Chapter 1
CHAPTER 1
The Girl Without a Wolf
Elena's Pov
I stood outside Ryan's apartment door. The new lingerie felt strange under my coat and the lace scratched against my skin with every breath.
My phone showed 11:47 PM. In thirteen minutes, I would turn twenty-three and tomorrow would be my first Mating Day. We had planned this carefully. Ryan would mark me as his chosen mate before midnight and the bond would be sealed before Mating Day even began.
I did not have a wolf. I would never have a fated mate. But Ryan said he loved me anyway and that was enough.
I pulled out my key and slid it into the lock.
"Ryan, I'm here—"
The words died in my throat.
Ryan was on the bed. Naked. But he was not alone.
Cindy straddled him and faced the door. My best friend since we were seven years old locked eyes with me and smiled. Then she moaned and rolled her hips deliberately while maintaining eye contact.
"Oh, Ryan," she breathed. "Yes, just like that."
I could not move.
Ryan grunted beneath her and gripped her waist. Then he saw me. He froze.
"Elena." His voice cracked on my name.
Cindy climbed off him slowly and reached for a sheet. She did not look embarrassed. She looked triumphant.
"What..." I could barely form words. "What is this?"
Ryan sat up and ran his hand through his hair. He did not scramble to explain. He did not apologize. He looked annoyed that I had interrupted.
"Elena, listen—"
"How long has this been going on?" My voice sounded distant.
Cindy answered before he could. "Three months." She wrapped the sheet around herself and smiled. "Since the summer solstice party."
Three months. While he kissed me goodnight. While he told me he loved me. While he planned tonight with me.
"I can't mark someone wolfless, Elena." Ryan stood and pulled on his pants. "I have a reputation. My family has expectations. Cindy has her wolf."
The room tilted. I grabbed the doorframe to steady myself.
"You said it did not matter." My voice broke. "You said you loved me anyway."
"I do care about you." He actually sounded like he believed it. "But tomorrow at the Mating Ceremony, I need a real Luna by my side. Someone whole."
Cindy walked over and put her hand on Ryan's shoulder. The gesture was possessive and deliberate.
"Did you really think he would choose you?" Her voice dripped with false sweetness. "You are defective, Elena. No wolf, no mate, no future. You should be grateful Ryan gave you any attention at all."
I stumbled backward into the hallway. Ryan did not follow me. Neither did Cindy. The door closed and I heard her laugh.
My feet carried me down the stairs and out to my car. I sat in the driver's seat and gripped the steering wheel. I should cry. I should scream. But nothing came out. Just silence that filled my chest like ice water.
I started the car and drove. I did not know where I was going and I did not care. The streets blurred together until I found myself parked outside The Ember Lounge. The upscale hotel bar blazed with light and music poured onto the street every time someone opened the door.
Mating Day Eve. Of course. Everyone was celebrating.
I walked inside and the noise hit me like a wave. Werewolves packed every corner and laughed and drank and talked about the celebration. They were all happy about the bonds that would change their lives forever.
I slid onto a barstool and caught the bartender's attention.
"Whiskey."
He raised an eyebrow but poured it. I did not usually drink whiskey. I did not usually drink much at all. But tonight I needed something that burned.
The woman next to me turned and looked at me with kind eyes.
"Drowning sorrows or gathering courage?" she asked.
I downed the whiskey and felt it scorch my throat. "Both? Neither? I don't know anymore."
She laughed softly. "I have been there." She reached into her purse and pulled out an elegant black masquerade mask. "There is a private party upstairs. Masks required. Invitation only." She slid a second invitation across the bar. "But I think you need it more than my friend who cancelled."
I stared at the mask and the invitation. "Why would you give this to me?"
"Because sometimes we need to be someone else for a night." She stood and squeezed my shoulder. "Go. Forget whoever hurt you."
She left before I could respond. I picked up the mask and turned it over in my hands. The bartender refilled my glass without asking.
I drank it. Then I took the mask and invitation and headed for the elevator.
The party was on the penthouse level. When the elevator doors opened, I stepped into a different world. Crystal chandeliers cast soft light over a room full of beautiful people in elaborate masks. Champagne flowed freely and music pulsed through the air like a heartbeat. Everyone moved with the confidence of wealth and power.
I did not belong here. But maybe that was the point.
I tied the mask around my face and grabbed a glass of champagne from a passing waiter. The alcohol made everything softer around the edges. I moved through the crowd and let the music carry me. No one knew my name here. No one knew I was broken. I could be anyone.
I drank another glass. Then another. The room spun pleasantly and I found myself on the dance floor. I closed my eyes and let the rhythm move through me. For the first time all night, I could breathe.
Then I felt him.
A presence behind me. Strong and commanding and impossible to ignore. I turned and looked up at a man in a simple black mask. He was tall with dark hair and broad shoulders. He did not smile. He just extended his hand.
I should walk away. I should go home. But his hand hung in the air between us like a question I desperately wanted to answer.
I took it.
His fingers closed around mine and electricity shot up my arm. He pulled me close and we moved together. He did not speak and neither did I. Words felt unnecessary. His body guided mine and I followed without thinking.
Then his scent hit me. Pine and smoke and something wild that made my head spin. It wrapped around me and pulled me closer.
He leaned down and his breath was warm against my ear.
"You don't belong here."
I pulled back enough to meet his eyes through the mask. "And you know where I belong?"
"No." His voice was deep and rough. "But you are different from everyone else in this room. I can sense it."
My heart stuttered. Did he know? Could he tell I was wolfless just by looking at me?
"Different how?" I managed to ask.
He did not answer. Instead, he took my hand and led me away from the dance floor. Every instinct screamed that this was reckless, dangerous, and stupid. But I followed him anyway. Through the crowd. Down a hallway. Away from the music and the lights and the safety of witnesses.
He stopped in front of a door and pulled a keycard from his pocket. A hotel suite. Of course, he had a suite. He opened the door and then turned to face me.
"Tell me to stop and I will."
I thought of Ryan and Cindy. The three months of lies, I thought of being called broken and defective and not enough.
I stepped forward and looked up at this stranger who smelled like the forest and made my pulse race.
"Don't stop."
The door closed behind us and I made a choice I would never be able to take back.