Chapter 11
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I couldn't focus on anything but Reid, and I hated every moment of it.
Chris had brought us to a fancy restaurant that we both joked about, but he actually did the most and brought us here.
I wanted to enjoy myself with him, but my thought kept rushing back to Reid and looking into his eyes.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
I pulled myself out of my thoughts and met his eyes.
"Ya sorry. What were you saying?" I asked him.
He sighed. "Do you not like this?" He asked, probably noticing my distraction.
"No, no, I love it, Chris. It's just being away from Eli for this long; I don't know seemed to make me a little nervous,"
I wasn't entirely lying when saying that. It was the truth that I was nervous about leaving Elias, but I trusted Aria more than anyone with my child.
But I couldn't tell Chris I was thinking about Reid when I was out having dinner with him.
He had asked me if I wanted to get back together with my husband. And I didn't. But thinking about him this much seemed just wrong.
Not just to Chris but me as well.
"Ya, I get that, but Aria is with him. We have nothing to worry about," he assured. He reached out his hand and placed it on my own.
I looked down at our hands and smiled slightly.
I really shouldn't be letting anyone distract me from this date. I've wanted this for a long while now, and now that I finally can enjoy it. I should give it all my attention.
I looked back up at him. "Ya, your right. I have nothing to worry about,"
He smiled back at me, and we continued our date.
And it went pretty well. I did have a lot of fun with Chris.
We always had gotten along but for some reason being with him now seemed like we were getting along on another level.
I should have never let Reid cloud my head when I was having a good time with a wonderful sweet man.
And by the time we had arrived at our apartments, I could only wish this lasted a couple more hours.
"I really had fun, Chris," I said with a genuine smile.
"Me too! For the first time, we had no distractions," he chuckled.
I laughed. "I guess it was our lucky day!"
"Maybe," he whispered.
For a while, we both just stood there before he began leaning in.
I pulled back. "What are you doing?" I asked.
He looked a little taken back, and I wanted to slap myself.
"Well, I was going to kiss you, but you ruined the moment," he chuckled.
"Oh my gosh! Sorry, I don't know what happened. Can we try again?" I said.
He smirked. But leaned in. I leaned back in, and just as our lips were about to meet.
The door to my apartment opened wide.
"What the f**k?" Reid questioned.
I turned to look at him and glared.
But he didn't seem upset that he ruined what was going to happen.
He actually looked proud.
If Chris had thought I had ruined the moment, this just made it a thousand times worst.
"Eli has been asking for you since you left,"
My anger vanished away at the mention of Eli. I was only concerned about my son.
Chris immediately saw the look on my face and understood.
"Thank you, Chris. I'll see you later," I told him.
He smiled and nodded.
I pushed past Reid and made my way.
Eli never asked for me when he was with Aria. Something must have happened that he wanted to actually wanted to see me.
But it looked nothing did.
Elias was sitting on Aria's lap on the couch. They were both knocked out.
I turned around, ready to yell at Reid but stopped myself.
I grabbed his hand and dragged him inside my room. Shutting the door behind us.
"Eli was asleep. Why did you lie that he wanted me?" I questioned.
"Cuz heard you were coming," he shrugged.
"So?" I shook my head.
"I didn't want him touching you,"
I looked at him, confused. "Why do you even care if he did? And don't say that ‘I'm yours’ bullshit," I crossed my arms.
"Don't you see it? I'm here with you. I'm with our son, and you still rather someone else?" He raised his voice slightly.
"Reid, I don't understand what you don't get? I've told you before stop,"
"And what if I don't want to?" He challenged. "You'll back and leave as you did?"
"That's better than actually having to live with you," I shot back. "We we're done without you for three years before,"
I knew I was harsh, but all the anger I felt for years, and the resentment I had towards him seemed to be the only thing I could only clearly see.
“Why do you keep being stuck in the past. I’m here, aren’t I?” He crossed his arm.
“I honestly truly felt it was easier when you weren’t,” I told him.
I could see that my words hurt him. But I just didn’t know any better way of saying any of this.
I have always been this way, and Reid never was able to see this
“Elias seemed to start to get comfortable with you and I’m happy that he is. But if you think you can try being the husband that you never were, I suggest you do it somewhere else,” I strictly said.
He took in a long deep breath and moved to leave out the door but stopped himself.
“I know you hate me right now, but one day you’ll be begging me to stay,” he coldly said.
“If that ever happens, which it won't, then I guess you would win, ”
“Let's see, ”
-
The next day work was not busy at all, which seemed to be perfect since I had time to clear my head.
What Reid had said seemed to have stuck to me for some reason.
And last night, I could barely sleep with him next to me.
I had a great time with Chris, and he had already texted me to do it again. And being with Chris has always made me feel safe, and I never had to worry about anything.
But with Reid, he gets on my nerves.
He had said I would beg him not to leave, but I knew if I held my dignity, that’s the last thing I would ever do.
I would not let him win, and if he plans on staying for long, I will make sure he knows how much I would never be with him.
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