My nemesis had ascended the throne, I can not be castrated.

Since the new emperor ascended the throne, I've been tossing and turning. I always feel that I won't live long. Speaking of my grudge against the new emperor, I have to start from my childhood. At the beginning, Xiao Mozhen was still just a prince fostered in the general's mansion next door, he was neither favored nor did he have a powerful mother's family to support him. He was neither favored, nor did he have a strong mother's family to support him, and he was also a white chicken, just like me. I bullied him, insulted him, lied to him, and beat him ...... to try to prove that I was a drop better than him. My crimes, can be said to be too numerous to mention. Thinking about it, I still intend to explain the aftermath first, I called my mother, lying on her knees, aggrieved baba I called my mother, lying on her knees, and explained my will. “Mother, my father left early, you in order to marquis title, so I let me from childhood female disguised as a man, but my daughter is finally To fail you, so many years have not been able to build a career, but also in the capture of the first line of the wrong team, I'm afraid that I have to drag you down. I'm afraid I'm going to drag you down. How ...... about I commit suicide first? Perhaps I can still save mother and the Marquis House. In the future, mother will then inherit a child from the clan. pass on a child.” Mother looked at me with complicated eyes.