I Fell For The Mafia King

This can't be true

No no this couldn't be true... I can't be.. Oh please no.. I have to do a test. Maybe I am panicking for nothing. Maybe I am not... Well I hope I am not..

First I leave Adriano then come back with a baby? No. I know I would never be able to... To... Kill it.

I was walking toward the grocery store when I spot a man observing me... Following me.. He looked around 20 years old... Oh boy..well maybe I'm becoming paranoid...

I entered the store and took what I needed. Then as fast as I could walked back to the hotel.

Fine....so now I'll know I guess.. I was waiting for the results. Don't let me be.. Please don't let me be.. I was still waiting for the results

.. What happens if I am? What would I do then? What would Adriano do? Imagine... Hey Adriano I know I left and stuff but yeah here is the thing I am pregnant with your baby so yeah...

Geez what would happen if? No no don't think about it yet.. Because you still don't have the results...I mean maybe I'm not pregnant ..or maybe this is just a dream..yeah a nightmare, that's it.

Come onnnn why is that talking so long. I looked over at the test and just...broke down... "Positive"... No no no.. No.. I couldn't help it and broke into tears..

I am pregnant... Pregnant with the baby of a heartless gang leader.. And worse of all..I am the one who left. Adriano must be furious..

I couldn't do anything. I would never kill the baby. I laid a hand on my belly and sighted. "Don't worry little one.. I'll be the best mommy for you" even tho this baby wasn't planned I would love it no matter what...

But now what? Do I tell Adriano..? Or not? If I tell him he will get me back.. And probably lock me up.. But if I don't my child will never have a father.. And he or she deservers a father. I cant take that away.. I know how it feels to have a childhood without dad anyway..

So do I sacrefice my dreams and life for this little one. Or no? What to doooo ugh I feel so lost right now. I wish I had a best friend right now to trust. Someone who could give me advice..

But what if Adriano doesn't want the baby? What if he forces me into abortion? Would he do that? Or would he love the baby?... So many questions and no answers..

All I know right now is.. I will probably not go study.. This little thing growing inside me will change my life forever. And even tho I left Adriano.. I still love him more then anything.. And have to admit I miss him. Such a mess.. Good job Catharina and what now?