Jenlisa: The Womanizer Got Laid Book II

Chapter XV

JENNIE'S POV

I sober up after our conversation or should I say my confession. I closed the door and my tears started to pour down my face. This is the longest night of my life.

I let myself cry a lot behind this door. I was on the floor letting my emotions turn into tears, I also need to breathe. I need to get it out of my system so I could breathe freely.

Lisa is getting married, but she told me she still loves me too. We did what we need to do, I believe. We are not the same teenagers before. We grew a lot. But things are just really different now even we still love each other this is a whole new story now.

I still love her, I really do and it hurts me seeing her with someone else.

We do still love each other but the thing is2 .. love isn't enough.

The next thing I knew I was already laying on my bed and my clothes aren't the same. My head hurts when I tried to stand up I almost tripped but luckily someone was there on time to catch me.

"Lisa .." I mumbled.

"It's alright. You'll be fine." She said and smiled sweetly.

Damn her smile is perfect. She's guiding me to sit on my bed. My eyes started to fill with my tears and she looks at me confusedly.

"Why are you crying, Jennie?" she asked.

I touch her face to know if she's real. I felt her warm. "I just .. I just can't imagine that you are here," I said to her.

"I'm always here for you." She told me.

I hugged her really tight but then .. she was gone...

"Lisa?" I called her.

"Where are you?" I said as I roamed my eyes around the room as it becomes empty. I was alone in my room.

"Lisa please answer me .." I said crying...

Until I felt someone shaking me.

"Jisoo?" I said as soon as I opened my eyes.

"You were dreaming." She said to me.

I am still lying on the floor near my door. It was just a dream.

"What happened to you?" Jisoo asked me worriedly. "You look terrible. I'm sorry, I was so wasted last night I forgot to check up on you, Jen." She said sorry.

"N-no I-I am fine. I got drunk a-and really wasted but I am fine." I assured her.

"You know that I know you too well, right? What happened? Tell me." She said while sitting on the floor with me.

"I said I'm fine. Don't worry about me okay?" I said to her.

"Lisa and Megan are already gone. They leave early. Lisa look s**t when they left the same way you are now. I am not trying to investigate here but .. I just can't help it I am worried. You guys are obviously still into each other." Jisoo stated.

"Chu, stop it. Lisa is getting married. She's getting married." I said and those words repeated in my brain continuously.

"Is this why you are like that?" she looks at me with pity.

"W-we talked." I said almost in a whisper.

"I mean we had a little chat." I added.

Jisoo scoots over me and hugs me as I tell her everything.

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Christmas did not go well but I was hoping for New Year to be at least a little better. We are at the grocery store again hoping we did not see them again. We're not buying something for New Year, we are just here at the grocery for our everyday needs. In fact, we are going to celebrate New Year at Rosé's place. I still hope that Lisa and Megan wouldn't be there but hello, Lisa and Rosé are best friends so I am hoping for something impossible. Great.

"Jen." Jisoo interrupted me with my thoughts.

"Hmmm." I answered.

"What happened to you and Kai?" she asked and I look at her uncomfortable as I scratch my nape.

"Uhm.. Jisoo there is something I want to tell you." I said to her and she looks at me curiously.

"Kai confessed to me that he likes me more than a friend." I said to her.

"Wait, what? I did not see that coming? I was just going to ask why the f**k he is sleeping at the kitchen's counter??" she said surprised.

What the f**k? I thought she knew that we had a little moment? Damn did I just trip myself? "Oh God, I thought you knew about Christmas Eve .." I blurted out.

"Wait did he confessed on Christmas Eve and you left him at the kitchen drunk and alone??" Jisoo was being a child right now and her voice is getting louder.

"Minimize your voice!" I hissed at her and this little creature glared at me. What is her problem?

"Confess now I need more details." She said to me while her brows are furrowed so I did.

"Are you telling me that he did say that days before Christmas? Dam man, I did not know he likes you that much. I mean like more than a friend he was a good actor." Jisoo said like he's criticizing Kai's acting like she's good at it.

