Broken

Blackout

Angelina

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Before marriage I already decided that after getting married to him I give up my company to him. I know that he wanted to take over my business. It's not that I will letting him take over my company. I just give all the responsibilities of my company to him. Because this time I just want to focus on my children's.

 I know that I can take care Cindy with the help of a babysitter. But now she is not a long I have another two childrens. They are too small. They need their mother very much. I did not wanted to take any risks with them. After getting married to Danial I also wanted to give up my business but Danial did not know anything about business. And I did not wanted to sale my company.

So that I continue this but right now I know that Black is good businessman. Even he is a brilliant businessman. I know that he will be take care my company better than anyone. Beside he is my husband now so I have no problem to sharing my business with him.

Before marriage I know that he wanted to destroy my company. But now I know that he never done this. Because I know that he always think about profit. My company which is small but still profitable for him. So that he can take care it very well I know this.

According to me right now does not matter how much we both at each other. We can marry each other for the sake of our children so that we need to continue this. I know that he need to Busy himself for the business. I know that he did not give enough time to our children's. If I also getting out from the house for the shake of my business then what happen to our children's.

If we need to depend on babysitters for the sake of our children upbringing then why did we both get married. We no need to marry each other. So that I decide I will state in the home and take care them. It's not that I give up my business completely. I will go to the office when my work need me.

And it's not that I am only doing it for our childrens. I also did it for saving my business to the Evil eye of my father. He did not even take care me in the childhood. But now when I am become a successful business woman he suddenly remember that I am his daughter.  just because he wanted to corporate with my business started talking me politely.

I know that my father can use his all strength to take over my business. But now when I already handover this to Black I know that he never dare to think about taking over my company. Because a small merchant like my father did not dare to angry a billion Black.

Picking up my children's from the bed I went out from the room. I see that Black still watching me with shocking and surprising Eyes. I don't know what you thinking about me. And the original thing is I did not care what it thinking about me.

 I Oliver and Oscar to the sofa then ask Lily to take care them. I also said Cindy to sit down to the sofa but she did not agree and hug me tightly.

I feel that she is afraid on Black.  I don't know way. Black never talk to her. There was no chance that he will be miss behave to her.  then why did she feel fear on him. May be because he is looking like a monster. And it's true that his appearance is enough for a child to feel afraid on him.

I went to the kitchen for making something to my children's. Cindy held my top and follow me to the kitchen. Because of her presence I did everything carefully.  I open the refrigerator and  took out a bottle of milk. After that I cutting vegetables for making vegetable soup for Cindy.

I heating the milk and put some chocos. After that I place everything to the tray and went out from the kitchen. I place the tray to the table then make Cindy set down to the sofa. She went close to me and I smile.

I hand over her to the vegetable soup ----- Cindy you can eat this ok.

She nope and I turn and picking up Oliver and Oscar from the ground.  I place both of them to the sofa then started feeding them. But they did not have any mood to eat so that they started towing their hands and leg. They are climate to my lab and started jumping. They started grabbing my face with their little hands and started kissing me all over my face.

I started struggling for feeding them. But they find this is interesting so that they did not listen to me. On the other hand is their father who is observing everything and smiling. He did not even think to help me for feeding our child's.

I feel angry on him but the next second what he done. He started promoting his children's ----- are you like to jumping in mummy lab.

Yes daddy yes. ----- oh my little angel like to jumping in my lap.

Then continue this your mother can enjoy this right. ---- He said.

The little one started jumping more.

Mummy I already done this. ----- Cindy showing me her empty bowl.

I blush her hair which is hanging down to her forehead then said ---- mummy good girl. Now can you help me to feeding your brothers.

She nope then I said to my boys ---- look sister can already done her job. and you too did not listen to mummy. Now I am angry on both of you.

I started show my fake anger and looking to the another direction. But my two little Prince try their best to grabbing my attention. But after they feel this started to climb up to their father lab. Black pickup them and they both told him about me. They told their father that mummy angry on them but Black did not understand anything and look at me.

I smile then pick up tham ---- oh my boy mummy always loving you.

I kiss there temple. Then started feeding them. This time did not disturb me and obediently drink the milk. Now this is the time for their sleep so I carry them to there room and Cindy follow me holding my top. Black also follow us to the room which make Cindy shimmer. I placing all the children's to the bed then carry Cindy to my lap ----- what happened my princess. Why you are feel afraid.

Looking at her simmering Oliver and Oscar both are climb up to her lap and hug her. They are showing their teeth to making Cindy smile. And their technique is work. Cindy started smiling. Black is went out from the room with a gloomy face.

I did not care about him and pick up my children's to my lap. They keep their head on my chest and I started blushing there hair. Soon both of them are fall asleep on my chest. I put them to the bed. And surrounded the bed with pillows.

