The Broken Alpha

Jason (6)

Jason

“I can’t believe you guys are going to come when you don’t have to” I say to Sophie “Especially when you are pregnant!”

“Your family Jason” Sophie replied “Of course we are coming to help”

“But-” I cut of when Simon interrupted

“You know we aren’t going to let up mate” Simon’s voice cut in “besides, it will do all of us a good break”

“All?” I asked

“Yea. Kai, Soph, Scott, Kels and Ray” Simon said “John can’t just now because Sherry is due soon. First pup and with it being twins, he’s a nervous dad”

I put a hand to my forehead, wondering again why I had told them about my meeting Deedee. I should have kept my mouth shut. Now the whole crew wanted to come here.

“Sophie’s pregnant too and Kai’s a little young. Why would you bring them? A..and Ray-” I started to say

“Don’t. Don’t dismiss your twin like he doesn’t understand what you are going through” Simon cut in again “He feels your loss the most and we often find him with a vacant look when he feels your pain. As for Sophie, if I tried to leave her behind; the crazy female would just come her own way, this way I can at least manage her”

“MANAGE ME?!” Sophie shouted in the background “Are you f*****g serious right now Simon?”

I winced and I’m pretty sure I could feel Simon wince too at being caught out saying that. Sophie must have left the room and he must have felt it was safe enough to say that otherwise no man in his right mind would talk about their female like that within earshot. I could hear them both argue...well Sophie argue while Simon tried to placate her; before Kai’s words reached my ear

“Daddy, stop trying to control mum. Mum stop being mean to daddy because he only cares about you. Uncle Jason, I’m coming too. I want some cake that grandma Deedee gonna make and I need to speak to...erm….to….” Kai cut off

“To who buddy?” I asked, my heart speeding up

“What’s wrong Kai?” Simon asked

“I don’t know her name yet” Kai said sadly

“Who’s name?” Sophie asked

“Never mind. I have to wait” Kai said in a happy voice

“Wait? What do you mean?” Simon said

“Kai” I heard Sophie say before her voice faded

“What was that all about?” I asked Simon

“I have no clue” Simon sighed “That’s the thing with having a genius-blessed-by-the-moon-goddess supreme kid….he’s always sprouting half information and cryptic sentences”

I chuckled even as my heart galloped. Why, I don’t know. I shake my head and get up from the bed and walk over to the mini fridge and take out a bottle of water. Taking a big chug of it as Simon tells me what’s been going on with his pack, I listen half heartedly as my mind drifts back to yesterday. After meeting Deedee and discovering that she was a high witch, I had almost wanted to rip out her throat. I hate witches! If I could wipe every single one of them out. I would. Logically I know not all are bad, but the thing with witches is; they can turn at any seconds and the consequences of that affect everyone. A wolf turning feral is bad and it kills yes. But that’s all it can do. A witch….a high powerful witch can change fate. Can turn night into day, she can delve into the dark and rip out souls and commit unthinkable things. Things that shouldn’t even be possible except in movies!

When I had seen Deedee, the air around us crackled and sparked with power. Exactly like that day with Celine! I knew I was in the right place but i had been shocked too. Anna didn’t feel magickal so I couldn’t understand what was going on. I knew Deedee had adopted her, but how had Anna not been influenced by magick i’ll never know. When Deedee had spoken in my mind, I could feel my nails wanting to lengthen as I wanted to rip out her throat, but only because of Anna did I keep my human form. I had mumbled that I would be back tomorrow to see Anna if she wanted me to before hightailing it out there and checking into my hotel in the city.

I had to regroup. I had to think and plan. Celine was close. I could feel it. This wasn’t some cute little eco friendly hiking camp. This was a coven. A full fledged coven that had many generations of witches. Even as I drove out of the place, the few workers I saw all had the mark...the aura around them sizzling of magick. I can’t believe I had missed it! Once I had checked in, Anna had messaged me; asking if I was ok and I responded with a text saying I had to do something and would chat later. The whole night was spent between anger and hatred as my wolf and I fought to go on a killing spree. I wanted to shift and approach the high witch! I wanted to know where she had hidden Celine. I wanted to know what black magick they were doing and whose life they were ruining now. My wolf wanted that too but he kept saying there was more and we were missing something important. I didn’t care. I just wanted to find Celine! It was Kai’s call this morning that calmed us both down. Then of course Simon and Sophie came onto the call and two hours later, I’m still talking to them

