Amythest dreams

Chapter Eight:

She awoke to feeling his warm skin pressed against hers. Her heart fluttered as she remembered what had happened the night before. She had actually slept with Prince Kallan. Well. Not necessarily all the way she supposed. Her virginity was still there. But her body felt anything but innocent. Her body heated up as she replayed the way he had worshipped her body. The way his tongue had licked at her like a cat to cream. How his lips had kissed every single inch of her body and set fire to her senses. Her body was already heating up thinking about the pleasure that had racked her body. "Little raven if you don't stop replaying last night in that little head of yours there will be an encore of the events in the next few minutes. And believe me when I say that I would have no issue with having you for breakfast."

 Her temperature spiked more as his lips trailed against her neck, his breath a warm trickle as he whispered his desire to have her again. "I.. Um.. I.. Kallan." She couldn't voice the words as his hand trailed down to cup her mound and gently massage her inner folds. She could already feel the moisture pooling and she knew he could smell her arousal. She knew she should stop him, should save some semblance of her sanity and her self respect yet she couldn't manage the words to stop him as a small orgasm pushed its way through. It was nowhere near as intense as the mind blowing, earth shaking ones that she had experienced the previous night, yet this one felt more intimate and made her tremble with ecstasy. She turned around to face him, looking at his icy blue eyes that swirled with desire and something she couldn't quite make out. She kissed him gently, offering a small thank you to him and a silent affirmation that he didn't have to stop if he didn't want to. She had already gone off the deep end with him. Why not all the way? 

Kallans eyes went even darker as he pulled her closer to him. "Iredesa, my little raven, as much as I would love to continue this, and believe me when I say that I want to continue this, I must insist we stop and get ready to leave. We lost a good bit of time and if we want to make it in time then I regrettably have to say that I can't spend the rest of the day feasting on you and claiming you as mine in the most permanent of ways. As I said before, your first time of being fully taken should be in our bed in Tiernim. I feel that I owe you that much courtesy." She blinked, steadying herself and trying to control the heat that was roaring inside her. He was right, of course he was. She knew that she shouldn't have been so eager to let him have her body. But last night had broken the last bit of resolve she had to remain neutral with him. She couldn't go back to pretending that he didn't exist. "I.. Of course you're right. I don't know what came over me. Is it still raining?" She asked, sitting up and covering herself with her blanket. Already the glow from the nights events was fading, causing her to feel embarrassed and shamed. She had given in awful easily to his seduction. It hadn't even been a week yet and she somehow she had managed to fall into bed with him. Even if her virtue was still in place, she had still stained her soul with premarital relations with him. And knew that she'd do it again. Now that she knew how good it felt, how much pleasure he was able to bring, she was certain that she would come any time he called for her.

Still. She couldn't help but feel like she had somehow betrayed her father. She poked her head out to see that it was still drizzling. It wasn't bad enough for them to stall their journey so she looked around for her clothes. He held out her shirt to her. "Iredesa what happened last night. I can feel you pulling away and I want you to know that you should not regret what happened. I know that I sure as hell don't. Last night and the little bit that happened this morning was by far one of the best moments of my entirety. I know that you don't trust me. And I understand why. I took you from your whole life and I am about to drag you into a whole new world. You may feel that what happened last night was way too fast but in the world of the Fae time holds no meaning and when you feel that spark and that much of a connection you go with your feelings. s*x isn't the taboo thing that humans make it out to be. Animals in the wild are just as open and free about it. Humans are the only species that seem to be hung up on waiting until marriage. I wanted you and you wanted me. You can't deny the passion that we felt." 

She didn't say anything, still upset with herself for giving in. He would always be able to hold s*x over her. She would always want him. And he would eventually tire of her. He had lived two centuries and would live many more. She only had a lifespan of decades. Soon he would find somebody else and she would be thrown to the side. He had said it himself, the Fae did not view s*x or relationships the same way as humans. They didn't practice monogamy like humans. They were very open. She knew that she could never go to bed with another once they were married. The thought of him being with another woman hurt her and she didn't understand why. 

"Little raven please look at me. I am not reading your mind but I can feel your distress." She looked up as she finished getting dressed. "I am fine Prince Kallan. I am just eager to go. As you said we wasted enough time." She walked out of the tent, not caring that her hair or clothes were getting wet. Not caring that they had not eaten breakfast or that he hadn't even broke camp yet. She just kept walking. After a few minutes she stopped, realizing that she had no clue which path to take. He caught up to her, not saying anything and they continued. 

