Ink by me

Episode 1 The day I realized my life was changing forever started like any other ordinary morning One cold morning while the sky was slowly brightens washing the darkness away with pale light , cold air brushes my skin as birds begins to sing with their voices gentle and unhurried . The world feels calm as it stretches awake, my phone rang my eyes were bright opened I checked and saw my uncle name on the line I was wondering why he was calling . The last time he called was when I lost my mom . I stood up from my bed wiped my face and called him back. I heard a loud voice saying “Thea where are you ,why didn’t you pick earlier ,start coming home now “ I was so confused I didn’t understand what could have gone wrong . I stood up took a shower, dressed up, picked little clothes and went home . On my way home a lot was running through my mind and couldn’t think of anything that could be wrong at home . When I got to my bustop I meet with my old friend and she gave a strange greeting. At this point nothing concerns me I just wanted to see my father . I missed the man so much and couldn’t wait to see him . I got to my house and meet a lot of people outside crying and immediately they saw me they were mute for some minutes I asked what was wrong and no one said anything. I saw my cousins outside too and I was wondering why I am seeing all their faces. I asked Ryan my uncles older son what was wrong he didn’t utter a word but kept on crying . Ella the younger sister came to hold me and said I should just calm down Then I said ; Thea(me) : What happened nah ,is anyone not going to talk . Ella : Sister Thea your daddy is dead (said with tears ) I was confused and I started laughing Thea(me): my dad ! How ? When ? Where No nah you must be joking Ella : Sister Thea your daddy is dead You can go inside and check Then my uncle came outside and I ran to meet him Thea (Me ): Uncle is it true , where is my daddy ?? Uncle : My Daughter calm down Thea(Me) : Uncle I’m calm where is my daddy Uncle : your dad is lying dead inside Tears rolled down my eyes I ran inside the house and saw my dad covered with a white cloth then I knew it was true . I ran to the cloth ,opened it and saw my dad laying lifeless . I couldn’t stop crying ,my eyes were blocked with tears . My uncle and his children came in a drew me away from his body . Ella grabbed me tight , I couldn’t move it felt like nothing was left inside of me , I felt so empty I couldn’t breathe ,tears were rolling out uncontrollably. I still couldn’t believe my dad was gone . My uncle took me out and told me I needed to take heart and continue with life saying my father has gone to rest . I chuckled and said ; Thea(me ): Why can’t I go with him ?? Uncle :No my daughter you are still young you just need to keep going and make him proud Ella : sister you need to stop crying and think of what next I moved far from them sat beside a tree closed to our house and was asking myself ; How would I start again , how do I leave without my dad .life feels empty right now ..I feel so down … I feel I don’t exist for anyone anymore . I couldn’t sleep that night The next day we buried my dad and I couldn’t stay in that house . I had to go stay at my uncles house That night I still couldn’t sleep Immediately I close my eyes I see my dad Tears rolled down my eyes I felt so miserable Life felt like it was going to end . Days were passing and still couldn’t get my self . I had exams to do in school , I had lots of Assignments to submit . I felt there wasn’t any need for me to go back to school. The man I wanted to make proud is gone already and how am I even going to pay my year 3 and 4 fees without him . Things were getting hard already but then I felt my dad was always with me and he wants me to succeed . That night I went to my uncle and told him I wanted to get back to school .then he said ; Uncle : Thea my love I don’t think you should get going now . Thea : No sir , I have things to do and my exam is fast approaching and my dad wouldn’t even like me being here without doing my studies . Uncle : yes I understand but can you please stay this weekend then you will go back on Monday morning . Thea : Alright sir I would but early on Monday I will be gone Uncle : okay my daughter , goodnight dear . Thea : good night sir ( leaving the living room) Immediately I got back inside I started picking my stuffs one after the other I wanted to go back to school badly . I was already imagining how much i am going to suffer without my father . “God help me” I couldn’t control my tears I felt so down and lonely and started questioning God “God why so soon , why my father of all person , why me , why do you want me to suffer all to my self arghh , God please help me I can’t face this alone “