After that I pick up Cindy from the bed . Blushing her hair I try to make a fall asleep. After she sleeping I I cover her with the blanket. Then I call Lily ----- if you have no work this time then can you stay here.

She nope and I went out from the room. In the living room I saw that Black is standing there waiting for something. I have no intention to ask him so that I simply cross him but his question stop my movement ----- why did she afraid on me.

I turn around and face him. ---- Sorry.

Why did your girl afraid on me. I did not done anything with her. ----- He ask.

Oh. May be for your angry locking. ----- My torn is little bit marking this time. 

Then why did my own children's did not afraid on me. ---- He ask.

Because they know how to deal with you. ----- I said.

But in the next second I regret for saying this. It looked like I am  provoke a hungry lion.

If you have nothing to say then I go now. ------ I wanted to run away from the place but he grab my hand and turned me around.

He went close to me with you always did. It look like he is angry but I don't think I can do anything which make him angry. Did he is too much sensitive that he cannot take just simple mocking.

Tonight I arrange a party. Make yourself ready for this. This is our reception party. ----- He said.

 but you told me that you did not invite much people in our wedding and keep it simple. ---- I ask.

He let go my hand then said ---- Hm. I am not inviting many people in my wedding. But this reception party I arrange because of some kind of business profit.

Business business and business.

I don't think there was anything important in his life without business. I Nope my head then went out from the house. I feel relief after went out from the house. I take a deep breath and went to the garden. Everything is so booking for me which is happen. I just wanted to cry. I saw the red roses to the garden which again remind me my first day with Danial. 

The first day of our wedding he gave me this and told me that now on we are best friends. The engagement ring which I wear to my finger right now it's given by Black. But the ring which is hanging in my chest with a chain it's given by Black. I did not wanted to remove this but I did because of ritual. But I never let go the ring which Danial given me. I keep it to my neck with the help of a chain. This time I wanted to cry out.

Last time in the hospital I did not cry. I did not express my emotion in front of anybody. In the other hand I keep myself busy to handling Black. This is the first time I see him cried his heart out. Even I feel pity on me. This is the first time he put his head on my shoulder and cry. He can express he is all emotions in front of me. I just listening him and giving him support by hugging him. He is behave like a child who is lost everything. This time I cannot feel about my pain. I just lost to observing his pain.

I wanted to heal him but how could I do this. I am also broken.

Every day when I come back to my home I am very tired but a pair of arms can always welcome me with hug. Does not matter how frustrated I am but his one hug can make me feel better. Thinking about this I did not feel when did I come close to the swimming pool. I am come to my sense when a pair of arms pull me forcefully and started shouting on me ----- what the hell are you doing. You are almost going to fell down to the swimming pool. You did not know swimming then why did you come close to the swimming pool. Did you ever think if anything happened to you then what happened with our children.

I come to the reality and saw Black looking at me with full of anger. Did what I hear Is right.

He just told me " our children ".

 Did not he is the one who always dividen our children as his children and my children.

I could not help this look at him. Tears rolling down on my eyes. This is the first time I did not control my emotions and blast out with tears in fond of him. I hate to crying in front of anyone. I never like to show my weakness in front of anyone. Danial is the one and only man who I show my emotions , my tears. But the men like Black he did not deserve to see my crying.

But I did not know why I cry in front of them. This is the first time I cried this much in fond of him. And I don't know why did not want to stop it. This time I literally need a shoulder for crying. Though I always putting a face like a strong woman who have no emotion. But I am also a great. I am also need your shoulder. I am also need a man support in my life. And I got everything because of Danial. But today I also lost him.

It is not expect anything from my marriage. But in spite of this thing Danial give me everything. This is the day when I again married. But this is of complete hopeless marriage. I never like the man who is standing in front of me. But today like right in front of him and I did not feel anything wrong.

Maybe because last time he cried on my shoulder. So that this time I do it. I know that he cannot tell my weakness in front of anybody because I am also witness of his weakness. He did not mocking me with my emotions because I also saw his emotions. If Anybody know about my crying then its embarrassing for me the same way this is also embarrassing for him if anybody know about his crying.

I always thought that if I crying then my haters can laughed on me. That's why I always suppress my emotions in fond of anybody. Black is also one of my enemies. But he also from his weakness so there was no reason for him to laughing on me because of this reason.

I did not think too much I just held his collar and please my head on his chest I started crying. I crying my heart out. I feel his hand on my back. Just few second of crying I feel suffocated. My breath is become heavy. And the next second I did not breath. I am a asthma patient.

What's wrong with you. ------ Black started slapping my face slowly.

                     Maybe he tried to wake me up but I am completely blackout.