How I fell for my twin

Ava's POV My brother and I had been the best of friends since we were born.Did everything together.We weren't even embarrassed to be naked around each other. But everything changed once I started puberty, Bathing or being naked around my brother made me embarrassed. And at age twelve that's when I realized when my friends discribed what a crush was, that's what I have for my twin.I just passed it off as admiration for his academic achievements. But when we started High school that's when my feelings really showed what they are. Him being the captain of the football team and class president got him invited to parties and other girls gave him attention just got me mad. I realized that I was jealous of his girlfriend's they get to hug,kiss, cuddle and do other couple things without it being shamed upon by their parents or the public in general. His recent girlfriend Bianca(I have nothing against girls with the name just a story),has him going to every party.My jealousy spiked when they started dating. She was a blonde,tall ,tanned skin, curves in all the right places,big breasts and the cheerleading captain and her dad could buy and get her anything she wanted. She's the school's it girl.Every boy want's to date her and girls want to be her.I can see why Jake likes her. I mean she's everything I want to be. No wonder he never looked at me like he looked at her,but I can understand.He see's me as nothing but his boring book nerd,brunnete twin sister. But seriously he could at least let me date.Even his friends are a pain and keep a look out for him when he is busy.I am bond to a life of loneliness. And the guy I want could never look at me the way I look at him.But that all changed one day, he came home after a party Bianca forced him to go to. Drunk AF and I had to help him hide it from Mom and Dad.Ugh could life get any worse