“Promise me ok” I hear Simon say

“Erm…”

“You didn’t hear a word I just said did you?” Simon asked

I stayed quiet, not wanting to lie or admit to anything. Simon sighed and I could hear him walking about

“Don’t start a war without justification Jason” Simon said

“Without justification? You don’t think killing my mate and pup with black magick-” My anger rising as my eyes flashed wolf

“I’m not talking about that. Not right now. Kai knows something but seems reluctant to say. We have figured out that when that happens, it’s usually because the moon goddess has told him something and he needs to wait for whatever it is...to happen. The fact that Kai has said we need to come means it must be important. What if your action jeopardise that reason” Simon explains

I sigh, knowing he is right but it doesn’t make it easier. I sigh and agree with him, knowing that being told what to do was now starting to grate on my nerves.

“So, How long do I have to wait then?” I ask

“Well, it’s going to take me at least two to three weeks before we can come down. I have to organise the pack and - “

“Two or three weeks?” I shout “I can’t just twiddle my thumbs until then Simon! I’m so f*****g close!”

“I know. Maybe it will allow you to find out what Deedee is hiding or the girls. Something is going on but they’re not going to tell you unless they feel safe around you. You’ve been running after them for three years mate. Maybe take a week or so to allow yourself some down time. Even if it means using that time to know Anna or even better, get the lay of the land” Simon said

“Lay of the land” I whispered “Yea. your right! There may be more of them hiding, maybe areas where they do sacrifices or worse!”

“I didn’t mean-” Simon tried to say

“I get you. I know but...yeah. Ok. But Simon, don’t take long. After three years, I’m not willing to lose the lead that has taken me so long to get”

Finishing the call off, I toss my phone on the bed and decide to go for a showe. Being an alpha born wolf means I hate when others tell me what to do. I may not have a pack and I may not be an alpha to a pack but I am by blood. Just because for the last few years Ray and I have been no-mads doesn’t mean I don’t have alpha tendencies. And the fact that a three year old was currently running my life meant my wolf and I were mostly unhappy about that.

I grab the towel and turn on the shower, thinking about everything and knowing I can’t just sit still. As a plan started to form in my head, my wolf and I smiled; our eyes flashing with our cunning plan as it started to come together. The first thing I needed to do was take Anna out for a meal. She’s my lead. I know she is. And if it means I have to use her to get the information, I will. With this in mind, I stepped into the shower as I started to put everything into place in my head

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Deedee

I look at Anna as she tries on one outfit after another; her frustration clear as she tosses another black dress on the bed before sitting down on the pile of clothes in defeat

“That’s a pretty big sigh and a lot of clothes that you don’t seem to like” I say as I enter her room

“I can’t find anything to ware” Anna says in sadness

“All of these clothes have looked good on you whenever you have worn them. Why would you think they don’t look good now?” I asked her as I push her brown hair back from her face

“Why can’t I just stay as I was? I looked good in those clothes” Anna asked

“Because love, you know that’s not how it works. The spell will only last as long as you need it to -”

“But I need it to!” Anna cried out, throwing her hands up in the air

“Only when your life is in danger or when it is needed for a good purpose. Not for selfish gains” I explained after she had cut me off

“But -” Ann started

“He likes you because of you, love. Not because you were a blonde” I say as I turn her face to look at me

“I was slimmer then. Now...how could he like me like this!” She said with anger

“Savannah Jane Metcalf, you are gorgeous as you are and if any man only likes you because of a slimmer frame then he is not worth the dirt beneath your shoe!” I said in a firm voice

“You called me by my full name. You only do that when I do something wrong” Anna said with a surprised look on her face

“You ARE doing something wrong. You’re degrading yourself because you think you are not good enough. All because you are not as slim as you would like to be. As if that is all you are about” I said as I sat down beside her, moving some of the clothes out of the way

“How am I going to explain all of this to him?” Anna sigh

“Tell him that once you were back, you wanted to go back to your natural colour as you only did the blonde look for the trip and that during it, you wore those high waisted things that they show on the tv...you know” I say as I move my hands about “When they help woman to look slimmer under their clothes”

“The waist trainer. I can’t believe you’re telling me to lie to him. Especially him, my Tanniem. That’s always been a big no-no” Anna says as she shakes her head

“I know love. But you can’t tell him that you are a witch. Not yet” I say as i hold her hand

“Why not? I don’t get it. And I’m not just a witch. I’m a high witch. Shouldn’t he know that he is my Tanniem and -”

“NO!” I shout, cutting her off

Anna pales as she looks at me, her eyes wide.

