It was and will always be forever

My name is Amelia Black and I am the only child of Alpha Marcus Black and Luna Diana Black. We live in a secluded area in the lower mountain regions of western Canada. We are the Black Glacier Pack and known for raising powerful and strong male and female wolves. Our pack is considered one of the more prominent packs in North America as we are a larger and more dominant with a thriving territory and a large number of pack members. One day I will take over as Alpha for my father. The Alphas next in command is the Beta. Nathan Madden and Terra Madden are the Beta and Beta female, they’re son Asher Madden is my best friend. I have known Asher since I was born well not literally as I wouldn’t know him as a baby but you know what I mean. We are inseparable. He will be my future Beta. The Third in command is called the Gamma. Tanner Louis and Clara Louis are the Gamma and Gamma female. They have twin sons Wyatt and Miles Louis. They are loyal to the bone but can be the two biggest pain in the asses you could ever come by. I love them like the brothers I never had. They will be my future Gammas. Amelia’s POV- 13 years old Its 7am on a Saturday morning with no school or training, I’m running down stairs like a bat out of hell towards the kitchen for breakfast. Mom and dad said yesterday that Asher, Wyatt, Miles and I can all go down to the lake and go for a swim as the summer sun has warmed up the cold mountain lakes. I love the lakes here so much the water is the most beautiful greenish blue you could imagine. Our pack starts training their pups at the age of 10 to make sure we can protect ourselves, for us it’s basically like advanced gym class crossed with survival training so in all things considered it’s pretty fun. Advanced junior training starts at age 14, then things start to get a little tougher. The boys and I are going to be starting our advanced training early as we are the future ranked members of the pack. Asher came ripping down right after me running over to me with a twinkle in his eye, he grabs my hand and drags me over to the kitchen table so we can eat as fast as we can and head to the lake. The lake is close to the pack house where all our families live. My family lives on the forth floor, Asher’s lives on the third floor and Wyatt and Miles lives on the second floor. The first floor or main floor is common area all pack members are aloud on the first floor, it has the game/ theatre room, gym, kitchen and dinning room, my father and mothers offices along with a couple of conference rooms were the ranked members have meetings with other alphas when they are here. Wyatt and Miles joined us shortly after we got our breakfast. As we starting eating the boys starting talking about all the fun we were going to have at the lake. I just sat back and watched them talk. I looked at Asher with his dark brown almost black hair and his dark blue eyes with his some what naturally tanned complexion which was the complete opposite of the twins Wyatt and Miles. The twins had a light sandy blonde hair colour with hazel eyes and a more pale complexion. I however had a nice darker brown hair colour with blueish grey eyes and natural tanned complexion. As if Asher could feel me watching him he looks over at me and gave me a look that I’ve never seen from him before, I was confused as to what that look meant it was almost as if he was trying to look and read into my soul. After breakfast the boys ran to their rooms to grab their stuff and I went off to mine to do the same. We were to meet in front of the pack house in about 10 mins, I couldn’t stopping thinking about that look Asher gave me, I zoned out thinking to myself as I was getting my stuff together. There was a knock at my door I went to open it and standing there was Asher looking at me with a nervous look on his face, I was getting nervous he never looked nervous he was always so sure of himself being of Beta blood that does help a bit with confidence but that wasn’t it he always was happy and full of pride towards himself and others. “Asher wants wrong?” I said hoping he would tell me what’s wrong, we told each other everything. He looked at me after a moment of him tugging at the bottom of his t-shirt he looked me in the eyes and let out a sigh, “Amelia the guys and I decided that it’s just going to be the guys at the lake today.” I scrunched my eyebrows even more with a deeper look of confusion, he never calls me by my full name, it’s always been Mia from him. He’s the only one that called me Mia. “What do you mean? We have been excited to go to the lake for the last couple of days.” I said. “Amelia look it’s fun hanging out with you and everything but I wouldn’t mind just hanging with the guys today, we haven’t hung out in a while just the boys.” He said, he looked like he was struggling to come up with something off the top of head. If this is what he wanted than fine I wasn’t going to be the tag along or