Empathy

wanting to marry Amina part 1

Since it was two years since our first kiss, I felt like the best approach was to marry Amina! Not because I had to but because I wanted to. But that was still a tall order for me to do. But that was what I wanted to do! Talking to someone I trusted was indeed important but I could not trust Clair just yet! That was I went to the art teacher, ms. Yo! That was rhetorical best case scenario! So when I went to her about my life changing question she just told me what I wanted to hear in the first place! Which was that I needed to marry her but still I was 22.

This was a tall order again!

As I was mulling this over I decided to go had with the popping of the question. I waited until the end of art class but would it be better to do this during! That was when I decided to use the ring my mother gave me and popped the question when she was going to switch paints! That was when I was going to head forward in the relationship and never turn back!

I had it all planned for the perfect time! That was going to be soon as art class was going up! That being I was nervous about the whole thing.

But what happened was like clockwork she turned around and I asked her in front of the class!

“Amina would marry me??!!” I asked!!!!

“I do!” She said.

I slammed my fist on the table with joy. This was when I said that she made me the happiest young woman on the planet! And boy that was the truth! To be honest I wanted to tell my friends this……..both my Sirenhead group and my regular friends about this. I even got my phone on the ready and was going to tell my mother only to find out that she was in hospital for a surgery on her wrist! I was shocked but I knew it was not to serious for me to worry about.

“Just tell her want you can!” I told my father! That being said I was excited about everything g that was happening to me. But still I did not tell Clair as I was still fearing the idea of being teased. Her situation changed but still I had no fair her in her changing!

That was when I went to lunch with Amina and Clair…….. only for her (Clair) to see the ring on Amina’s finger.

“Are you getting married,” she asked.

I gave her a dead stare……

“I would tell anyone about that,” she said. “Congratulations!” She did not get it to the food court on anything idiotic like that…….. I was shocked about that. There was a first for everything.

Then her former friends came across our table and said that this was the loser table! That being said I was not happy with those rich snobs trying to think that I was a loser. At least I don’t belittle others. That was just how I was raised. That was what I did not believe in. As we continued eating lunch I realized that i needed to tell the rich girls a lesson about respect!

So I stood up and said, “who is the real losers…..I don’t belittle other about the re class!”

They just looked at me as if I was crazy and wanted about their business! That was when I sat back down and then the signal that lunch was over was I was heading over to English lit. While everyone looked at the rich girls as if they were horrible humans. That was satisfying. And I was about to have some closure for the way they treated others.

As I walked to the English building I had a prop in my step and and some interest in normal life again. That being I could be my self with out being degraded for being middle class! That was when I realized that what I said held water.

That was when I designed that I was going to fight the rich kids about they way they “run” the school and I was going to win that fight.

I also knew that nice things do t always happen in nice houses. They most feel crappy about something even if they have everything they “want!” That was when I decided to have empathy for them at the same time.

That being said I was going to fight hate with love………it sound’s hare brained but it was the only way that I was going to win this fight.

As I went out my life and ignored them that was how I was going to fight. Just to tell you the truth I have confidence to ignore the ignorant now! That being said said when I used to get in to fights with the ignorant people for the longest times- both verbal and physically. That was not a nice idea to be honest with you I was not going to get what I want in life by being violent or mean. I was going to let the rich girls get into trouble on their own.

Sounds strange!

That was when I realized that was starting to do better and be of a higher standard then the bullies of the world. I mean I will be getting married at any point where the will be single and miserable….. I don’t want to think about that but you catch more flies with honey than you do vinegar!

That is all I have today about that. I probably have more friends than the Rich girls who were “popular!” Why?! Because I have my Sirenhead seekers group on the weekend and other friends in school and on in real life. That being said I wish the rich girls were rich in friends.

That being said. I was proud of my self for asking Amina for I marry me! That took a lot of guts to do! That being that was the happiest I was with regards to life. Some proper get this way by winning in sports or anything but I won’t in within this. That being said I was interested only in art and lgbt rights. That was it with me.

I wasn’t a jock or popular girl but I was better in that aspect with being nice to other people.

What I believe is this from Reddit: remember the human!

That is something I do is remember the other people in life. They might be popular but I have humanity to other people. That was why I despise bullying…..or tormenting other people.

To me this is the lowest of the low and the worst that people can do will being bullying, this is like theft were you steal the dreams and confidence in other people as well as their self respect.

That was when I realize that I that creativity was Better the popularity. That was because if karma. The law of the universe and only that….. you do good you get good. If not you get crap! I don’t know how to said it with out sounding childish but it was the only to say i…….. you do crap you get crap. You do that being said I was interested in getting the positive with my actions and to be a light in the world. That being said this was how I was basically raised.