The one the got away...for now.
1639 Words
I felt like s**t.
I’d barely got in the door last night, running up stairs I started packing, my clothes, shoes and some books.
Tears welled as I packed, I knew that Mitch and Lucus were right, but becoming so close, I knew that this decision would haunt me.
Thinking about Garrett, I found a notebook and a pen, I decided to write him and mum a letter, when I left in the morning, I might not be back for a long time or ever.
After I’d packed, written both letters and sealed them in envelopes.
I put them on my bedside table.
Grabbing some clothes I then headed for the shower, scrubbing myself thoroughly.
I tried to wash the feeling of betrayal I felt, over having to leave Garrett, mum I knew would understand, but would he?
I put my bag next to the door, I stacked tomorrow’s clothes on top of the bag, and then after putting my phone on charge, I slipped into my bed, for the last time in this house.
Ergh I know this feeling, cracking open one eye, I confirmed it.
I’m in the dreamscape forest and there in front of me is a concerned and clearly upset Agni.
Sighing I closed my eyes.
“No Ivy, I’m not going anywhere, and you can’t wait all you like, but you aren’t leaving, until you explain what happened today.” Agni interrupted.
I sit up; Agni sits across from me in her human form, in the lotus position.
“What did you already hear?” I ask, hoping all of it so I can skip a lengthy explanation.
“I heard that Mitch, Garrett and Lucus are werewolves, that they are concerned about what happens when either of you find your mate, who’s heart will be broken, and after that all I know is you’ve run around like a headless chook, stuffing a duffle bag, covering you ass with lengthy letters of apology and trying to avoid this conversation.” Her voice is almost a yelling, when she finishes.
I nod, well that’s good for me, I’ll fill in the blanks I think to myself.
“Well you’re right about all of it, Mitch and Lucus pleaded me to break up with Garrett for fear of a future problem of larger proportions, I understood their concern and decided to pack my bags, I have enough credit to graduate early, all I have to do is fill out the form online and I’ve got my senior year completion.
So now all that’s left is to catch a bus and go find a pack to live and train with till I can face Brody.” I finish my voice firm and confident but inside I’m breaking over leaving Garrett.
Agni can feel it too I’m sure, but she sighs in defeat.
“I can’t change your mind can I?” She asks he eys not lifting from the ground.
“No Agni, you know as well as I do, that Garrett has been a distraction and we’ve been slack on our training the last couple of weeks.
This is due to his company, we’d started to sit and gossip, rather then train.” The truth stings, Agni and I hadn’t properly fought hand to hand in at least 2 weeks.
“I know, it was nice to see you so happy, and now I know he was a werewolf, I wished I’d tried to mind-link his wolf.” So Agni didn’t know either, what’s wrong with us?
“Well we know, but we can’t stay to ask, so lets train hard tonight.” I try for a smile, “I can take all my emotions out on you, hopefully in result of a victory.”
Agni’s eyes light with a mixture of mischief and challenge.
“Well let’s just try it and see, but I think I’ll be the only one walking away with a victory.” She retorts.
With that we stand and shift, both lunging at the same time.
‘Ivy its 5.30 time to get up.’ Agni Mind-links me, we had decided that had I set an alarm, it might have woken mum, leading to questions, as it’s a bit too early to get up even for a school day.
I blink trying to clear my foggy gaze, sitting up,I rub sleep sand from the corner of my eyes, the beds warm and I don’t look forward to getting up.
I slip out of bed tip-toing to the toilet, I’m busting and mum won’t wake at such a normal sound.
After I return to the room, I slip off my pyjamas chucking them in the washing basket, I try to dress quickly its cold this morning, and the goose bumps are stark against my skin.
Finally I make my bed, placing the envelopes instead on the bed in plain view, then I turn to the door swinging my bag over my shoulder, I head out closing the door behind me.
Mum’s POV
I call for the second time, still no answer from Ivy.
I turn off the stove, leaving the kitchen to climb the stairs, I hadn’t heard Ivy stir all morning, not when I knocked earlier or now, the hallway clock showed it was 7.45 and I was concerned she had not heard me or was feeling sick.
Reaching her room I knocked again.
Still no answer, I pushed open the door, her room was pristine, the bed made, no clothes on the floor then something caught my eye, on the bed lay two envelopes.
I walk over to inspect them picking one up it read For Garrett the other read For mum.
My heart started beating frantically, I placed Garrett on the bedside table and lowered my self on to the bed,
With my heart beating in my ears, I tore open the back of the envelope inside was a simple piece of paper from a note book.
I unfolded it, inside my suspicions were confirmed.
“Dear Mum,
As you know I love you very dearly, and since my birthday, I have been training with you confession of my heritage in mind.
I’d hope to stay here and train, till I was ready to go in search of Brody.
But it seems, there too much I don’t know to stay.
After encountering some rogues, they informed me that they recognised me, as a werewolf for some time.
But I had not recognised them as so, had they not told me I may have never known.
I’ve decided to go join a pack for further training, I wrote this letter in hope to give you some understanding and answers for my sudden departure.
I will return once I’m able, but will keep in touch so that you know I am safe.
I’m so sorry, but had I said this in person I know you would have convinced me to stay.
So with all my love, always
Your Ivy xx”
I didn’t feel it, but I watched as a tear fell, leaking ink across the page.
My daughter had left, she was much stronger then I ever was at her age.
I reached for my phone knowing it was probably a dead end, but tried calling anyway.
The ringtone sounded in the room, though it was muffled, opening her bedside draw, I could see it lying there with charger.
My own phone dropped from my ear and I cried, grabbing the un-opened envelope, I headed back down stairs, I heard footfalls up the steps.
Upon opening the door, there stood Garrett ready to knock, his face said it all, she hadn’t told him, she was leaving.
Garrett’s POV
I read the letter again, waiting for it to sink in that she was gone.
“Dear Garrett,
I wish I wasn’t writing this, but I couldn’t leave you without some answers.
I spoke with Mitch and Lucus after school yesterday; they informed me that you know what I am, and that you 3 are also werewolves.
I’m sorry I didn’t catch a ride home with you and speak to you in person, but I was too rattled.
I should of recognised you as one by now, after all our months together.
Lucus reminded me, that as werewolves we have true mates, you have yet to encounter yours, And I am yet to encounter mine.
I also have other things, I should have been focusing on all these months but with you, they came second, but I can’t slack any longer, so by now I will have left town.
But know that I did not decide this easily, I know it was selfish to leave, and I know it was not right to make a decision that effected both of us, alone.
But you know, I wouldn’t of gone through with it, had I spoke this to you in person, I will remember our months together fondly, and forever envy your Mate.
With Love and Sadness, Goodbye Garrett, your Ivy. X”
It was a kick in the gut, I’m glad I didn’t read this at school; I may have killed Mitch and Lucus on sight.
Why couldn’t they leave her alone?
So she didn’t know I was a werewolf like her, why did it matter to them?
They went behind their Alpha’s back instead, only to convince her it was for the best to leave me.
Worst of all she listened.
My house suddenly felt very empty and cold.
I headed for the fridge, opening it I grabbed a whiskey bottle from the fridge door and coke.
Today I would drown my sorrows, then punish the two idiots when they got home.
Then tomorrow I’d go after Ivy.
I didn’t want to find my true mate, Because they would never be her.
- Writer
