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Chapter 03 - It's MY Birthday I Can Run if I Want to

POV - Felix

after many hours of eating relaxing and talking with Amelia, Axel, Jake, James and lilly we all walked away from the pack house breakfast to the more formal family lunch at the diner. My father, Kate and Dee were waiting at the door and we all sat down to order. Dee rushed and sat next to Axel ogling him close up and personal. She always did this and it sent a flame or jealousy which boiled my stomach making me want to throw up across the table. Axel looked uncomfortable which was my only saving grace to this situation. i tried to pull my eyes away for Dees dirty little paws all over him but couldn't. To be fair he is fair game, 'on the market', and the Alpha so I don't know what else to expect but Axel is not putting up any fight really other than his facial expression which makes me think he's letting it all happen. The burnt wood and chocolate scent rolled off him into my nose keeping me planted wishing I was by his side.

after i finally got my ability to think back I turned back to the group and Amelia gave me a sympathetic look rolling her eyes at Dee. Suddenly my father and Kate stood up and the current Alpha Ramone Wood walked in causing us all to stand from our meals. How f*****g long was I looking at Axel? I hadn't even noticed the food or any changes. Amelia is so right it would be a miracle if he didn't know how I felt. Maybe that's why he's so distant now I am such a creepy pervert that he can't even stand to entertain me.

"Happy birthday Felix I hope you and Amelia take care of each other at university over the next few years and we look forward to having you back here to work for our forestry department in the future" I looked at Axel and he looked at me with an expression that was hard to read. Initially it looked like hurt but I think it must have been confusion. i know he had been too busy to hear from myself or Amelia of our plans so it only made sense for him to be confused.

"thank you Alpha" i said with a bow and a forced smile. Though I love the Wood twins and their mother Luna Grace something always erks me about Alpha Ramone. Perhaps it was just how serious he always was or the fact he very rarely saw any of us as individuals more as our roles. Hard to say, but I always try my best to be polite.

He gave a tight lipped smile and nod to be before waving his hand as if to push away the subject and continued now with more or a genuine smile "I also have another announcement. Axel will be taking over as Alpha in 3 years after his Alpha Training. He will have to find his Luna in this time but if he is unable to find a suitable fated mate we have arranged for him to mate with Dee."

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I could feel and tears pricking the corners of my eyes threatening to fall. This is why he has been with her all lunch. Perhaps he looks uncomfortable because we are around so many people when he wants to be alone.

My father and Kate looked so proud of themselves they clearly set this up well for their precious DAUGHTER and Dee looked down right giddy.

"i thought this would be a good time for the announcement as both families are here but it will stay private to avoid any embarrassment if he does find his fated mate" the Alpha continued.

I felt my head got fuzzy I looked up to see Amelia looking shocked and angry. This must be the first time she was hearing about this she knew Dee was a nasty b***h as well as I did. i looked over to see Axel looking angry telling his father something about needing to talk in the other room.

I balanced myself on the table feeling like i might throw up. oh I am definitely getting wasted tonight. i finally collect myself and put on a smile "Congratulations Dee. Amelia and I are going to go get ready for tonight" I quickly got up pulling Amelia's hand. i can't believe i thought a family lunch could ever go well. Amelia and I rushed back to the pack house as we passed Axel he looked pissed his eyes caught mine and softened with sorrow and pitty. I couldn't even tell if he was sad because he felt like he took over the party by accident or if he knew of our bond or hell maybe he just didn't want to marry Dee. I couldn't read the man for the life of me and I had my own s**t to worry about.

We reached our room and I landed on a bed sobbing into the pillows. "Felix, I know it hurts now but you know unless you were fated mates that this would happen eventually in some way." she rubbed my back letting me know she was there while i cried.

"Ferra I need you to come forward I need someone to know. Please let me tell Amelia"

I begged silently to my wolf. After a huff she agreed.

i sat up looking at Amelia as my eyes turned from the usual icy blue to midnight black and stopped crying. i pulled back watching from a distance and Ferra explained everything about how we have known about our wolf for a long time and how we have known about our mate for that time also. About the pain and loneliness we feel not having had anyone to share this with. Ferra also threw in wanting to go on a run which felt a little off the mark for the conversation but I guess her priorities are a key part of this.

"...so you see we can't make ourselves known. You are the only person who knows about me but I can feel that we will be in danger the second we shift and present our selves. I just know that Felix needs someone who understands and I trust both you and Adri to keep this quiet." i pulled back toward tears staring to fall as my eyes went back blue. Amelia looks to be in shock. she couldn't close her mouth she just took me into her embrace. I knew we could trust her and her wolf they love me like a sister and I love them the same.

"I'm so sorry Felix. I didn't know. I should have done something. I'm going to talk to that asshat he will know you are mated. I can't believe he hasn't told anyone, BUT ESPECIALLY ME, what a d**k head." her shock was slowly replaced by anger

"Amelia no he can't know yet. I don't know the details about my wolf won't come forward but she thinks we are in danger. I can't bring anyone else into this. Even Jake and dad just think I am wolfless you are the only one. please don't tell anyone" I sobbed out all the words and just as i thought my tears would clear I sobbed some more. Amelia took my shoulders in her hands looked me in the eye and held me tight.

"look Felix I won't tell him or anyone. But i know my brother I don't think he knew about the plan with Dee he looked pissed and I know he's always liked you which is why i encouraged your crush. It's also why I think he knows you are mated but wants to wait for your 18th or your wolf. But even if you don't have a wolf I don't think he will reject you. He adores you. I know you won't believe it because I know you haven't seen it but when I visit home you're all he asks about. don't be afraid. if he tries to reject you I'll beat his ass but I don't think he will reject you and I know he does not care for Dee and definitely does not want her anywhere near him." she laughed which made me laugh "Now go girl and wash your face you look like s**t, it's time to get ready for the bar and forget about being miserable" I just smiled at her and pulled her into my embrace.

"let's get f****d up" I yelled and we fell onto the floor laughing.