I got up to my room and opened my door. I felt so conflicted. Part of me didn't want to be here but where else could I go? I found myself missing school out west for the first time. At least I would be far from here and Jon, I thought. I threw my stuff down, not even bothering to unpack. I was wearing my bridesmaid gown and threw it off and then went into the shower and turned on the hot water. I wanted every trace of Jon off of me. I wanted to forget what it felt like to have him touch me. I wished I could forget he even existed. The water was hot and was slightly burning my skin. I didn't even care. I washed my body and my hair, not bothering to shave or anything. Then I got out and towel dried. I was hot so I threw on a tank tip and my underwear and then just got into bed. I laid there
