The Broken Alpha

Savannah (7)

“He’s here!” Tara squealed.

A few seconds ago, the main buzzer to enter the property sounded and Tara; who had come over an hour ago to help do my make-up and hair, let out a squeal. I took a deep breath as I looked in the mirror with a critical eye. I really wish I had been able to keep the spell on me, not so much the hair but the slimmer me. I really hope he wont be put off by my curvier look.

“Stop it! You look stunning!” Tara said

I met her eyes with mine in the mirror as I gave a wobbly smile. I couldn’t help it. She did a great job with my hair, curling it with one of those fancy tong things that I can never work right. Then she had backcombed it a little and pinned some of my hair on the top of my head and somehow made my hair look like princess aurora from sleeping beauty with the curls flowing down my back. Don’t get me started on the makeup! The most I can do is put on a bit of concealer and basic eyeliner...none of that fancy flicks at the side and cat eyes stuff. But she did things with contour and blusher and eyelashes that makeup artist would be proud of and yet I didn’t look caked on. Just gloway with enhancement. No, my worry was about my weight. About how my breast looked bigger, how my hips were round. How my belly was still seen slightly with this white blouse.

“You made my face look stunning. And my hair” I said, thanking her

“Do I need to punch you?” Tara asked me “You look amazing. I’d love to have your curves. I’m a beanpole!”

“But you always look fantastic and you don’t have a belly-”

“Or rocking hips or great t**s or a banging ass” Tara said, cutting in

I smile a little harder at her crude words. I loved that we weren’t fake with each other or used sophisticated words. That’s also why her parents often think about getting her settled down. I chuckled at her support, my breathing hitching as I hear Deedee speak to Jason downstairs.

“Hey” Tara said gently “You honestly do look stunning; but if he...if ANY guy doesn’t like you for the way your body is. Screw him! Your worth more than that asshole”

“But he’s my Tanniem” I whisper gently “It mean that I let him down and-”

“NO Anna!” Tara said in a rushed voice “Don’t think like that. Look, go out, enjoy yourself. Don’t over think it. Not yet. See how the night goes and like Deedee says; use the excuse that we were on holiday, that’s why the change of appearance happened and that you used the waist trainer and other such things”

Nodding, I took a deep breath as Tara urged me to move. I picked up my black Valentino bag up from the bed and checked it once more before following her out and down the stairs, my heart breathing erratically. Tara stopped on the third step and motioned for me to go past her. Taking another deep breath, I walked down and onto the landing where the voices were louder as Jason and Deedee spoke about the best places for dessert. My wedged shoes alerting them to my presence. Jason had his back to me and when he turned around to look at me his mouth opened before he closed it and smiled.

God! I hope it’s not because he’s disappointed with how I really look!

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Jason

I spoke to Deedee, my heart racing. My mind split as I wanted to speak to her and find out what was going on yet attack her for being a witch! I hate witches! There nothing but evil, self-centered haters who shouldn’t even be allowed to practise magick! They should all be wiped from this earth! I know it’s not logical. I know technically not all witches are the same, but powerful ones; they all become greedy at the end. They all take the lives of the innocent.

“She isn’t what you think” Deedee said quietly

“You don’t know what I think” I say

“It is clearly written on your face young Alpha” Deedee gently explained “She is innocent. Don’t play with her heart. She had nothing to do with that which was lost to you”

I shouldn’t have been surprised that she knew what had happened to me. I could tell that she was a powerful witch. Even as disgust at her powers rolled through me, some part of me understood her worry and that she genuinely cared for Anna.

“I know she is adopted and I don’t hold her responsible” I explained after a few seconds of silence.

Nodding at me, Deedee started to speak to me about the Italian place we were going to, telling me some of the dishes that were good there and the best place to consider going for desserts; when suddenly Tolken started to go crazy in my head

Mate! Mate! Mate is here! Go to her!

What the f**k? I said What mate? Our mate died Tolken!

No! This mate! This one. She’s here! We are blessed

What the f**k are you on about? I asked him angrily Are you forgetting what happened to our mate, our pup?

No but I’m telling you, we have been given a second-

NO! I shouted in my head, cutting off our link.

I could hear him growl in anger at that in my head but I ignored it, shaking my head at his words. Denying them. Just then the most amazing scent filled my nostrils! I had smelled it before but not as strongly as this! When I saw Deedee smile, I turned around and my heart stopped beating for a second and I swear my breath stopped for a second too

The vision in front of me was Anna. I knew that because her face was the same. But the rest of her was so different! Gone was the blonde hair that I thought was not really her. In Its place with this stunning, long curly brown hair. Well, not brown. It was mahogany; all these different shades of it that made her hair shine! But the best part? Was her body! My goddess! Don’t let me embarrass myself! Her body was a mouth-watering road map with dips and curves in all the right places! I could feel myself get hard, my eyes start to shift as Tolken tried to come out.

