C’mon baby I need to get you home quick, I have a late appointment.
I hear my mom’s voice and it feels like it was an imagination. A very real one. Like the accident was all in my head or something.
What just happened? I think to myself.
I looked confused and shaken, scared even as I stretch out my hand to touch her like she was a ghost and I was trying to confirm reality.
Is everything alright? She asks me, but her voice is a blurry signal through my ears.
I'm trying to process whatever the hell just happened, my mind is in a haze and I can't connect the thoughts properly.
I know I was covered in blood only a few minutes ago so what was going on?
I’m still shaking and she’s getting worried.
Baby are you okay, look at me.
"Alex?, she calls out but I'm too lost in thought to focus.
She tries to touch me to see if I’m alright but I hear tires screeching at a distance.
Everything plays in slow motion.
I look up and duck slightly bracing for d impact, my mom doesn’t duck in time, her hand trying to block the contact but it doesn’t work.
A truck runs past us and our car slides through underneath it all the way to the other side. Luckily I was short and didn’t have to duck much so I was unharmed but I couldn’t say the same for my mom.
She soaked in her own blood and I'm not exempted in the slightest, there's still blood everywhere.
I’m screaming as the sight registers in my periphery.
What is going on?
Why is this happening again? I panic.
Blood is spraying all over my face, my hair; it gets in my mouth too and I heave.
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD OH G…..
Please be careful….a voice pulls me from my hallucination as I see someone walking towards me like I’m a scared animal.
I’m confused, looking down at my hands seeing blood that already dried forming disgusting paints on my skin.
It itches too.
I’m beginning to hyperventilate all over again…the accident happened, I relived it in my head. But why?
The second I blink I feel hands pushing me on a bed, the white sheets changing to an ugly color.
I struggle with all the strength I could muster pushing at everyone in my sight.
"Nooo" I scream trying to get away from them. Everyone. They're trying to subdue me and it makes me terrified.
I hear the sound of straps as my arms and legs are now bound to the frames of the now ugly bed.
"Do it now." A light female voice yells from my side the moment both arms and legs are tied down and still being held down.
I thrash continuously with all my strength until I can't move anymore. A sharp pain erupts on my left arm and seconds later reality blurs into a thick darkness. I don't know how long I've been unconscious but it's probably been long enough. I'm no longer in those blood stained clothes but a white hospital dress.
The nurse I wake up to see dashes out informing the doctor that I'm now awake. He walks in few minutes later and evaluates my vitals, I can think a bit clearly now at least but the doctor gives instruction to the nurse to sedate me for another few hours. Struggling with them this time doesn't seem necessary this time seeing i've lost the energy to. I let the needle pierce my skin and succumb to the darkness once more.