Behind Her Silence

That day was meant to be a great day, Raphael had made the arrangements to introduce me to his family. Unfortunately, my mother tagged along. From that moment, i started feeling things weren't going to turn out as expected. She was going to ruin it all, or so i thought. Seated at the dining table for not more than ten minutes, his father started judging my appearance, educational background, family background and future goals. I was in shock as to how we got here yet i was as calm as i ever will be, it surprised my past self. It was thirty minutes full of different emotions for everyone at the table. When i thought it was over because well he stopped talking, his wife took over. It felt like they rehearsed for this before i came here. One thing pained me tho, which was how Raphael said nothing, not a single word. She finished and it was clear she felt she played her part well. They became quiet and were obviously waiting for my response but i had nothing to say so i started eating. A thought came to my mind " she hasn't said anything, and i was thinking she would ruin it all..... Maybe..." it didn't take one minute for my brain to finish that thought, then she spoke. " You have no shame, you've been humiliated yet you're eating. What kind of human being are you?". All i did was sigh, she didn't fail to not surprise me. I ate finish, talked to one of his siblings who said i shouldn't take their words to heart. Little did she know my heart was the one listening not my ears. I left and went home after that, technically now i can't call it my home also. I packed my things, well everything i owned. My mother just sat down in the living room watching me, i was just glad she didn't say anything, the stress of finding my earphones and putting it on was annoying to think of. I went home, yes my own home, full of material things but no soul aside from mine. Raphael never called or sent any messages, with time i was starting to realise he knew of what his family would do. I thought of all the times he hinted about his family not accepting me but i never expected he would throw me aside like I'm unwanted. So many emotions ran through my body, so many thoughts crossed my mind. At some point, it felt as if i deserved all that's been happening to me , like it's my punishment. Little by little, i started dwelling more in my thoughts. I slowly escaped from reality.