My Boyfriend - Past or Now

The first time Eric took off his good temper and got mad at Cici was when she tore up Eric's half-completed design last month. He didn't yell at her like everyone else did. He just stood for a long time on top of the design that had become a pile of scrap paper, with his pale lips closed in silence as he watched her, as if a storm was brewing. But in the end, he just called her softly with a name in the quiet early morning: "cici, this is the first time I warned you. You are no longer in your teens, you should learn what it means to be mature." At that time, Cici did not realize the seriousness of the matter. This man was six years older than she was, and for as long as she could remember, he was the one who took her, carried her to and from school, and tutored her in the lessons she couldn't keep up with. And ever since she started her love affair, he has been the irreplaceable one in her life, and the one she takes for granted in her life. Eric is Eric's, Eric is cici's. She never doubted it. She never had any doubts. The first year he was abroad, she was crying on the phone because she missed it, and he showed up on the third day. Eric this blind and doting love, cici never doubted that her feelings with him would change. Eric's second warning to Cci, Cci made a far less serious mistake than the first. eric came back from a dinner party smelling of perfume that didn't belong to cici. She just went through his pocket phone, and scolded him, and then Eric would slowly and thoughtfully coax her. But this time Eric abruptly interrupted her "performance" and looked at her coldly: "Cici, this is the second time, you have one more chance." Only then did Cici realize that Eric was serious. This time, after not seeing Eric for a week at the apartment where they belonged, Cici came crying to his place of work. She felt she had only chosen tears to get him to comfort her and let him go home. Eric was invited out of the conference room by the embarrassed secretary to see the cloaked, unchanged, capricious, brutal, spoiled cici. The last vestiges of heat he had left cooled in his dark eyes. He frowned at her, the temperature of his voice cold to the core: "I will go back tonight, you go home first." Cici thought she had succeeded. But the first thing Eric said when he showed up at the apartment was, "Cici, this is the last time we're done." Cici looked up at him incredulously, trying to see the signs of a joke on his face. But all she could do was watch him pack up his already pathetic clothes and belongings from the apartment. Before he left, he turned around and said, "In the future, be good to yourself." It happened so fast that the table of dishes prepared by Cici was not even cold yet. Eric did not even glance at it. She didn't even know when he packed his belongings, the room was originally full of Eric's belongings. She was so busy that she called Eric. It was hung up. She called again. The phone was off. Cici felt herself surrounded by a terrible coldness and gradually began to shiver. She realizes - Eric doesn't want cici anymore. It was only a short month from Eric's first warning to his third. Next, Cici found that she was not allowed to enter Eric's company. Whether it was a phone call or an email, they were all dead in the water. No matter apologizing, blaming or pouting, all to no avail. For three months, Eric disappeared from Cici's world. Cici's panic, to degradation, to introspection, all happened in the days without Eric. One day, three months later, Cici woke up from her aimless sleep, patted her dull and thin cheeks with water, and sent a message to a number she hadn't had the courage to contact for a long time. ［Good morning] There was no reply without surprise. Then she dialed another number: "Liam, it's cici, can you come out and talk?" Cici gave herself simple make-up and hailed a cab to the appointed place. The traffic in the city is congested day in and day out, testing the patience of every driver and passenger like there is no end to it. Cici was inexplicably distracted, and her index finger tapped her bag on her lap without thinking. "Master, how much longer?" The driver looked at the long line of cars in front of him: "I don't know! This kind of traffic jam is every day, the cab business simply can not continue. Occasionally, blocking a day is okay, or the government to give a day when you can end the daily blocking congestion is better than, so there is no expectation to wait." Cici was stunned. "Master, still very far away?" "Just in front of the corner." Cici looked at the number on the meter and took out the double and handed it to the driver. Before the driver came back to his senses, he hurriedly got out of the car. The last time she walked down a street full of cars and exhaust fumes was like a lifetime ago. Cicii looked at herself through the reflection of the street window and was somewhat unfamiliar. There is no anger, no more arrogant and domineering aura. Liam's first impression when he saw Cici was the same. He is the same age as Eric, grew up watching Cici grow up with a bad temperament, but has been spoiled with a little concern. Eric and she knew the matter between him, worried to ask: "okay?" Cici nodded. Cici nodded her head. Liam ordered orange juice for cici and said with understanding, "I know what you're going to ask." Cici was about to drink the water, smiled and put down the cup in his hand, looked at him carefully. "Eric is the kind of person you and I both know. Since he proposed to break up, it is definitely not a momentary impulse." cici nodded her head. "You did go a little too far in the past ......." Cici kept squeezing the cup in her hand. Liam continued, "Although Eric never complained about anything in front of us, from words and actions, I have long seen that he for you this relationship