A c***k IN THE BILLIONAIRE'S WALL

Anika's POV Sitting in the living room, my mind is drenched in sad thoughts, my mind roaming back and forth over the events of the passing days. I had never encountered a period in my life as drenching as this was. I was enjoying how my friends were here for me. But I had to admit that I still missed a part of my family; I didn't hate who I had become; I just missed who I knew myself to be. I wanted me, but in my mind and in reality, I felt like I had lost the actual jackpot, of course. One of the maids accepted the offer to leave after some pressure from me. As glad as I was about that, deep down something, somehow still didn't sit right. And this wasn't even about the maid whose life was at risk looking at everything; it just felt like there was still a puzzle to be solved. "How are you doing?" I hear Derrick interrupt the sea of thoughts I was drenched in."F-fine" I stuttered, still startled. "What's wrong?" He asked, concern on his face. "You seem like you just saw a ghost." He added. "No, no, not at all the case." I added, pain crawling into my face, "I just wasn't expecting to see you... I mean, I didn't know you were still around" I added quickly, at the sudden realization that what I had just said made no sense. "Hey, listen to me, Anika, you need to stop bothering about things you shouldn't bother about. I don't like seeing you like this. I already told you everything is under control. I would be glad if you'd just take my word for it and stop bothering with it." He said. "You say I shouldn't bother about it like it's that easy, it's not that easy. Yes, life has to go on, but what if something else comes up. I don't just trust myself with this kind of pain. I feel there's a lot that could go wrong, I don't know." I added, trying to hold back the sea of tears that eagerly wanted to flow. "You need to stop this pessimistic attitude, you need to stop bothering about what could go wrong and focus on what could go right! On what is already going right, if only you had the guts to just be optimistic for once!" Derrick let out, his tone seemed like an angel whose cover had just been blown. I had to take it at that, he was that sweet. "Noted, I'll stay happy; I'll believe for the best," I said as if trying to avoid any more words from him. It wasn't just his reaction that intrigued me, it was just too expected and consistent. For someone as broken as me, all he projected to be, it all really felt out of place. The surprising part was how he immediately reverted to what seemed like a comic act of his, mostly when he had noticed the weakness on my face. "We'll be alright. Let's just hope for the best; life happens, but we have to keep our hopes high; just like bad things could happen at any time; good things can happen at any time." "You seem not to completely understand me, but it's okay. I get it." I added as I got up and headed for my room. "Wait, Anika. I'm sorry if you feel I don't understand you." He lets out. "It's not in any way my intention. I just feel we could channel the emotions in the right direction, you know." He said. "I don't know if I understand you properly, but whether I do or not, that's not the issue here. The issue is I'm tired and I need to take a hot bath and rest." I added, my knees shaking beneath me. I thought I had managed to escape him when I felt his arms around me. "Do you seriously want to do this?" I asked as tiredness danced in my eyes. "If you would let me" he added, trying to steal a kiss from my lips. "I wish I could, but I can't currently. I'm exhausted, to say the least." I added, shoving him out of the way. I continued on, headed for my room, when I turned my back to meet him behind me. I stopped in my tracks, turning to face him. "I know you and your family weren't on good terms, but the air is not clear enough for this. This should be for the meantime. I hope you can understand me." I said "I understand you perfectly well, but you seem to be forgetting something. I helped you for a reason. I was drawn to you in a way I don't think I've ever been drawn to anyone. I wanted you so much from the first day I set my eyes on you." He went on. "Derrick, you already know I also want you. I don't know who wants each other the most, between you and me, but we also have to understand the peculiarity of what we have going on. I wouldn't want a situation where we'll plunge ourselves into more than we can take." I lied. "I'm confused here; one minute, you want us to be together so much that you even suggested we speak to whoever is in the way to know if she'll leave, and the next minute, you're acting like you detest me. I'm not a bad person, am I? Or do you think I am?" He said, his eyes glaring at something I couldn't quite piece together. You're taking this too far and misunderstanding everything. I want you to understand clearly and know deep down that I love and want you, but I want us to be cautious that's all." I added, fear rising strangely within me. "Cautious about what exactly? Are you seeing someone? Is this about our friendship? If it is, then you have nothing to worry about; I'll do something about that; I'll ensure there's no stumbling block to what we share; I can assure you of that." He added, grasping my arm tightly. "It's all good. We're tired; it's been a long day; let's go to bed; aren't you tired already? I am and I really need my beauty sleep. We will talk about this tomorrow, alright?" I added as I made my way to my room. I knew he would be standing there watching me go, but I also knew this was the only way to have him be my friend. I wanted that, but I also knew acting clingy wouldn't do the magic I so badly needed. I was learning well. Making him feel I was in control of me was where I chose to start.