bumaba!

"Are we really going to do it here?" Mahina ang boses ko.

Kinintalan niya ako ng halik sa labi bago niya ako nginisihan. The sly Azar is in front of me now, gone his friendly vibe. I bit the side of my cheek. I felt my insides getting excited at the thought of touching him, or him touching me.

Hindi ko naman tinatanggi na nasasabik ako sa mangyayari. I missed him, that's the truth. My mind was having a hard time coping up with all the things that happened for the past few days. I mean, s*x is the safest stress reliever after all.

Relieve stress naturally.

Kinuha niya ang kamay ko para ilagay sa batok niya. Samantala, nilibot niya ang kaniya sa likod ko at marahan akong tinulak palapit sa kaniya. I slightly smiled at him. Bumibigat na ang bawat paghinga ko sa sobrang lapit namin sa isa't isa. Unti-unti ay naalalala ko ang mainit na tagpo na muntikan ko ng ikapikit ngunit hindi ko naman napigilan ang pagkislot ng hita ko.

Sabay bumaba ang tingin namin doon. Pero ang mga mata ko ay natigil sa gitna ng hita niya.

I heard him groaned. He lifted my face using his fingers on my chin.

"You have a hard-on na. We're not doing anything yet..." I whispered while staring at his eyes.

"That's what you do to me," he said huskily.

My eyes darted to his Adam's apple moving up and down. Noon ko pa iyon gustong halikan kaya naman binaba ko ang mukha doon. He automatically tilted his head to give me more access. I brought it to my mouth, I could feel it moving inside me because of his deep sighs.

"Stop," he told me. Nilayo niya ng bahagya ang katawan sa akin.

Umangat ang tingin ko sa kaniya.

"What? I was enjoying myself."

"Enjoying yourself while killing me with your tongue?"

"Ikaw 'tong hinayaan ako," I was about to go down when he stopped me by trapping me again with his body.

Nakaramdam ako ng pagka-irita. He resist me and now what?

"Look, if you don't want it, then let go," mahinahon kong saad.

Nagtaas siya ng kilay. "Ako ang nagyaya tapos aayaw ako?"

Nagtaas din ako ng kilay. "You're so hard to spell, Azar. Para kang babae... Ano ba talaga ang gusto mo?"

He just flashed his signature smirk. Pagkatapos ay tinagilid niya ang ulo para halikan ako sa labi.

I closed my eyes and sighed in contentment.

His lips on mine sent immerse pleasure down my spine. I felt his tongue asking for entrance which I teasingly declined but he bit my lower lip, making me open my mouth for him. He slipped his tongue inside which I gladly played with.

Napasabunot ako sa kaniyang buhok nang bumaba ang halik niya sa panga ko, then down to my neck. I bit my lower lip to suppress a moan but his teeth grazed my neck making me let out a breathless moan. Ang init na hatid ng kaniyang labi ay nagsisimula ng gumapang sa kaibuturan ko. I felt his hand caressing my back up and down, then it went to my legs.

I'm just wearing a lace panty underneath his white tee-shirt, so it was easy for him to slip his hand inside and grip the root of my legs to keep me still.

Binawi niya ang labi sa leeg ko at tiningnan ako.

"I want to taste you," sa malalim na boses.

I licked my lower lip. "I don't want. No foreplay, Azar."

Although I want to feel his tongue down there, my needs can't wait. It was too hard to control my desire when it comes to him. Because with him, I always feel horny. Ginigising niya ang malandi kong katauhan. Ang pasensiya ko ay mabilis mapigtas 'di tulad ng kaniya kagabi.

"Azar..." I called when he bent down to kiss my clothed peaks.

"Let's take this slow..." bulong niya.

I sighed and nodded. Naramdaman ko ang kaniyang kamay na hinihimas ang aking hita. Then a moan escaped my lips when I felt his fingers in between me, slightly pushing it outside my panty and that frustrates me. My panty frustrates me.

Nanghina ang tuhod ko nang nilaro niya ang aking dibdib ng kaniyang dila kahit may nakatabing pa itong damit. I pushed his head and stared at him with sleepy eyes.

"My clothes," naiinip kong sinabi.

"Ang inipin mo..." sabi niya.

He let out a chuckle and ripped the shirt into halves. Hindi ako nag-reklamo, damit naman niya ang pinunit niya. Now I'm sitting at the edge of the table wearing just my panty and bra, a snack ready to be eaten by one and only Azar. He stepped back then feasted my body with his lustful eyes.

I feel hot.

I unclasped my strapless bra and let it fell on the ground. Doon tuluyang napigtas ang pagpipigil niya. Bigla niya akong hinila palapit sa kaniya dahilan para mapatayo ako at marahas akong hinalikan. We kissed. My body was so hot from his wet and aggressive kisses. Kalaunan ay bumaba ang kaniyang bibig sa aking leeg at dibdib.

I watched him lapped and sucked my skin. Lumipad na ang inhibisyon ko sa katawan nang bumaba pa ang halik niya sa aking tiyan.

"Azar..." my voice was hoarse and low.

Tuluyan na niyang binaba ang aking huling saplot. Itinulak ko iyon palayo gamit ang paa. Ang puwetan ko ay napasandal sa gilid ng lamesa nang inangat niya ang binti ko. He put it on his shoulder. I gripped the edge on either side of me to support myself while he sat in between my legs.

I draw my head back when I felt him kissed me down there. I gripped his hair and watched him again pleasure me, letting out scream after scream as he eat me.

It was wet and ticklish inside me, rough and full. Pakiramdam ko ay mababaliw ako sa sensasyon na dinudulot niya sa katawan ko. I tried to push him away but the feeling was too much it made me weak to even move.

I felt feverish until I felt my release. Nanghihina pa ako nang pinatalikod niya ako at pinasok ang kaniya sa akin. Tuluyan na akong nawala sa sarili. My upper body was moving up and down against the table while he pounded hard behind me. I heard his lewd grunts as he pushed himself deeper and faster.

Minabuti kong sikupin ang aking buhok para lang mapadaing ng malakas nang may matamaan siya sa loob ko. Mababaliw na ako sa ginagawa niya sa aking likod. Ang mga kamay niyang mahigpit nakakapit sa beywang ko ay tanda ng gigil niya.

I moaned loudly when I pulsated. I came and after that, I felt him twitched inside me for his own release. Kinagat ko ang labi at malalim na huminga. Inalalayan niya ako at hinarap sa kaniya. Doon ko nakita ang pambaba niyang nasa kaniyang binti, hindi tuluyang nahubad.

I looked at him tiredly. "Nakakapagod..."

He chuckled. "Let me carry you upstairs to clean you up."

Tumango ako at hinayaan siya sa gusto niyang mangyari. Nilinisan niya ako, pagkatapos ay pinili kong matulog sa pagod na naramdaman.