Chapter 6
Sophia
When I woke up, I was alone in bed. I remembered that Iwan had taken care of my welts after I had come out of my trance. He had been introverted and penitent. I knew he felt bad about how he treated me, but he didn't seem to understand that I wanted him to do these things with me. I had never been as happy as I had been with Iwan, had never felt so satisfied and alive. I would have to talk to him about these things. I didn't want him to feel bad. Yes, I was aware that what we had was not normal. Most people would neither understand it nor accept it. Iwan was a monster, but he was my monster. Was I sick if I loved a man like him? If I enjoyed his brutal treatment? – Probably. Did I give a s**t that it was sick? – Definitely not! I wanted my life with Iwan the way it was.