re-examination." Without a word, Cici nodded again. "I'm sure he's given you many chances. But Eric is also a human being and can be tired. To put it bluntly, you have not done much since you were a child. Another person would have given up long ago." When she heard this, Cici looked up and smiled at Liam apologetically. Liam suddenly felt a bit uncomfortable to talk about it. Ccii and Eric have a lot of mutual friends, but Eric broke up this matter, Liam is the only one who is still willing to come out and talk to Cci, and really want to guide her. Most people were watching to see what kind of jokes the young lady would make without Eric's protection. For the first month, Cici did not disappoint them, drinking and getting drunk, acting crazy and making a lot of noise. A new joke every day became a laughing stock for them after dinner. At that time, even Liam thought that Cici deserved it, he hadn't learned his lesson at this time, and he was still acting out of character. They were still betting on how long this cic could go on, but she suddenly went quiet and disappeared from everyone's sight. Eric's response was a shake of the head, and he pinched his brow and said, "No." Liam saw for the first time that Eric, who had always been vigorous, showed such a tired demeanor. He knew that Cici had finally pushed Eric to the point where he was too tired to love anymore. Liam was lost in his own thoughts when he heard Cici ask himself, "Do I have no chance?" Liam didn't want to hit her again and reassured, "Maybe if you change, you can make him fall in love with you again." Maybe. Fall in love again. When the orange juice Liam ordered for her arrived late, Cici held the drink for a long time and gulped it down, then asked, "I don't have much hope, do I?" Liam had never seen such a cici, not in a condescending way, not in a proud way. He couldn't give an answer. Cici's shoulders slumped a little as Liam fell silent. She still said, "Thank you." Liam was prepared for her to cry and scream, and for her to question her sternly, but he never thought that cici would be like this. "Cici, you too will have a new life." cici took a big gulp of orange juice, and picked up a glass of water and drank several sips, and finally said a somewhat weak word all afternoon: "I haven't thought about what it would be like to live without Eric." Liam really didn't know what he should say. *** After dropping off cici, Liam didn't rush to move, but dialed Eric's phone, and the other party answered quickly. "The talk is over." Eric didn't answer. "She's not good." Liam was straightforward. "Hmm." "You're heartbroken, huh?" Liam laughed: "She asked me if she didn't stand a chance." Eric is silent again. Liam shook his head: "I don't know where you get the cruelty, but it's still in love! Why must we separate. Every time you encounter cici, you become a different person." "Is she okay?" "I didn't say no!" Liam was a bit puzzled. "You describe it carefully." "Cici was originally a doe-face, right? Today, her face looks a bit skeletal, not as good-looking as before. The whole person is so thin that there is no spirit, and the makeup is not attentive, tsk!" Liam sighed: "But the biggest change is the eyes, the dead air. Eh, Eric you know this why, looking for a***e ah?" Eric exhaled on the other end: "No. I thought I'd be upset. I thought I would be heartbroken, but after hearing you out, I found it was okay." Liam froze and stared blankly at the spot where cici had just sat. Fake indifference, and really come out, really different. Eric is really taking one step away from their feelings their past. It seems that cici's bell, no one will come to untie. At the end he said: "I also said you are cruel, in fact, you are the biggest kindness to cici. It's good not to give a little thought if you don't love anymore, at least let her come out earlier." Liam finished the phone call and stood up, turned around to get his jacket from the back of the chair when he saw cici wood at three steps away, not knowing how long he had been standing. "cici......" "Oh." She looked back, "I forgot why I came back, too." Liam looked at him in silence. He felt some pain in his chest actually too, Eric said it didn't hurt, he just didn't see it with his own eyes. "Do you want me to take you back?" cici shook her head, "I'll stroll." In the evening Liam went to the bar to drink with his buddies, arrived a little late, heard Chen sister smoking a cigarette in the crowd laughing loudly: "Eh, I saw cici in the afternoon, so long not out, thought I could not think of it!" The crowd laughed and Liam sat in the far corner with a grim face. "Eric will come too!" Sister Chen did not ignore this second golden bachelor: "I heard that his mother knew that he and cici fell out, immediately and happily arranged a blind date for him. I told him to bring it out tonight, in case it is a cici again, go home early!" Liam couldn't sit down anymore, stood up and walked towards the door. When he went out, he bumped into Eric and saw him with a little white rabbit-like girl, carefully hiding behind him. He smiled as a greeting and walked outside. The outside is at least not as stuffy as the inside, the loud music was isolated behind the door, Liam lowered his head and lit himself a cigarette, spitting smoke rings when he saw a somewhat familiar figure squatting on the ground not far away, vomiting, looking carefully at the two eyes, it was actually Cici. He didn't know if Cici had seen Eric, but he thought he probably hadn't. Otherwise, with cici's nature, he would have gone after her and cried a lot. He ordered the waiter at the door to get ice water, and walked over to cici to pat her back, calling out to her, "cici? cici?" Cici lifted her head. Liam suddenly let go of his grip on Cici's arm. All thoughts were lost. He only saw these four words in Cici's eyes.