make it feel like he had to bring me. “It’s fine, whatever I can find something else to do today, my dad mentioned he wanted to talk to me anyway.” He gave me a forced smile and turned and walked away. I closed my door and let out a confused and hurt sigh. He’s never been like this before, what did I do? Did I say something to make him not want to hang out with him and the guys? It’s never been an issue before so why is it now? I started thinking back to all the times over the past 13 1/2 years, of all the fun and times we spend together. From the time we were playing in our diapers together watching cartoons, running around the pack territory and climbing trees, chasing each other and rough housing with each to the point of exhaustion. All the time spent together we were best friends we told each other every single thought and secret, we could read each other like we were in each other’s mind. I sighed out loud and just sat and looked out the window in my room. After a few minutes I got up and started towards my door, maybe I’m just over thinking this, maybe he’s right and just wanted to hang out with guys by himself. They are after all his friends too. After giving my self a little peep talk I decided to head to my fathers office for the chit chat he said he wanted to have with me from last night. Asher’s POV As I ran down the stairs for breakfast I was excited to spend time with MY Mia, for the past 2 or 3 months I’ve felt more protective, possessive and drawn to her. We’ve always been close best friends and we knew everything about each other. We followed or should I say I followed her everywhere since we were little. I have always been protective of her but I always chalked it up to that I cared for her as a sister that I never had and as time passed it changed to that she would eventually be MY Alpha. After I turned 15 4 months ago something changed from my side, I started to notice how her facial features and her body started to take form as a young woman vs a body of a girl. I knew I loved her from a very young age we were best friends I loved her like a part of my family as much as I loved my parents or Wyatt and Miles like brothers from another mother. We were all a close family, the pack was family whether blood or not. But now something has changed I feel I need to make her happy all the time like if she were sad or upset that would be the end of me and I would die if I seen her any other way besides content. The desire to hold her hand or any physical contact has overridden my senses many times in the last couple months, I just need to be close. I see her at the bottom of the stairs she turns around to look at me and I feel happiness deep into my bones, I rip up to her and grab her hand and drag her into the kitchen to eat breakfast as we wait for Wyatt and Miles to come down so we can head to the lake. Between school and training we’ve had less and less time to spend together, And it’s only getting worse as Wyatt, Miles and myself started advance training. Mia will be starting soon so then it won’t be so bad during training but it’s not the same as our hang out time. The time at the lake over the years is one of our favourites, but because we live in the mountains there’s only so much time throughout the year that we can go swimming in the lake instead of the heated swimming pool at the back on the pack house. We are werewolf’s but even we can only handle certain temperatures. Wyatt and Miles can down shortly after Mia and I got our breakfast and they sat down in front of us and started eating as well. I was chatting back and forth with Wyatt and Miles deciding on what we wanted to do at the lake when I felt this warmth spread over my body as if the sun decided only to warm me with its light, I looked over at Mia and she was just watching me with a content smile on her face. My heart skipped a beat and I looked at her and even I can’t describe the feeling I felt at that moment, it was as if I was looking at her soul. When we were done eating we decided we were going to meet in front of the pack house in about 10 minutes. Wyatt, Miles and myself started to head to our rooms to grab our stuff, Mia went ahead of us to go get her stuff from her room. Wyatt and Miles both stopped and look at me, “what’s up guys?” I said. They both look at each other and then they both turned back to me and I could tell something was bothering them, “ok whatever you guys gotta say just say it, you guys have never tried to filter your mouths before so what’s going on?” Wyatt goes to open his mouth but Miles beats him to it. “ look Asher we get you care for Amelia as do we, as if she was our own sister.” He said. I give the look to carry on. “ so what I, I mean Wyatt and I mean is that we are worried about you man, like you have changed since you turned 15 and you basically act like a lost puppy and follow Amelia everywhere, and if she’s not with you, you look like your going to hunt her down from the ends of