“Please love. I’m not saying it’s forever. Just for now. I would never put you in danger” I say lovingly to her

“I know that mum” Anna whispered

“Then know that what I am saying is for the best. For just now. Both as your High witch and as your mum” I caress her face

She nods at me before looking around the bed. I get up and pull her with me

“Where is it that he wants to take you?” I ask her

“He said La Vitinos” Anna said, naming a popular italian restaurant “Then maybe some drinks”

“Well then” I say as I start to shift through some of the clothes “ If you want to dress it up, you can do so with this green dress. This always looks nice on you and with the black wedges you have, you always look great. Or if you don;t want him to think you made too much of an effort just for him, those black jeggings with this white top and those white heels would look amazing on you. You could even wear...one second” I close my eyes for a second before opening them again and opened out my right palm

“Your pearls!” Anna squeals in shock before taking them from my hand

“You are beautiful Anna. Your body doesn’t define you. Media doesn’t define you. Letting someone tell you your worth based on something that changes with time and circumstances is foolishness. While I may never understand the pressure you go through trying to fit into the world, I can understand the desire, the need to fit in. But my darling” I say as I grab her face with both my hands “don’t be the one who needs to fit into the world. Be the one that the world fits in with you.”

I kiss her forehead and walk out of the room, glancing back to see her pick up both of the outfits I suggested before she starts to put the rest of the clothes back in her wardrobe. I sigh as I start to walk towards my meditation room. As I round the corner, I see Zelda walking towards me, her floral dress swishing around her knees. As we both walk into the room, I walk towards the middle of the room where there are comfortable sofas and sit down with a deep sigh, conjuring a pot of tea and some biscuits.

“I take it you haven’t told her then?” Zelda asks me

“How can I? She’s an innocent in all of this. None of it is her fault and yet, she will be asked to go through so much….the pain of betrayal, of loss” I shake my head in sadness “How can I tell her”

“But if they are smart, there is much happiness to be gained too Deedee. Surely that matters more. There is hope” Zelda says as she pours in a cup of tea and give it to me

“Hope that is built up with trust. With love. I have seen inside of his heart. There is so much anger, so much hate towards our kind. But even more, for Celine” I said explain

“But once explained-”

“It will not matter. His heart is too full of hate for the loss of his mate and pup right now” I say, cutting off Zelda “For it to be given a chance, she has to denounce her powers, at least for a short time”

“You mean she has to lie” Zelda said, taking her own cup of tea and sitting down beside me “but if the relationship starts off with a lie. It wont work”

“It wont work with her telling him the truth...or what she thinks is the truth. Don’t forget that we have also kept many things from her. To have a chance, he must care for her; love her like a mate of his kind. Without hate clouding his judgement”

“So how will she explain everything?” Zelda asked me

“She has already told him she was adopted. I told her to appear as human in front of him. She will drink the position I have made for her daily so her magickal aura doesn’t allow him to see her for what she is. I hope and pray that in that time, he will see her as his mate without hatred so she may tell him the truth” I explain

“But what about the LunaPerja?” Zelda asked me

“I don’t know” I whisper quietly

“It usually happens within a month of finding a Tanniem. It means she’s ready to be a high witch. There’s still so much she has to learn. How will she have her training while he is here and she’s hiding her true self from him?” Zelda asked me worriedly

“I..I’m not sure how this will work but I will find a way to do it.” I say determinedly.

Placing the cup of tea back onto the table, I stand up and walk further back into the room and chant a quick spell; feeling Zelda coming up behind me. The room where I normally meditated in, changed and now instead of a warm room with wallpaper and good lighting; there were grey stone walls with three black scones on the wall with fire alighting as I walked further towards a chest of drawers against one wall. Waving my left hand, I unlocked the drawer and pulled it open

“Maybe we should tell her. Tell them the truth Deedee” Zelda says in a quiet voice

“And risk her future as a high witch? Risk Kai’s heart that is attached to her future? After all we have worked for? No. This can be the only way” I say

Reaching in, I take out the golden bag and open it quietly, my hand reaching inside and feeling the cold metal tailend. I pull it out of the bag and hold it in both my hands, my body shuddering with the power that comes from holding the black dagger; still stained with Jason’s pups blood.

The dagger now glowing as it responded to its original owner.