To Love an Asexual Woman

I look around me and all I see is that happy couple over there enjoying themselves over simple burgers. And that one over there taking selfies laughing their heads out. And this family enjoying Saturday afternoon like any other normal family. Everywhere I look there is happiness in groups of two, three, four. I am the only loner in the place, doing my best at enjoying my moka while finishing this stupid paper that is due the day after tomorrow. Bruh. What the hell? Ain't that annoying, being the spectator of so much positivity when the only thing I want is to enjoy my great misery? So much left to do for that paper. I haven't even seen the end of it, and the deadline dreads upon me. Ironically, the subject is on factors that make loving partners happy within the great entity of society, marriage. A paper for a psychology course that seems pretty innocent, but with today's divorce rates, understanding what makes someone happy (and not!) in a relationship becomes more important than ever... I was hoping to witness some drama that would fuel my lack of ideas in completing my paper, but I guess I am out of luck this time. Erf. I am kind of envious. I think I'll browse social media a bit. Wh-what the hell? Is it also reading minds now?! They are offering me to subscribe to this mainstream dating app everyone is talking about. ... Not doing it. No. Nope. ... Its reputation is for hook ups anyway, and I am totally not into that. I will never understand the culture of one night stands. What is so attractive in a stranger's body anyway? To me it looks gross, to even think about getting s****l with a person I have just met. I do have to admit I am starting to feel lonely. Most of my friends are in a relationship, and my last one ended 2 years ago. Not that I want or feel the need to be in a relationship, but I miss sharing intimacy and overall developing a strong bond with someone. ...I guess meeting new people wouldn't hurt. And I remember that dating app that was not made only for hookups. More my style, and I would maybe have more chances in avoiding fuckpeople. Okay okay okay, let's give it a try. You won me over, sponsored ad, pfffft!