the earth. Like we get it she’s turning into something pretty amazing and if she wasn’t close to us and I didn’t see her as a sister I would probably be just as excited to get know her more personally.” I caught him off guard and growled at his little comment about getting to know her more “personally”. He flinched a bit but continued. “The problem is that your only about 8 months from turning 16 and when you can find your mate. The way you have been looking at Amelia more recently tells me you see her way more than the best friend persona you guys have had for years. Your eventually going to be her Beta and us her Gammas, what’s going to happen if you let her know your feelings and you guys decide to go with it and then when you turn she’s not your mate and you find your mate, that’s going to make things on a very complicated level or worse what if she doesn’t see you the same way as you feel for her and then you will be the love sick Beta pinning after his alpha at least until you find your mate. Then try explaining to your mate about your feelings towards your best friend/ alpha.” I stand there and ponder over what Miles said. Wyatt puts his hand on my shoulder and looks me straight in the eyes, “ the chances of you and Amelia being mates is almost as unlikely as being mateless. It has apparently happened but like once ever 500 years.” I look at both of them and heave a big sigh, I know what they are saying and I wish they weren’t right but unfortunately for me they are. My heart hurts to think that can’t see where this could possibly go with MY Mia, s**t I can’t even call her mine anymore. I look at the boys and they seem to understand my turmoil going through my head. “Look Ash there could still be a chance of her actually being your mate, it’s a small one but it could happen. So just step back a bit and put some distance between you and Amelia and see how everything plays out. Just to make sure things are less complicated in the long run.” Miles said with a sigh. Fine this is how I guess I have to do this, I will make some distance between Mia and I and play the cards as they lye but god damit I hope she’s my mate I don’t think I could live seeing her with someone else or myself with anyone but her. So I tell the boys I will meet them in a few minutes at the front of the pack house to head to the lake. I start heading towards Mia room on the top floor, god what do I say? She’s going to know that somethings up. She knows me better than my own parents. I’m standing in front of her door and so I can build up the courage to knock on the door, I don’t normally knock I just head on in as I’ve spent about as much time with the movie marathons, game nights and the all night chats in her room as I have in my own. I finally built up the balls to knock and she answers the door right away and I can see it in her eyes, she knows somethings off. I’m nervous, I’m never nervous. “Asher what’s wrong?” Of course she would know something was wrong because this is wrong but I can’t back out now, I have to play this through till I know with out a doubt that she’s not my mate. I fidgeted with my t-shirt trying to think of something to make some distance but without entirely hurting her, I got it! A guys only day at the lake. “Amelia the guys and I decided that it’s just going to be the guys at the lake today.”s**t did I just call her Amelia, I don’t think I have ever called her by her full name. What is wrong with me? The look on her face told me I had hurt her more than any other time in our lives. f**k but the cuteness of her scrunched up eyebrows damn. “What do you mean? We had been excited to go to the lake for the last couple of days.” She said. For years it’s always been all of us including her that did group things together we never excluded her because to us she wasn’t like most girls that cared about make up, outfits and all the girly stuff. She was one of the guys besides being a girl. She could keep up with all of us or even kick our asses depending on how much we could get her going. I let out an internal sigh please make this easy for me not to hurt her. “Amelia look it’s fun hanging out with you and everything but I wouldn’t mind just hanging with the guys today, we haven’t hung out in a while just the boys.” She seemed to be thinking over everything I just said and weighing out what to say. Finally she looks me in the eyes and says, “ it’s fine, whatever I can find something else to do today, my dad mentioned he wanted to talk to me anyway.” I internally sighed and forced a smile on my face, turned and left. Please goddess tell me I am doing the right thing by distancing myself from the one who I believe to be my soulmate. I love her and it hurts every step I take towards the front door of the pack house. What if I’m making a huge mistake and this is not what you had planned for me? Like it can’t be coincidence that Mia and i get along as if our souls were one and the same from the very beginning.