When Peach Blossom Blooms

I gaze at the stars unwaveringly. They continuously twinkle as the cloud fleets like a translucent sheet blanketing the night. I can see the crestfallen moon, seemingly sympathizing with me as the tears that I hold back for all these years started to flood my vision. I look up at the sky, as the leaves from the peach blossom started to fall, the wind carries the pink debris creating a marvelous sight. This scene should be romantic, it should be a scene of sentiments, a scene where we can happily make memories together but what happen? I will never forget our promise but yet, with just a simple words from that woman, you dump me, you push me here in the abyss where I can never escape. I slap my face to waken me up from my stupor, this is reality, I can never reverse the time to prevent the present happenings, I can only endure these hateful moments and regret myself for being not enough, for being powerless. I stand from my previous seat under the tree of peach blossom, if not for this bad timing I may appreciate the view and background like what a protagonist do in most of the novels I read, but sadly, I will never be a protagonist and in this life, I am nothing more than a cannon fodder, not even a villain because an insignificant person like me can't even fight for what I deserve. I brush away the dirt on my dark blue jeans and started to walk towards the seemingly serene cliff. From my position I can see the beautiful night lights and bustling street within the city, it feels so lively yet my heart feels so empty. With that in mind, I started to think, I started to reflect on my actions, and the endless stream of question started to plague my mind, what did I do wrong? Am I not enough? What wrong with me? This feeling of having too many questions yet, only one person can give me the answer really frustrates me, and unfortunately, I cannot even talk to that person now, I can only gaze at him from afar. I can only stare at his bright smile and listen to his joyous laugh. I can only see and feel the happiness in his heart but I cannot share it with him, sigh, I cannot even make him laugh like that in the past. But the biggest question for me will be "but why?". Maybe because even without me, this world will continue to rotate, the time will continue to pass by and he will continue his daily life. With this vague answer I started to have a newly found conviction. I have endured enough, I cannot stand idly at the side, maybe I should let myself be happy even just for a while. For this moment, I will stop pretending to be ok, I will stop pretending that I'm strong because in the first place I am weak, I am like a fragile glass that can be shattered with just one touch. I will now drop any reservation that I have, because right now I want to chase my happiness, I want to chase my freedom. Wen Chengrui, remember that in this lifetime there will always be one person who will always remember our promise, I will never forget that when the peach blossom blooms, we will look up in the sky and express our love forever. But right now, I did not expect that the place where the peach blossom blooms, the place which held the start of our passionate love will also be the place that our fate severed. I hope you will be happy now, forever with her and I promise that in the next life I will strive to be happy too... With that in mind I jump from the cliff with a relaxed expression and unwavering smile...