The Surfer or the Wolf

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Mila’s POV

I woke up all alone in my bed, I felt so lonely. I knew Tyler was still mad at me, he didn’t answer any of my texts last night, I didn’t know why he was so angry at me, he didn’t even know yet about Isaac. I rolled over in bed to grab my phone and noticed I had a few text messages.

“Hey. I guess we should talk.” From Tyler.

“Hey! Wanna pick me up on your way to work?” From Devin.

“Good morning beautiful.” From Isaac.

My cheeks blushed after reading the last one. I checked the time and decided that I had some time to talk to Tyler over lunch before my shift at the beach. I told Tyler I would pick him up at school for lunch, I replied to Devin and I pondered on what to reply Isaac.

“I hope you have a nice day, Isaac :)” Ugh. I sound like an i***t, I could have sent something better than that, come on Mila!

“It would be a lot better if I could spend it with you.” He replied back.

I tapped my fingers nervously on my thigh and put my phone away on my nightstand. I didn’t know what to answer Isaac, I decided to wait before replying. I hopped out of bed and started getting ready for the day, hyping myself out for my talk with Tyler.

I put on a red sundress, braided my hair and finished my outfit with my signature black converses. I packed my bag for work and made my way out to my jeep and drove to school.

I waited in the parking lot for about 20 minutes until I finally saw students come out for lunch. I was starting to get nervous, I rubbed my sweaty hands on my thighs and grabbed the steering wheel to calm myself. I looked up and saw Tyler walking out and stopping suddenly, he turned around and was talking to someone. It was Kelly, she looked as though she was telling him something serious, she placed her hand on his shoulder and nodded sympathetically before walking away. Kelly was another lifeguard at the beach, she was really timid or serious, i’m not sure, I have a hard time figuring her out. She’s so pretty, I would think she would be more outgoing than she is. As she walked away, her long dirty blond hair swayed from side to side, I felt a ping of jealousy at that moment.

Tyler walked up to me and hopped in the passenger side, no words, he just nodded at me and turned his attention away. I sighed and pulled out to drive to the cafe in front of the animal shelter, they served the best sandwiches there. When we got there, I told Tyler to go save a table at the park nearby and that I would grab lunch for us, he nodded and walked away. Yikes, this would be a fun talk.

After paying for our lunch, I walked to the park and saw Tyler sitting at a picnic table with his elbow on the table and his hand holding his head. I lowered my face and tried to look for the green eyes I loved but they seemed flat today, ugh I hated this. I sat down in front of him and he looked at me expectingly.

“So..I have something to tell you about last weekend..” I started, he snorted at me and shook his head.

“Um..I met someone.” I said shyly, his face reddened and his eyes grew wide.

“Did you f**k him?” He asked aggressively low.

“No! Well..” I blubbered.

“What the f**k did you do, Mila?” He spat.

He was making me so nervous, but then a sudden burst of energy flew through me and I realized that I was a strong confident women, and I would NOT be talked to this way.

“Alright Tyler, i’m here, i’m going to tell you everything but you need to change your tone and your attitude cause i’ll flip you over this table right now and remind you who Mila Ward is.” I said to him with my brows furrowed, he matched my gaze and threw his hands in the air gesturing me to keep talking.

“Listen..I love you Tyler, I really do. I can’t explain why I did what I did last weekend, my body reacted to him. I don’t think I need to tell you all the details, I did cross the line though. I really hope you’ll forgive me, I don’t want you out of my life.” I said to him sincerely, I really couldn’t imagine my life without Tyler.

“I don’t know Mila..I’m not sure I can forgive you yet. Not after overhearing people on campus talking about you two, how cute you two were and how into eachother you two looked.” Tyler said angrily, shaking his head.

Oh shit..no wonder he was so mad..

“What? You heard that from who?!” I asked curiously.

“Doesn’t matter.” Tyler said firmly. He got up and scratched his head anxiously.

“I gotta go Mila, I can’t do this right now..I can’t even stand to look at you.” He said while walking away.

My heart felt like it was falling out of my body, my chest heaved and my vision blurred for a second. No! I can’t lose Tyler, not like this!

“Wait! Please..I can drive you back to school at least?!” I pleaded to him.

“No. I’ll walk.” He said, walking away.

Was it over? I couldn’t believe it..Two years with Tyler down the drain because of a one time slip up?

I tried to stand up but I couldn’t. I stayed there for I don’t know how long, staring to where Tyler walked away from me, until I felt a big hand on my shoulder.

“Hey..need a friend?” Devin asked sincerely.

He sat down next to me and I fell apart in his arms, I sobbed loudly and it was definitely an ugly cry.

He held me tight, I thought about how I used to have a crush on him and how I would have melted into his embrace before, but now, he felt like a big brother to me. I really cared for Devin.

“What happened?” He asked.

“I think Tyler broke up with me.” I said lowly, he nodded and looked at me.

“So you really love him?” He asked.

“Of course I love him..” I replied dryly.

“Sorry Mila, I was just wondering. Do you think you’re meant to be with him?” He asked.

I thought about it. Did I picture myself growing old with him? Getting married and having kids?

“I don’t know..” I said honestly, he grabbed my shoulders and pushed me away so that I would look at him.

“Mila, you’re 18. You’re still young, if you’re meant to be with Tyler than you will be. To be honest, I don’t think he’s the one for you.” He said, my eyes widened.

“Why not?” I asked him.

“You’re not growing with him. You’re just existing, you’re not living your life to the fullest. Tyler’s a great guy, I just don’t think he’s your soulmate.” He said casually.

“So you believe in soulmates?” I said, Mr. Manwhore was a complete cheeseball I guess.

“Yeah, I do.” He said. My eyes widened, he looked so sure of himself, he wasn’t joking around like usual. I didn’t know how to answer him, I just looked at him in shock.

“Alright alright, my d**k’s gonna fall off if I have one more minute of girl talk. Can we go to work now?!” Devin said jokingly. There was the Devin I knew, he probably had a momentary stroke or something.

“Yeah, let’s go.” I told him.

I let him walk up in front of me, I stopped for a second and took out my phone and opened my messages..

“How about friday?” I sent.

“I’ll pick you up at 7, beautiful”