will you make me your's?

right intentions wrong actions

Opening the car door and stepping outside I set out to look for my mother hoping she is okay.

I felt a creepy feeling that left me shuddering upon that thought I don’t want to think too much of it and just ignore the feeling opening the car door and putting one leg after the other out.

The cold biting against my bare legs as I get out of the car. Reminding me how I am under dressed.The inside of the car is warmer than out here and I feel like going back in to the car but I have to find my mother.

With the temperature difference I draw my hands to myself and look around trying to see if I knew where this place was. And as it turns out I don’t really know where we were.

The distant sound of people music and people talking over each other was the only sign of life in this small town apart from that it was silent. I look up to the sky its beautiful full moon and stars I wish I could just stay here gazing at them. I loved them.

Climbing to the roof at night and laying there facing the moon always calmed and soothed me and always seemed to give me a surge of energy and peace.

It might all be in my head but that is how I felt, even right now drawing in a breath of the cold misty air I felt energized and no longer felt fearful even though I was somewhere I was completely new to. I welcomed the curiosity taking this as an opportunity to explore the place and lifted my legs walking toward the noise and music.

My best guess knowing my mother was that it was most probably a pub and also the best place to go looking for her there which was probably not a good idea, but I was willing to take the risk. I had to make sure she was okay.

I night end up with a scolding or a beating but I didn't care as long as I found her and she was okay.She might be pass out drunk in an alleyway somewhere. or worse gotten into a fight and ended up badly hurt. It wouldn't be the first time to happen and I had to hurry.

The sound of my shoes against the cobblestone path resonated all around me traveling far wide in the cold night as the echoes faded into the night. It was peaceful a complete opposite to my life, mind and emotions that was all chaos.

I love it, the peace and was jealous of the night. I wish I could share what it had even if just for a day. I reach a dark alley just a few steps down and peer into it too curious to keep on walking without looking into it.

Other than that I felt an unfamiliar pull drawing me into the dimly lit alleyway no matter what I did I couldn't bring myself to not look into it.

I felt a tickling feeling on the back of my neck, a feeling that I was being followed, a feeling that I was being watched and closely at that but I dismissed it not letting it stop me from peering into the dimly lit alley way. All my senses were on alert as my desire to peer into the alley way overcame my instincts to sprint right across it. f**k it it was just a peer nothing much just look.

I wish I didn’t. Who the hell in their sane minds peers in a dark alleyway unless they want to die Ama!!