I was confused. Where was this body when I spoke to her and spent time with her in the car. I knew women often changed hair colours and did all this fancy stuff to it when they spent crazy amounts of money on it. But surely there’s not a way to do that to their bodies...was there? I shook my head and smiled at her as she walked closer, taking in the form fitting black jegging that made her legs look like they went on forever. She had this white blouse that nipped in at the waist and curved over her luscious hips. With her hair curling around her, her oh ….goddess!...pouting red lips, I tried to control myself from grabbing her and taking her against the wall. To sniff her and find out how she tasted like.

“Hi” I said gruffly

“Hi” She replied with a blush

How far did that blush go? I wanted to find out. s**t! Calm down! I said to Tolken

“You ok to go?” I asked, my tongue dry ic my mouth

“Sure” She said with a bright smile.

I nodded to Deedee and walked with Anna to the front door, my hand automatically going to the middle of her back. I saw Tara standing on the steps of the stairways with a big smile as she waved us off. I helped Anna into the Land Rover before getting in and driving, my eyes constantly looking at her. Thank god it was darker in the car and she couldn’t see my raging hard on. I had ten minutes in which to try and calm myself or I doubt the Italian place will let me in with the way I was pitching a tent.

“You look amazing. Your hair...wow” I said, trying to think of what to say to help myself calm down

“I..when Tara and I go on holiday; we usually change our looks. I mean, Tara’s hair had changed too but we always go back to our original look once we are back home” Anna explained

“Tara’s hair was different?” I asked in surprise “sorry, I didn’t notice”

Anna looked shocked before she smiled further, chuckling. I cleared my throat as I looked at her again, her breast making my mouth tingle with thought of sucking at them, wondering if she had big n*****s. When I got into the city and slowed down a little, she caught me looking at her again and her one perfect eyebrow rose, asking me what I was thinking

“I uh...sorry. You look great. I just can’t get over how lush you look” I said without thinking

Her smile dimmed a little as sadness entered her eyes. What did I say wrong?

“Lush? Oh” Anna said quietly, averting her eyes

“Anna? What did I say wrong?” I asked her

Anna shook her head, biting her bottom lip before looking outside the window. I finally found a parking space and quickly took it, only a short walk away from the Italian and switched the engine off once I parked.

“Anna? Please talk to me. You’ve gone all quiet” I say

“I...it ok” Anna said with a deep breath, her blue eyes brighter, as if tears were in her eyes

“No it’s not. I’ve upset you. I’ve…..not done this for a long time” I said quietly

“Done what?” Anna asked

“Date. Flirting. Knowing what the right thing to say is” I explained

“Why?” She asked innocently

“I..had...can we speak about that another time? I just wanted you to know that if I’ve said something, it wasn’t intentional” I tried to explain

“It wasn’t wrong. I….guess I am more bigger than what you originally saw, so you saying that isin’t wrong” Anna said in a rush

“Bigger? What do you mean?” I asked her, confused

“Fatter” Anna whispered

“FATTER? What the hell? I never said that!” I exclaimed

“You said lush so I-” Anna cut off

“And you took that to mean I called you fat! f**k!” I said in shock “No Anna! Hell no. Lush to me means beautiful, curvaceous. A real woman. Sure I’m confused as to how in a space of a day and a half you went from blond hair and really thin to curvaceous and stunning hair but not in a bad way. I love your body!”

“Y...You do?” She asked nervously

“Hell yes!” I said with passion

“I...wore one of those waist trainer things and this other body contour undergarment that helps to flatten my body. That’s why I...looked slimmer” Anna explained

“Why?” I asked her

“Why? Why what?” Anna asked me

“Why would you wear those? I know what you’re talking about...I’ve seen those late night shopping channels and the stuff some of the reality tv stars wear. They look like a person can’t breath or be comfortable in them. Why would you wear them?” I asked her

“I..Uh...well” Anna looked embarrassed “You know” She said as she gestured to the rest of her body

Confused, I looked at her and once again, my mouth watered. Shaking my head I laughed

“Sorry darlin, but I’m confused. What exactly are you gesturing at?” I asked her

“This” Anna said quietly, pointing towards her front “I wanted to look slimmer and more in proportion. I...I’m hoping I can train my body to be mo-”

“Wait, wait, wait” I said, cutting her off “Are you telling me that you hate being curvy? That to you, the word lush is a bad thing?”

Anna bit her bottom lip again and quickly averted her eyes. My goddess was she serious? She didn’t think her body was good enough? How could she think that!

“God Anna! You’re perfect! Your everything a man wants in a woman! When I say lush; I mean like a peach. I just want to sink my teeth into you” I burst out

Anna gasped, her breath hitching as she took my measure. When I still saw a little doubt there, I grabbed her hand and placed it on my still rock hard c**k under my jeans and once again she gasped

“I’m not lying sweetheart. I’ve been like this since I’ve met you and even more so since I picked you up. I’ve been trying like hell to think about something else to calm myself down. This is not something I can fake or lie about” I said

My breath hissed out when I felt her coup my erection and squeeze it a little and I could feel the heat on her cheeks, knowing she was blushing again. Except now, her eyes sparkled.

