Scars

A wall and emptiness ... A pain in the heart, memories more than clear and this traumatic disappointment. My life is a lie .. This is the umpteenth time that I have written down these emotions that have tormented me for more than half of my existence. I get annoyed to rewrite this all over again. It won't fix the evil that's in me. That will not reassure me .... My feeling of injustice will remain the same. This feeling of loneliness will always come to sadden me at the most surprising moments. No one will be able to understand or so grasp the evil that is in me. Smiles, mischievous little words, jokes are not enough to hide this sadness that remains in the depths of my soul destined to end me. I would have preferred never to know you. I would have preferred never to be born if that would have saved me from all this suffering. I am on the verge of depression. On one side ready to fall from the top of this cliff and on the other sunken, buried in an abyss. How can someone hurt us so much? You helped give me life, you decided to help me grow and protect me. However, under your blows and slaps, I have known hatred and rejection. You humiliated me, you destroyed me. I am standing, smiling and extraordinarily beautiful. In me, there is this evil ... this grudge that does not want to go away. You hurt me so much ... I dream of getting up even though your actions have tried to bring me down ... I am alone once again. No additives to help me in my quest. This fight is mine. The agony will go away one day, the wounds of my heart will heal, the tears will stop flowing from my eyes and above all the evil that remains in me will give way to happiness.