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“Good morning ma, good morning Quinn” I heard some staffs greeting but I just walked into my office and left Quinn greeting and and answering almost the whole company “Get Alex please” I told my secretary as I sat on my seat Soon there was a knock on the door Okay, Quinn is around and I can’t let her know I’m liking Alex cos it’s really gonna be awkward so I kept a mean face “Good morning ma” “Sort them” I said dropping some bunks of files on the table “Okay ma” he said softly and started sorting them, he’s really charming, I couldn’t hide it, I admire everything about him... “Nan?!” “yes? When will you ever call my name without screaming it?” “Well I did for the first two times I called you but it seems you were lost in thought” Oh my God Quinn already saw me looking at Alex “Uhm.. really?... I wasn’t lost in thought...I was just...” I tried to defend myself stuttering “I see” “When did you get in?” I asked “Oh you should know cos you wasn’t lost in thoughts” “Alex leave us please” I ordered “Okay ma” he said and walked out “Hold on, do you like him?” “What!! Cut that scrap,like who? I don’t, I can’t, how on earth can I even be attracted to my worker” “I see a different you now” “Please stop this I have a lot on my desk” “You’re really not telling the truth right now, cos I can’t remember you staring at a man the way you did some minutes ago” “I wasn’t staring at anyone Quinn” “Okay what about we do something” Okay whatever it is I sure know it’s going to be crazy “What?” “If you really insist you don’t like that guy sack him” “What?! I mean why? Why should I do that, he didn’t even do anything wrong to me” “Uhhuh you like him!” “I don’t” “Then do it!” “I can’t just sack him, I mean he did nothing” “Nan you and I know how you are and how you have been, you sack your workers at a slight mistake, you don’t see it as anything”Quinn said “Well, thank God you said at a slight mistake which Alex haven’t made yet...so... I’m not sacking him”I said trying to make a sense “You care about him” “Quinn pleaaaase I really have a lot to do you can see my table all piled up” I said pointing at the files on the table “Well I’m not going now till lunch”Quinn said reluctantly “So what are you gonna do until lunch?” I asked “Just sit here and look at you stare at that cute guy again”she said with a mock tone I picked up the telephone with an angry face “Wait, what are you doing”she asked in laughter “You wanna see?” “Fineee stare at him alone” she said picking her bag to leave “I hate you!” “I love you more sis”she replied shutting the door “Oh my goodness “ I said in relief “Do I really care about Alex??” “Am I really attracted to him??” “Is it because of his looks??” “Do I really want him??”I asked myself almost at once I can remember my dads face, he was tall,light skinned,with a black hair,my dad was the definition of a good looking man, but how did my mom ended up with him? He left his own family He left us in the street to feed in and sleep in with all his good looks Where was his good looks when my mom died in the street and then followed by his own daughter, where’s was his dark shiny hair when I slept alone in the street till Quinn and I finally got together and started living in a one room apartment Where was those his charming smiles when Quinn had to work so hard to see me through school just to secure a better life for the both of us, or his nice sets of teeth was there when I graduated from college?”I asked myself in tears “I need no man...I can’t let any man mess with my life I can’t let any man win my heart and abandon me in the street like my mom, if my mom had had a better life she wouldn’t have been dead by now...she would have been here with me and my sister”I said and screamed in pains My door got opened and Alex came in in panic “Are you alr...” “Get out!!!!” I yelled and he left immediately After some minutes I became calm and started thinking again Over the years I’ve never fallen in love with any man now I feel something for Alex, why don’t I deal with him serving him as a point of contact to his gender...I hate him because I fell for him,I wasn’t supposed to love or care about any man,but Alex came in trying to mess up everything for me, but I won’t let him rather I’ll torture him”I thought to myself and went back to work I didn’t see Alex for the rest of the day I got home and sank on my couch and woke up the next morning I was so tired, I can’t go to work but I’ll just have to do something at home I grabbed my laptop stared at it for a moment and something crossed my mind “What if I start working from home with Alex, this would give me a better opportunity to deal with him” I said I picked up my phone and called Doris to tell Alex I’ll be