What to do when you can't do anything?

Hey I am Sonya. Nice to met you! I live in a country that no one knows about, i have a dog who behaves like a cat and mother that certainlly doesn't love me. So maybe am sad and lonely I don't have many friends and i am sitting here in my room all alone and hate myself from guts. Butt when i look at the mirror infront of me i see beutifull and smart and funny girl that just need to be loved and i do f*****g deserve love. I sholdn't hate myself because of others perception of me. And in the end i can't run away from myself i need to find and embrace who i trully am. I'll be fine.Alone. Here I am. This is me.