The rest of the day continued in silence. Eventually the rain stopped completely and sunshine began to peek through the canopy of the trees. Iredesa kept thinking about how easily she had given in. It hadn't even been a week and she had allowed herself to fall into bed with him. They hadn't even left the mortal world yet and she was already giving in to him. Her father would be ashamed of her. She had always had more willpower and backbone than this. She could still feel him on her skin and it made her want more. And that knowledge killed her inside because she knew that no matter how much she wanted to keep a neutral and unwilling demeanor with him for what he had done to her, she had already succumbed to him with her body. The only blessing she had was knowing that she hadn't went all the way like she was about to when they awoke. If she was going to have any of her dignity left by this trip she needed to resist any other urges that she might have.

"Iredesa. The pear tree is coming up soon. I don't think we need to stop for the night. But we should at least stop to eat. I know you are hungry. And  I am famished. So I think when we get to it we will stop for an hour before we keep going." She nodded, knowing that when they stopped again she would lay down guidelines of the rest of their trip. 

They reached the pear tree an hour later and Iredesa breathed in its beauty. The pears were a delicious golden color and smelled divine. Her stomach growled loudly, a reminder that she had stormed away without eating that morning, and her mouth began to water at the sight of the delicious fruit hanging from the tree. Once they reached the base she plucked one from the branches and bit into it eagerly. Juice ran down her chin and she moaned at the lightly sweet flavor that burst into her mouth. It tasted perfect. Not too sweet. Not too bitter. But with just enough of each of them to mingle together in perfect harmony. Kallan bit into one as well, already eyeing her quizzically.  

"Go ahead and speak Iredesa. I know that you have something on your mind that you would like to get out. And I am prepared to listen to you state your case before I tell you why you are overreacting." She scowled at him, swallowing the last bite of the pear slowly, before sitting down and preparing herself for the conversation. "I Think that for the duration of this trip that we should keep things platonic around each other." He arched an eyebrow, his face a mixture of amusement and annoyance. "Oh little raven? Do you now?"

She nodded, "Yes. I barely know you and already I have shamed myself and sullied the Fletcher name by allowing you to touch me in ways that only the man I love, my husband, should. You are neither. It is true that you are to be my husband. Eventually. But you are not. You are a stranger. And I should have never allowed you to seduce me."

He laughed, and she could have sworn she heard the echo of silk and swords, " Allowed me to seduce you. Little raven. I regret to inform you but you are the one who has done the seducing from the moment we got to the Drunken Beaver. I followed your lead each and every time we have done anything. Save that one moment where you had refused to speak to me and I felt that a point needed to be proven. And I cannot understand why you are so caught up in propriety and social norms of people who never accepted you truly. As I told you before. s*x is nothing to be hidden and ashamed of. It isn't some shameful thing that you must never speak of or act on for fear of being ruined. Look at you. Truly look at yourself for just a moment. Do you feel unclean? Was what we did truly the end of the world? Has it altered the very fabric of the world? No. Because at the end of the day s*x is a natural thing that almost every living thing in this world does. You shouldn't be afraid to explore the carnal yearnings of your body."

 Iredesa stood up, knowing that she was just acting out of anger, but unwilling to let him know that she could tell that he had a point. " Prince Kallan You may hold no value over the sanctity of s*x. You may not see it as something unique and special. I get it. You are two centuries old and have long since stopped being  virgin. But I do value it. I always wanted that moment to be with a man that I love and that loves me back. I was suppose to give that one thing that I truly had to offer a man to a man that deserved and cherished the gift that I gave him. You have made my virginity out to be nothing more that something that will be a trivial nuisance compared to your base desires. That the sooner I just give in to it,  the sooner we can both just move on." She was breathing heavy by the time she was done, her hair pulling from its loose bun and curling around her face. She wanted to cry but would not let him. 

She knew the words she were saying were baseless. He had never assumed that her virginity wasn't important. He had even stopped her several times to keep her virtue in tack. Yet she was hurt and humiliated. She wanted him and yet she knew that she shouldn't. 

He sighed, looking at her with what she could only describe as pity. "Iredesa. You and I both know that you don't mean what you are saying. I will ignore the baseless comments you have made about my lack of caring of your virtue. It's insulting of you to even say such things. However, know this. Even though I am agreeing to not touch you again. This is only an agreement that sticks until you ask me to touch you. Once you find that you want me tasting and licking and worshipping your body again... I won't hesitate to give you everything you are asking for. I will not deny you." He walked towards her until he was standing a hair with away. Yet he did not touch her. Just as he had said he wouldn't.

Her heart was pounding in her chest yet again as she felt the heat of him so close to her. The thought of him tasting and licking and worshipping her body had her almost weak at the knees. Still, she took a deep breath and said "Thank you. We can keep moving now." He simply nodded at her and  they began their journey again, leaving the second of the trees behind. They were halfway through the first part of their journey. Yet the adventure had seemed to only have just begun.