needing His services at home for sometime Soon Alex arrived my place “Good morning ma”Alex greeted I didn’t look at his face “Where is the file I asked you to get for me?” “File? I’m sorry ma but Doris didn’t talk about any file, she just said you wanted me to...” “Shut up and just go get it then” I said yelling and he ran out immediately Soon he was back “ma there was no file on your table and Doris said you only put the works you have worked on in your drawer” “I found it after you left” “Ohh that’s good”he said feeling relieved I got out a list and threw it at him “Go get everything listed there”I ordered without looking at his face “Okay ma” And why is he always looking innocent and calm don’t he feel worked up already “Take the Jeep and make sure nothing happens to it” I warned “Ohh thank you ma” “You have a lot to do here today so don’t spend a whole thirty minutes out” “Okay ma” he said and left Okayyy that was wayyy much There’s a lot in that list not to talk of the distance and the faulty car I asked him to go on There’s seriously no way he could make it back here in thirty minutes time here in thirty minutes time It was 3 O’clock already and Alex is not yet back I got up from my work seat and moved outside to look and I heard a car sound I saw the car but it was a cab I stood as he offload the stuffs he got from the car booth “I’m so sorry ma...” Before Alex could finish I landed him a hot slap “This isn’t thirty minutes nor two hours”I said in a harsh tone “Ma I tried to make it but...”Alex tried to explain but I cut him short “And where’s my Jeep” “It broke down on my way back...I got there in it almost not possible”he explained in fear “Alex you left here with just three instructions and you messed up already keeping up to just one?” “I’m so sorry ma...” “Shut that dirty gutter on your face you call mouth...your salary is going to fix that car” I said and walked out “I’m really sorry ma...I swear didn’t tough handle it”Alex said in pains I felt bad and happy at the same time, maybe I shouldn’t have over reacted unnecessarily, of course that wasn’t really necessary but I just had to I went back inside and sat on the couch and watched Alex carried the stuffs he got inside He looked so cute and innocent carrying them...I felt terrible at this point but I can’t show it “Nan!! Nan!!” Of course it’s Quinn “I’m not missing Quinn” “I never said you was” she said and sat down “What’s up with the stuffs outside?”Quinn asked “I needed to restock my kitchen so I got Alex to do it” I replied “Alex, the guy at the office, to restock your kitchen? Nan you aren’t even making a sense right now that’s a full grown man whose only assigned duty should be in your office and not restocking your kitchen...hold on! The last time I came your kitchen was still filled up and I remember asking if you ever touch anything in your kitchen so how come you restocking it again”Quinn pointed out “Well I just felt I should” “What about Susan, your house help? “Quinn!! I’ll be working at home for now and I needed Alex to help out with some works” “Including restocking your kitchen?” “He is not going to die after that tho...he is just helping and I might top something to his salary” I explained trying to defend myself “Sorry for chipping in ma, you said you’re going to add something to my salary? Aren’t you going to fix the car with it anymore? Alex asked coming out of the kitchen “Which car?”Quinn asked “And who gave you the guts to chip in my conversation with my friend?” I said rushing towards where he was standing and dropped a harsh on his face “I’m sorry ma”Alex said holding his cheek and looking downward “Nan!!!? What has come over you? Alex you can go now, you’re done for the day”Quinn said angrily Alex left with a sad face, I felt really bad but I can’t back down, I’ll just have to keep on doing this till I hate him finally “Nan what has come over you? I know about you being uptight but I’ve never seen you raised your hands on anyone not to talk of a man Nancy... I actually thought you liked this guy, why are you treating him with so much hatred”Quinn asked with so much anger “Well, now you can see I don’t like him” “What if he wasn’t that calm and hits you back” “I guess that will be the end of his miserable life” I said with so much boldness Why do I feel this way? I feel guilty right in my heart but something won’t let me show it I can feel the anger in Quinn’s voice That young man did absolutely nothing to me but I’m so determined to torture him “I’m leaving!” Quinn said angrily and left Right now I felt so bad...maybe I shouldn’t have slapped him again... or I’m really over doing this? “What if Alex starts to hate me? But I don’t even care” I said to myself and grabbed my laptop to work on but I couldn’t concentrate