Everything changes - Jasper Whitlock

Chapter 9

Bella…

It’s been a couple of days since Aunt Alice told us about everything changing. I hate not knowing, especially when I have a protective family – that won’t let me out their sight. I’m a vampire now, not some god damn fragile human!

Jasper’s been driving me up the wall. I love him to bits, and nothing will change that, but he’s constantly in his own little world. I mean come on what about our alone time? It feels like he’s pushing me away slowly. Like he’s going to go and never come back. It scares me sometimes, thinking that I’ll never see him again, or him leaving me.

Mum and Dad have been trying to get me to talk to them about what’s on my mind, but when you’re in a house full of vampires you know it’s not going to be private. Not only that if I share what’s going on in my head, dad would say something to Jasper, then he would either tell me that what I’ve been thinking were right or not, and finding that answer out scares me.

We don’t even go on hunts together anymore, he goes on his own and always locks himself in his study just staring in to space. I hate seeing him like this, but what am I supposed to do when he cuts himself off from me?

“Bella?” I heard my mum, I looked over at her and she had worry in her eyes. “Yea?” I mumbled. “Please talk to me” I smiled and shook my head. I didn’t want to talk about it, it’s constantly on my mind. “Where’s Jasper?” Dad asked me. I looked over at him, before answering him. “Upstairs study, like always” He looked well and truly pissed off. Great this is where it all begins.

Emmett…

I hated seeing my princess like this. I knew it had something to do with Jasper. I don’t know what but I intend to find out. I wish she would talk to me about it. She’s always told me everything that were on her mind.

I walked up to Jasper’s study and knocked on the door. “Come in Emmett” I heard Jasper mumble. When I walked in I were shocked at what I saw. Jasper had bags under his eyes from not feeding. He looked a complete mess. He had trashed his study. He were sat near the window just staring out of it looking at nothing.

“What the f**k Jasper” I asked him sitting down next to him. “Eh?” Were his smart answer. “Look man. I don’t know what’s gone off between you and Bella, but whatever it is you need to fix it. I have never seen my daughter look so f*****g heartbroken Jasper. You best fix it” I walked out after that, letting him think about what I had said.

When I walked back in the front room everyone were there except Bella. “Where’s Bella?” I asked. “She went for a drive” Edward answered me. I sat next to Rose and watched a football game.

Jasper…

I could tell Emmett were been honest and also worried about his daughter. To be honest I haven’t even picked up on her emotions. I’ve just been thinking about everything Alice had said. I hate the fact that my mate were getting dragged in to a battle.

I decided to jump in the shower and sort myself out, before going to talk to Bella. I knew if I went and saw her how I look now, she would kick off big time about me not looking after myself.

After a shower and a hunt I walked in to the living room, to be confronted to everyone’s pissed off emotions. “Where’s Bella?” I asked. “She’s out” Rose hissed at me. I decided to head up to our room to wait till she got back. After 3 hours had gone by and she hadn’t returned I decided to call her. I rang a few times before it went to her voicemail. I guess she’s pissed. I decided to go to the shop and get her some white roses; there her favourite.

After going to the shop to get her, her roses, she still want back. I decided to call her again after a couple of rings she answered. “Hello?” I breathed a sigh of relief. “Where are you? I’ve been worried sick” I asked her. “So you’re actually talking to me now? I decided to stay away from the house tonight. I dint want to stay in that house with everyone looking at me with sympathy, because they could see the pain and heartbreak in my eyes. Yet my own mate, who by the way is an empath, didn’t even pick up on it, but that might have something to do with staying away and locking yourself in your study” She ranted at me. Yep, she’s defiantly pissed. “Bella, please come home so we can talk” I begged. “Yeah that’ll work fine with a house full of vampires. If your leaving me Jasper just tell me now instead of dragging it on and only hurting me more” I were shocked, she thought I were going to leave her.

“You silly, beautiful, stubborn girl. Did you actually think I were going to leave you?” I didn’t wait for her to answer. “I love you Bella. I’m never going to leave you, even if you wanted me to. I will always be by your side, no matter what crosses our path. I’ve just been trying to think about what Alice had told us.” She didn’t answer me, she put the phone down. I thought she were pissed, but I heard her car speeding down the driveway. She’s either coming to kill me or to talk.

She didn’t even turn the engine off, she was up in our room and in my arms within seconds “I love you” She mumbled in to my neck. “I love you too, my silly, stubborn, beautiful woman” I told her while pulling her head to look up at me. “I’m sorry for throwing a strop” I laughed at her. “I’m the one who ignores you and you’re the one apologising?” She started laughing again. “I’m sorry for shutting myself off Bella. I’ve just been worried about you. I hate the fact that I’ve brought this all on you” She took a step back away from me. “Y-you regret meeting m-me?” She stuttered with venom in her eyes. “WHAT! No. God no! Don’t ever think that Bella” I told her while pulling her to my chest to calm her dry sobs down. I hated seeing her like this.

I sat down on the bed and pulled Bella on to me and cuddled her to me. “What made you think I were going to leave you?” I asked her after she calmed down. “You shut yourself off from me. I thought you didn’t want to be with me anymore” I pulled her closer to me. “I’m never going to leave you. Your stuck with me” I could tell she were smiling. “Good because I wouldn’t want anyone else” I leant down and kissed her. She looked out of the corner of her eye and smiled before kissing me with so much love put in it. “Thanks for the roses” She whispered against my lips. “Anytime darlin. Your worth more of them, but they didn’t have that many at the shop” I chuckled at her.

No matter what comes in our way, I am not going to let it get to me like it had this time. Nope as long as I have Bella, we can both handle anything!