"What happened when you guys kissed? What did you feel?" Jisoo asked me and it made me think for a second.

"I feel safe," I mumbled.

"Is that means you liked it?" she interrogates me.

"I don't know it is too soon to tell." I said honestly. As we walk through the grocery Jisoo keeps asking me weird questions. I know she's just distracting me so I could turn my attention to something else.

"What were you dreaming when I found you lying on the floor?" Jisoo asked me from nowhere while we are busy eating our delicious foods.

I was choked because I wasn't expecting her question. "Man, please give me a queue when you are going to ask me something."

"Okay." She said. This weird f**k.

"I. Am. Going. To. Ask. You. Something. This. Is. Your. Queue." She said to me. Okay, wtf?

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked her annoyingly.

"I was just doing what you exactly asked?" she said teasing me.

"Asshole." I murmured.

"But kidding aside, you were calling Lisa's name." she told me.

"It was a pretty f****d up dream. I was awake with clean clothes and I tried to stand up but I am dizzy because of the hangover and when I almost fell someone was there to catch me. It was Lisa." I started to tell her.

"I was really happy to see her, it felt real. I could feel her warm when I touched her face. She told me that she's always there for me .." I sighed deeply. "And then I hug her then she fades away .. " I became sad remembering my dream.

"Sorry for asking." Jisoo said. "Maybe we should just eat.." she said unsurely.

LISA'S POV

What happened that day was something I can't forget it has been days since Christmas and New Year is coming so fast.

I am looking at my ring while it is on my finger. "Do I really want this?" I asked myself and sighed heavily.

The memory of Jennie and I are still stuck in my head and I don't want it to go away. It was the best part of my life. But Christmas made me feel so fragile. Seeing her crying and enduring the pain I cost her was really heartbreaking.

Megan can't come to Rosé's place since her parents demanded to be with her this New Year. She's asking me to come but I promised Rosé that I will celebrate this New Year with her since I celebrated last year with Megan and her family.

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"Lisa." Rosé called me from behind. I am at my office and I did not notice Rosé came in.

"I know it is inappropriate to ask but I just can't stop thinking about Christmas." She started and I am looking at her waiting for her to be on her point.

"I know Jennie and you talked when everyone is already sleeping. I did not mean to peak but I was going to get some water in that hour and I saw the both of you talking and you guys were crying but I did not eavesdrop I swear. I just go back to Jisoo's bed because you guys need to maybe reflect." She explained to me.

"We reminisce." I said briefly and Rosé is looking at me waiting for some tea to be spilled.

"She said she's still in love with me." I continued.

"Wh-what did you said? Did you tell her you still love her too??? I mean I know you got engaged but man we all know you were just pressured." Rosé told me.

"Enough, Rosé. I wasn't pressured." I shut Rosé and she looks me confusedly.

"I saw her and Kai kissing, I know it is not my damn business but I got jealous. When she told me she still loves me I told her that I still do love her too. But she gave up." I said to her.

"Again." I added.

Rosé comes to me and hugs me.

"I don't think she gave up first." Rosé mumbled.

"What do you mean?" I asked her to enlighten me.

"I am sorry Lis but I think it was you who gave up." Rosé pulled out from our hug. What is she talking about?

"You are confusing me." I blurted out.

"Jennie did not have any relationship since you guys broke up." Is that for real?

"Jisoo told me." She said.

"Jennie might look like a cold-blooded b***h but she's damn fragile. When she found out about you and Megan she was really broken." She told me.

"I could feel that she's still hoping that you guys will be back together but what can I say? If I was Jennie I will do the same thing. I will also set you free not because I give up on you or something but because it is the right thing to do. Lisa, you are a committed person now. It changes a lot of things." Rosé explained.

"Look, before this year ends clear up your mind because you are hurting her and soon if Megan finds out she'll be hurt too. Know what you really want. You can't be confused in your whole damn life, Lisa." Rosé was right. I need to grow up and know what I really want.

But how am I going to do it? I asked myself.