“I thought...most guys like how Tara looks and I just thought; maybe you-” She cut off, her hand still on my cock

“Tara? No. She’s not my type at all. I prefer real women, fleshy curvaceous...sexy...like you. Ones I don’t worry about bruising or breaking!” I say without thought

“Really?” Anna asked “I never thought someone like you would”

“Someone like me?” I asked her

“You know...muscley, good looking. I figured you would want a gym bunny” Anna explained

“f**k no. I do the gym because I eat so much. You’ve seen me. I like being strong but that is not because I want to look like a pretty boy superhero. And darling, as much as I love your hand on my c**k; if we don’t stop, I’m going to not care that we are in plain view of everyone and risk being charged with indecent exposure” I explained

“Would that be so bad?” Anna asked quietly

I closed my eyes. She smelled delicious, she looked like my f*****g wet dream and her desire for being bad just pushed her towards being the best f*****g thing in my life. I took two deep breaths when Anna called my name. Opening my eyes, I leaned forward and took her lips in a hot kiss, my tongue dueling with hers as I tried to show her how I felt. Just as she started to suck on my tongue,with great difficulty; I pulled away. Our ragged breathing loud in the car

“I want to take you out for dinner. I want to show you off that someone like you is with me. Let me take you for dinner and then…-” I cut off

“Then?” Anna said breathlessly

“Then we can see” I said

Taking her hand off my c**k, I open my door; urging her to follow. As Anna reapplied her lipstick quickly, I turned towards the door and quickly re-adjusted myself and blew out a breath, hoping to calm my erection. As Anna came out of the car and walk around towards me, I smiled and put my hand on her back as we both walked towards the restaurant.

Once seated, I took her hand in mine and kissed it, her smile bright when I kept holding it. I couldn’t believe she doubted her attractiveness! What fucker made her think her curves weren something to be ashamed of? Sure...Tasha was slimmer. I swallowed as I thought about her, my heart twinging a little. Sure I wanted her to be curvier. I remember thinking that the baby would fill her out and how I would encourage her not to try losing all the baby fat quickly. I’ve always loved curvier woman. And while other guys wanted only perfectly slim, toned or no stomach. I honestly didn’t care. To me, she was perfect as she was. There was more to hold onto; more to love

And more space for our pup to move around in and be comfortable in Tolken said

I froze for a second, my body turning to stone as an image of Anna, round with my pup came to mind. She would be even lushier. Beautiful all big and round. She would be a gentle, loving mother who - Stop! I couldn’t think like that. Couldn’t think about another pup. She was my link to Celine. That’s all! I couldn’t think about mates or pups. Not when my own family lay buried in a cold grave.

When the waiter approached us for our order, I encouraged her to choose whatever she wanted while adding four of my own choices. She looked at me with a smile and laughed along as I spoke about my appetite. As the time went on and we enjoyed one course after another, I realised how genuinely warm and loving she was. How her laugh was clear and sounded nice and it actually reached her eyes. How her body curved into mine when she seeked comfort and closeness. How her flush made me hard just looking at her and wondering if I could follow it with my tongue.

We decided to have desserts at the same place because they brought back a favourite of Anna’s and we both enjoyed our conversation. When it was time to leave, I planned to take her dancing. I wanted to hold her, to see her laugh and enjoy herself. As we walked out towards the car, our fingers locked together and my mouth opened, intending to ask her about dancing

“Come back with me?” I asked instead

“What?” Anna asked, eyes wide

“I was going to ask you the best place to go dancing but I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t...share you with others just now. Came back with me?” I asked her

I can’t believe I asked her that! f**k! What was wrong with me? Why was I acting like a horny teen?

Mate! She’s our mate Tolken said

I didn’t respond

“Yes” Anna whispered

I leaned in and kissed her, our breath mingling as one. Our tongue clashing as I sucked at tongue, pulling her closer to me. WHen I heard some catcalls and whistling, I looked up and saw a couple of lads who were clearly drunk walking our way. I could see the learing lust in one of the guys eyes and I left out a warning growl. How dare they look at what was mine!

“Jason?” Anna asked me, her eyes full of worry

“Come on” I said “Lets go”

I placed her in the car and got in myself just as the drunk started making lewd comments but I shut him out before I did something that would frighten her. When I started the car, Anna looked at me

“You can drop me home if you want...I mean, you don’t have to feel like you -”

I grabbed her hand with one of mine as I used the other to drive and placed it over my c**k again; seeing where the conversation was going. When Anna’s breath hitched, I knew she understood that this was no pity f**k. Nor was it a one time lonely, lustful night. She squeezed my c**k, I groaned and it took everything I had to concentrate as I drove us to my hotel and all that way, she kept her hand there. By the time I parked up, the car smelled like our combined lust and I could taste a hint of her p***y as her wetness permeated the air.

Fuck! I wanted her badly and when I looked at her shining blue eyes full of trust, she broke me. I thought I was broken before but her trust in me felt like I was being broken further. I couldn’t let her go. I don’t know what this is. I can’t accept what the obvious signs are telling me. I had to avenge my family. I had to find Celine.

But maybe, along the way, I can find something for me. Because this female right here is breaking me and i’m not sure what happens to me if the solid, remaining parts of me break too