FINDERS KEEPERS

09

FINDERS KEEPERS

NINE

Ever felt helpless, hopeless and useless? That's how I'm feeling, ever since those man left I've been sitting in the very same position, now I feel what Michel Jackson must have felt when he wrote 'speechless' it's exactly how I feel. I can hear mayona and Kagiso arguing but I'm not there, indeed there's nothing I can do, they only way out is if I give Kagiso a baby... Or either I stay five years into the marriage.

It's been a week since that day, Kagiso gave me a week off from work, even allowed me to stay at his apartment. Mayona has been here a couple of times to help clear my mind, I couldn't even be intimate with her, we fought about it a couple of times but i love her, and I want us to work, so I invited her over for diner tonight. I want to know that in the midst of all the craziness I have one stability, I want that confirmation that im not loosing my mind.

I just finished preparing ground beef casserole, and the classic French green salad, placed a bottle or red wine, candles... No! I'll do that once I'm done preparing myself. Only an hour left before she gets here, I went to take a shower, shaved because oooh well... I want me some big 0 tonight, after lotioning I took a a black starpy dress, it was above the knee with an open back, it had sparkles and feilers, I took out my black six inch and brushed my weave, I went to the salon today, got my hair and nails done, I don't want Yona thinking that I'm being inconsiderate of her, I want to show her that I'm serious about us.

I've just finished putting on my studs when the door bell rang, I quickly fished my dress and went to open the door, she's a few minutes early but it's good....to my surprise that was not mayona, it was Kagiso. He had on him a bouquet of lilies, a bottle of wine and a box of chocolate... What is he doing here?

Kagiso?:"uuuhm... Hey"

Me:"hi"

Kagiso:"can I uhm... Can I?"

He gestured inside.

Me:"uhm... Yeah sure come in...what brings you here" I asked the same time he said "smells good in here"

He chuckled a bit and sat down on the couch. Ohkay?

Kagiso:"can we sit down please"

Checking the clock first, five minutes before seven... I hope he's quick

Me:"yeah sure, what's up"

Kagiso:"I... Uhm.. I came to see how you are doing? Cavin misses you"

That bought a smile to my face.

Me:"yeah well... I do miss him too. Where's Nancy?"

He gave me a side eye and chuckled

Kagiso:"what's the deal with you two vele?"

Me:"hah! You don't wanna know trust me"

Kagiso :"anyway.... About that night"

Me:*sigh*"kagiso please, let's not talk about it okay"

So that Sunday when his lawyer friend came, the never next Monday morning, I went to his room, I don't know what got in me but I got to his room. He just came out of the shower, I tried to kiss him. I wanted him to just sleep with me so we could get this over and done with. We kissed for a minute until he stopped, throughout I had tears streaming down my face, he told me he won't take advantage of me and he let me sleep on his bed while I calmed down.

Kagiso:"I just-"

Me:"mayona is coming in a few minutes, hope you don't mind?"

I am going to say and do everything just so we don't talk about that day, I'm still embarrassed about it. Hell... It's another reason why u couldn't be intimate with yona because the guilt is eating me.

Yes I know the only reason I did that was to get out this life, but...

Kagiso :"ooh yeah, I'll let you be though" he rubbed his hands on his thighs and stood up "I'll see you tomorrow at work right?"

Me:"yeah sure, I'll be there"

Kagiso:"alright, take care okay"

He bought me in for a hug, even in heels, his still taller than me, i realed in his scent, making me heave out a sigh in the process. I felt him vibrate meaning that he heard me smell him, so he's laughing at me.

He broke the embrace and held me at arms leng.

Kagiso :"you look gorgeous by the way, have a nice evening alright?"

He kisses me cheek then winked at me.

After watching him stride down the hallway to the elevator I closed the door, sighed with m the back of my head on the door. I'm glad he's not holding that against me.

Here I am, hours after the 'supposed' dinner, all on my own, I've long discarded my shoes, busy munching on the wine and chocolate Kagiso bought me, I'm catching up on Power, well... What can I do, she stood me up, it's just after nine and she hasn't said a thing, not even a text to say 'sorry I'll be late'

Such partners we have*sigh* I don't know when I fell asleep but I woke up in the comforts of a warm bed and silky covers. It's Monday morning and it's back to work. I must have walked my way to the bedroom last night with my drunken ass.

As soon as I got to the office I felt weird you know, like it's been decades since I was last here and it's only ever been a week. That's how dreadful my life has become.

I'm headed to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee when Kagiso appears from the elevator.

Kagiso:"Ora" he calls out, I turn my head to look at him "can I see you in my office?" A man appears from behind him, I look at the man and at him, I can't read his expression but I nod my head nonetheless.

Before I can knock on the door, it swings open and I'm greeted with a toothy smile from Kagiso, although he's looking at the guy on the couch, when he turns to look at me, the smile still remains, he has a nice smile I'll admit.

Kagiso:"hey... Come on in"

He led me inside and closed the door behind "this is my friend, Akin"

Akin:"nice to meet you, but I gotta me on my way man, I need to pick my lady up from school"

Kagiso:"yeah she got you by the ball huh"

Akin:"she better not let go coz I'm liking it" with a chuckle they did their Bro hug and he left.

Kagiso :"please sit"

He directed me in the direction of the couch.

Me:"so what's up?"

Kagiso:"it's nothing big, sooo... My friends heard that well... That I'm married and they would like to meet you, plus Akin recently finished establishing KGC headquarters so we having double the celebration, can you please come?"

Phew!... I honestly thought he called me for something big.

Me:" sure... When? "

Kagiso:" so you coming?"

Why is he shocked?

Me:" hawu Kagiso... You helping me big time, this is the least I could do, besides its only your friends "

Kagiso:" yeah I guess. Thank you, you free to go"

The whole day Kagiso spent it outside going from one meeting to the next, while me on the other hand had a lot of catching up to do with my work that I forgot to eat lunch...

I stretched my hands and shoulders, twisted my neck a bit to relax my tense body when my eyes finally shifted to the clock...

Me:"f**k!"

It's almost ten and I still haven't eaten, well... Let me go upstairs and have myself a long relaxing bath and eat something.

When I got upstairs, I poured myself a glass of wine and pre heated last night's dinner, when I got to the bedroom my plate was half finished and the wine had be tipsy... Now I guess I just need a shower and some good night rest.

I stripped down naked and went to the bathroom, 'what the hell...'

"aaah f**k yes, yes, yes.... f**k yes that feels so good... Mmmmh...."

MY eyes bulged out with shock... Is he, is.... Is he having a...

"f**k yes Ora,... Thats feels so good.... Aaarg"

No fucken way....

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Who could that be?