Broken - Ties that Bind Us.

Chapter 1 The music boomed... It felt so good.. The music numbed the inner thoughts... The war of my thoughts waging inside me... Alcohol helped a little.. To loosen me up... As I watched all young ones gyrating to the music. It was like a teen movie playing live. I remained in shadow, sipping slowly. No one bothered to look at me. I internally laughed, watching my friend Cynthia doing her crazy dance. Now that’s the code name or names we use when we go to the bars. It was fun, being someone else. Cynthia at 35, looked like she was in her twenties. No one could guess her age. She was surrounded by her admirers. I wasn’t jealous of that part, I was proud she took good care of herself. I on the other part did look my age or may be more, Weighing on the heavier side. We were like female version of Laurel and Hardy. I turned back and sipped the drink with content.. Keep my eye on the time. As music slowed, Cynthia walked back to the bar counter, ordered her drink. Hey Sydney, let’s scoot to the dark corner... She whispered..  I laughed at the funny name she had come up for me and her dark corner joke, as if we were doing something sinister. We took our drinks and walked to the innermost sitting arrangements, it would be pretty dark there. Which I really liked. But as we passed I could see the looks I got, as if chiding me. I would usually cover my face with hair, so no one could see my face. As we sit, the light dims and the song changed – I hate you, I love you.. I sighed, I loved the song. I looked around as couples danced closer and single ones slowed their dance moves... I could feel my 3rd drink hitting me.. I relaxed and laid back on the cozy sofa watching around me.. I saw a beautiful girl with smooth skin, tantalising features, gorgeous hair- dancing and tumbling her way to the dance floor. She was definitely drunk. A tall guy was trying to pull her out of the floor, but she pulled him in. Arms locked on his neck, she tried dancing close. He attempted to unlock her arms and distance himself away from her. It amused me, she was trying to close the distance and he was trying the opposite. I started staring at him, tall really tall. His face was serious and his eyes. Those eyes made me practically gawk at him. It had so much pain in it. He wanted her.. I was amazed at my deduction. He wanted her, still driving her away. Then another guy as tall as the first one came, he too was so handsome with messy hair and a well-trimmed beard. The first guy whispered something and pushed the girl on him and walked away. The second guy held the girl tightly, more like rocking a child than dancing. She looked at the second guy and I could see her mouth love you.. And give him a full mouth kiss. The man just smiled and kissed her back. I looked away, Cynthia was back on the floor by then. I sipped my drink and watched the ice melt. I didn’t want to look. It made me crave.. Crave for things I wouldn’t ever get. Where had the time slipped away from me.. What did I lose.. What did I gain… I embraced myself, the feeling of loneliness swept. I wanted to get out. I was trapped, my mind, my body all trapped. As music played I swayed till it was time for me to leave. ...