Luca
I hated seeing her so scared.
But seeing her again was like a balm to my soul. I loved her so god damn much.
I tried to tell her as much with eyes. Putting every ounce of feeling into that one look. I needed to let her know that it was going to be ok.
No matter what happened to me , she would be fine. She would have a long and happy life.
She needed to know she would get over this. That she would heal.
Maybe I needed to believe that as well because I didn’t want to leave her. I hadn’t had nearly enough time with her. But then no amount of life times would be enough with Alice. She was the reason my life existed. The reason my world kept turning. As long as she was alive and happy by death would be worth it.
I wasn’t afraid of death , it had been part of my life for years. A
