FIDEMEX-LIFE STORY

Parenting is key in every child's upbringing as it can affect the child either positively or negatively. Bear in the name 'mummy' or 'daddy' is not parenting,parenting is demanding as you have to be present,felt,seen,heard and acknowledged in your child's life to major my avoid negative future effects of poor parenting.Well that is just but my take.Personally, I grew uo in the hands of house helps.Both of my parents are police officers and at that time they worked quite far from where we lived. I used to admire other children when their parents drop them off to school,pick them up and even visit them in school. Growing up in the 'absence' of both of my parents-physically and emotionally-made me develop an urge to make many friends who were mostly older than I.I looked for a mummy figure and a daddy figure in them since my parets were present but absent. I recall in class four, I had a best friend who by then was in class eight. Her having a boyfriend influenced me in the same direction. It didn't take me long to get a boyfriend too since many a times I was a third wheel when they linked. So in class six she linked me to a guy who i had a crush on. They were age mates.I remember before i joined boarding school in class five, I never had good relations with the house helps that I was staying with. On one saturday , I was outside playing with my friends then i felt really thirsty. I rushed home to quench my thirst and upon entering the house, I found our house help on missionary screwing with a guy I believed to be his boyfriend. By then i was so innocent to underwhatever was happening so i just greeted them and ran to the kitchen to quench my thirst then i ran outside the house so first to join my friends in playing. I never focused on what i saw since i didn't know what intimacy was back then. life continued as usual but on the next Saturday,the househelp restricted me from going outside to play. I sat in the house and took a story book to read. she tgen came and closed the door and the curtains. She then increased the volume of the radio and sat down in a very tight mini skirt and a vest. She had no b*a on then she carried me and held me seated on her laps facing her directly in the eye. She told me she would like to do something but i shouldn't tell anybody about it. I was 8 years old by then. Naive as i was i agreed with her. She moved forward and started kissing me. It was my first kiss. Not knowing what to do I could just move my tongue up and about . She then grinded my a*s and removed my dress. She licked my whole body from the neck to my toes. I was excited and it felt so nice. She then opened my legs quite wide and started l*****g my pussy.She then fingered me while playing with my c******s. I could tell how i felt but it felt so good and wierd at the same time. she ate my p***y quite well at top notch then started rubbing her's slowly. She squirted consequently then she put me in a position where she could rub her ckitoris against mine. it felt so nice .after a while i told her that i am tired and I wanted to go outside and play. Before she let me go she breast fed me as she was rubbing my pussy.Going outside to play, I could just remember the feeling and get excited. I used to have a nasty friend who was 10 years old then. Later in the day i joined him at their home for a movie. He then showed me a p**n video on his tablet and i recalled catching our house help being screwed. I wondered how it felt, we both did and curious as we were, we decided to give it a try. He inserted his d**k in my v****a and screwed me. We both felt it was nice, from then henceforth we could just link and screw. To us it was just a game that made us feel so good , we did not know what we were into. after a year or so, they relocated to a different town so i got a friend's brother to be doing the 'job' for me. He was also 10 years old but better than the previous one. This became my new trend every afternoon and i never talked about it. I was just so into it. After a while i joined boarding school and started dating highschoolers, Form one Form two guys for they gave me love and attention that i never got from my parents. During one of my holidays in class 5, I went to stay with one of my mother's close friend. I really liked both her and her family since they treated me so well. So one afternoon,I went to take a shower and go catch a movie. I dressed in a dress and upon going to the sitting room I came across her son who was in form two by then. He gave me some wanting looks and asked me to wait for him to shower so that we could go watch foitball together. I waited for him patiently as he showered. By then i had started to blossom, my breasts had started to grow,my a*s,my hips widening so it could be i looked seductive. so him coming, he told me he wanted us to play a game but i should never tell it to anyone. I agreed. He asked me to lay down and i did so. he kneeled and removed my lingerie. He then ate my p***y and before I knew it, he had inserted his six inches in my v****a. I won't lie, that one was painful but he enjoyed on his part really much. He went for two rounds then left. I went to the bedroom and locked myself up and started crying,crying in pain,crying in guilt since i was also in a position to say no, but i agreed. I thought of going to report him to the police but i thought of our parents relations,his reputation,and i agreed to it so I was better of silent.but I was dying in silence and the guilt that i got that day drived me to having more s*x carelessly since I had lost my virginity already, and secondly i wanted to learn more and all about intimacy.I messed up really bad ,having early s*x,many patners in the long run and it became an addiction to me.I struggled stopping the behaviour but it never ceased completely. And yes at times i do regret losing my virginity carelessly.An adcice to younger me could be its okay to say no to s*x. Its okay to speak up and share what we go through since keepng it all to myself actually made me worse. For all those young people who lost their virginity at a young age i would like to tell you that it is okay,just let it go and let it slide because dwelling much in it will make no difference,once the hymen is broken it is broken.plus try as much as posdible to overcome the guilt that comes after to avoid having s*x irresponsibly in the name of i already lost my virginity. Yes it is lost but you have a task of upholding your self esteem and dignity. And youcan always re-write the story since you are the auther of your book. So get yourself together,you are fine,you are great,you are pretty,you are strong,you are thr best. Don't let one mistake way you down. And my message to parents would be try as much to be present physically,emotionally and mentally for your kids as much as you are supporting them financially. If you can live with them as all the time all these happened my parents were not around. Neither did we connect or bond, you can save your children a lot of messy s**t just by being a present parent in your Children's lives. It makes it better for their up bringing. All this is just my take from my past experience.