Well, Maybe I am

PROLOUGE He was fidgety all day long. But he was acting differently these past weeks. Gone were the long sweet kisses and the surprise back hugs. He does not look me in the eye anymore and tell me he loves me. He always had excuses to avoid spending time with me. And now, I think today’s the day I am going to lose him. We were sitting right across from each other in my favourite coffee shop, Dali Kape. He did not reach for my hand like he used to do. We have been sitting in silence for more or less ten minutes now. He did not utter a word after he asked me what I wanted to order. I ordered mango shake and he ordered cafe latte. I thought I should have ordered something difficult to make. Maybe he will stay longer. The moment of truth I had expected happened after I had my first sip of the mango shake. “I want to talk to you about something,” he said. My heart dropped from my chest. “It is not you, Olivia. It’s me. I love her. It is not fair to you if I keep our relationship when I wanted another woman.” This is definitely goodbye. Tear threatened to trickle down my face but I held it in. He could have said sooner and save us the time. I could have moved on and healed by now if he had been forthcoming with me when she came back to his life. There is no room for me in heart. I never had room. I just forced myself into a tiny portion meanwhile a huge space was still reserved for her. It took me a couple of minute to regain my composure. My mango shake arrived and I took a sip. “How long have you known that you did not stop loving her?” “When I met her again two months ago.” “D- did you… are you together again now?” “Not yet. She said nothing romantic will happen between us unless I broke things off with you.” “How considerate of her.” I took another long and hard sip of mango shake. At this rate I am going to finish this tall glass of mango shake in three gulps. “It is always her, isn’t it?” “Yes.” I wanted to empty the mango shake on his head. But I am above all that. Instead, I left the café without saying a word.