Hearts desire

Chapter 2

"Lilly i wont go back there, you can not possibly think this is right." i say to Lilly who just made us some coffee.

I'm thankful for her she's been a good friend, and she stood up for me in many ways. Lilly saw what went on and she knew i was not the only one that Chris have done this to.  i hope someone will give him is day back one day.

"Then what will you do, please Amber i will support you and you have to report him to the police. He wont stop until someone puts a stop to it, and just remember i will also testify and i will stand with you. Amber you've been a friend and I'm worried about you." Lilly says while she slides my phone and bag over the counter

I sigh, with my head hanging over my coffee, feeling this weight over my shoulders. I know if i go to the police, nothing will happen Chris is rich and is wife is well known in the community doing charity work.  I know i will need to find a way i just don't know what yet. I have been bruised and abused my whole life and now this is over me to.  I need some space and time.

"I know Lilly and i appreciate all you do, i will go report this matter, not that i think anything will come from it you know how they operate and how they let things disappear. I'm thinking, maybe I need to get away, like go somewhere and see to start fresh and find a good job again, somewhere far away from this place." I replied taking my phone.

"Ok so where are you thinking of going, its not like there is any place here that will give you what you looking for " Lilly is now sitting next to me with her hand on my shoulder. " maybe you should sleep here tonight and just don't make decisions that is rushed, i can make a few calls to friends of mine that might know of places." 

"No, its alight i will go search a few places when I'm home and then i will make my decision tomorrow. Thank you for the offer i want to be in my own space. Its been a rough day, maybe just go and have a bath or deep shower and just be for a moment."

After a while i thank Lilly for everything and move down the apartment stairs towards my car. I even forgot to ask Lilly what happened to the meeting seeing that i was out so fast, I worked so hard for it and here i am driving back to my apartment. Thinking it really doesn't matter anymore seeing that i wont be going back there. I have to admit that it does hurt. Working yourself to such an extend living for the job just to survive and then loosing it all like this.  The gossip should be something right now in that place but i miss my friends.  Well no time for simmering over it i can still get in touch but i need to focus on me now and a new life or just going somewhere.

I stop at the local restaurant to get something to eat at home. I have not eaten the whole day and i had to wait to get to Lilly to get my bag and cellphone. Parking my car being oblivious to all and everything around me i walk inside the Italian restaurant.  Its packed like always, i know here you need an appointment to get a table , luckily i know the manager and i always get some food here to dine at home.

"Buonasera Ambre, Stia bene, sembri cosi triste stasera." Angelino greets me in his deep voice 

"Hi Angelino" i smile hugging him " You know i don't speak Italian, I don't know why you always speak to me in your language, how am i suppose to answer you if i don't even know what your saying"  laughing slightly.

"Yes fair point, breaks my heart you don't speak, I was asking if you are alright, you look sad tonight, not your usual happy." he says with holding my hands in both his hands.

"Just a little trouble from work" i reply looking at him with a smile

"you want me to go there i can make trouble" Angelino replies with his fist making the motion to boxing

"Now why would you do that, who will make me my meals or be so nice to have my coffee ready in the mornings" I reply to his funny ways

Angelino stands with his hand on his chest and frowns, " My heart, you have now given me the answer, you miss Amber only want my food, i will bleed for the rest of my days. You come tell me when you need someone, Okay, I will always be here." We both just laugh at our conversation

"I need some food for home do you have space for my order." I ask him

"We always have space for our little Amber, would you like the usual or something else this time, we have beautiful penne pasta with olives, watercress, anchovies roast Rosa tomatoes and Feta" Angelino informs me

"That sounds lovely thank you i will have that." i replied

Standing by the reception, i quickly pay for the meal and order a cappuccino while i wait on my meal. I move to the window and just stare into the night, the forever cars on the road the noise.  

I have this feeling again, the feeling of being watched.  I cant shake it, i had it in the park waiting for time to go by to go to Lilly and now. Wonder if it is that piece of slime or something else. I turn to look at everyone in the restaurant going about their conversation their meals. Not concentrating on anyone specific i just look.

I'm snapped out of thought when Angelino stands in front of me with my meal, wow that was really quick.  "Here you are, i made some dessert too, will i see you tomorrow." he ask looking concerned

" Thank you for the meal, no i wont be here tomorrow I'm thinking of having a bit of a holiday, so ill be back maybe in a few weeks, I will miss everything about you." i say hugging him.

"you call me right" he ask 

"Always" i say with my eyes being all watery again

As I'm turning to walk out i have this feeling of being watched. I get to the door and turn around to wave at Angelino just to see that he is busy talking to that block of a man again. They both are looking at me and Angelino is waving back. Not thinking anything about it i get into my car heading home.