So Confused

Chapter 10

The following day ay maaga akong pumasok sa school. Dapat ay 10:30 pa ang pasok ko pero pumasok ako ng 8 am para magpaturo kay Cathy sa EM. May mga formulas pa kasi doon na hindi malinaw sa akin. Natatakot ako sa subject na ito. I think I will fail kapag hindi ko nakuha agad. Mabuti sana kung may pa identification si Engr., kung puro solving, wala akong maipapasa kahit isa.

May iba na nakukuha ko naman kapag nakikita kong sinosolve ni Engr. Zuniega pero kapag gagawin ko na mag isa, wala na. Mahirap pa lalo dahil bawal kami gumamit ng index card for the formulas so we really need to memorize. Halos hindi ako nakatulog kagabi kakaisip kung maipapasa ko ba to o hindi. I tried solving and solving but I wouldn’t come up to the right answer.

It’s already 8:30 pero hindi ko pa nakita si Cathy. Lagi naman yung maaga pumasok kahit wala kaming subject kasi andami niyang ginagawa. Pero bakit parang wala siya ngayon? I don’t know if nasa ibang place siya or hindi pa siya pumapasok.

Naaakit lang ako sa pagkain dito sa food court eh.

I was shocked ng maupo sa tabi ko si Karlwin. Ngayon ko lang ata siya nakita in his uniform, medyo bumait siyang tingnan.

“You’re early.” He said.

I stared at him. After 4 days ngayon ko lang ulit siya nakausap.

“I was looking for my classmate dahil magpapaturo sana ako sa EM, pero mukhang wala pa siya..”

“Lalaki ba?”

“Cathy. Babae siya.”

Napatango naman siya at kinuha ang notes ko. “Electricity and Magnetism?”

“Ah yes. It’s a bit hard.”

“Hindi naman kayo engineer bakit meron kayo nito?”

“Engineer? So meron kayo niyan?”

“Yes. Way back my 2nd year, major namin to”

Para namang nabuhay ang dugo ko. Bakit hindi ko naalala na engineering siya? Of course he’ll know something about this subject

“Teach me” I said and flashed my widest smile.

“This is basic” pagyayabang niya pa at flinip ang pages ng notebook ko.

Wow ha. Halos umiyak na si Zylea para lang sa subject na yan. I don’t know what’s wrong, siguro sa pagturo ni Engr. Zuniega. Parang masyado kasing mabilis at kulang sa information. She gave us tons of problems about Coloumb’s law kahit di niya pa naman tinuro.

“Do you know the principle of Coloumb’s Law?”

I pouted as I recapitulate what I had studied.

“Uhm, the force is directly proportional to…” I looked at him, nakatitig lang kasi siya saakin habang sumasagot ako.

He raises his brows asking me to continue.

“Directly proportional to the constant and the charge and is inversely proportional to the square of its distance.. yun, tama diba?”

Tumango naman siya “Now, what is the formula for Coloumb’s law?”

Napakamot ako sa ulo ko “I haven’t yet memorized it. Mamaya na lang kapag nagets ko na kung paano isolve. Hehe” I flashed my awkward smile. Nakakahiya naman to. Para akong nakipag one on one sa isa sa mga professor ko.

He chuckled at me, napakunot naman ang noo ko.

“You memorized the principle pero hindi mo parin alam formula?” He asked me still laughing

Nakaramdam ako ng konting inis. May iba’t iba namang paraan ng pagreview noh. Saka mabuti siya at major niya to.

“Akin na nga yan” I told him and grabbed my notebook.

Ang yabang niya.

“Look, I don’t mean to offend you.”

“Wag mo na lang akong tulungan.”

Ihinilig niya ang ulo niya sa mesa para Makita ang mukha ko. Tinaasan ko siyang nakilay kasi nakangiti pa siya saakin. Parang nang iinis pa.

“Amelie, the principle was the formula.” He said.

I looked at him more confused. He sighed and grabbed my pen.

“Force is directly proportional to K or the constant and the charge” He said while writing F=kq1q2 on the paper.

Little by little ay natauhan ako na yung principle nga yung mismong formula. How come I didn’t realize it?

“and is inversely proportional to the square of its distance which is the r” he write again at nabuo niya ang isang formula

F=kq1q22

I scanned my notebook at tiningnan ang given formula dun ng Coloumb’s law. Shet tama nga.

I looked at him shocked kaya mas lalo lang siyang natawa.

“Arg. Hindi ko man lang yun napansin” I said pouting.

“At para madali, eto na lang gamitin mong formula”

He started writing again in the piece of paper.

“Fr2=Kq1q2” he said

Tiningnan ko yun at pinangunutan ng noo

“For easy derivation. Galing yan dun sa formula, dinivide ko lang sa 1 ang F at pinagcross multiply.”

He showed me how he come up to that easy formula.

“If ever you need to find the distance or the r2, just divide F para maiwan ang r2 then you can proceed to solving” He said proudly and smiled at me.

I smiled back “Thank you Karlwin”

“Just an ice cream after the exam will do” He said and winked.

Binigyan niya ako ng iba’t ibang problem about coloumb’s law using his given formula as a try out. I was happy solving the problems. Parang nabawasan ako ng isang problema.

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The exam week finished with me being confident of my grades. I know I won’t fail to dad’s standards. Thanks to karlwin, his formula was very much helpful. I shared it to my friends at lahat kami’y nakuha ang tamang sagot.

I was freely rolling on my bed ng biglang may kumatok sa pinto ko. I looked at my clock, its 2pm.

Dali dali akong tumakbo sa pinto at binuksan ito

“MORRIS” I shouted in glee. Ang cute cute niya talaga.

Parang sabik na sabik din siyang tumalon talon paunta sa akin

“I told you, he miss you” Kuya Levian said

Pinapasok ko silang dalawa at binuksan ang TV. Morris loves watching TV.

“How’s your exams?”

“It was fine. I thought mababagsak ako sa isang subject, buti at nagpaturo ako.” I replied.

Pumunta ako sa kusina para kumuha ng juice. “Eh ikaw kuya? How’s your exam?”

“Still not stopping with kuya huh? Just Levi or levian”

“I told you na mas matanda ka kaya hindi ko maiwasang mag kuya.”

“But you don’t call Karlwin kuya.”

Napatigil ako sa paghalo ng juice. Because Karlwin looks like my age. Ang payat niya, ang awkward kung kuya Karlwin ang itatawag ko sakanya

“Because, arg. Okay fine. Levian”

“There. Mas magandang pakinggan”

“So how were you exam Levi?”

“I think I did great” He said and smiled.

“Mabuti naman. Morris will feel bad if you don’t do great, right morris?”

The little puupy just wag its tail habang nakalabas ang dila at nakatingin sakin.

“Oo daw” I continued.

He laughed at me “What are you gonna do this semestral break”

“I’ll castrate my brother” I murmured

“I heard that.” He replied.

Sabay naman kaming natawa. Sinabi ko kasi sakanya yung issue ni kuya. Hanggang ngayon naiinis parin ako sakanya.

“Seriously. What are your plans this sem break? After this week eh bakasyon na.”

I don’t have plans yet. Ayaw ko naman umuwi ng bahay. Maiinis lang ako sa dalawang lalaki dun.

“I don’t have plans yet pero siguro dito lang ako sa apartment.”

“For two weeks amelie? You’d be dead bored here”

“Sanay naman akong mag isa dito. Besides, I’m planning to clean.”

“Morris will be a great help” He said patting his dogs head.

I was playing with morris ng biglang may kumatok sa pinto. Nagkatinginan kami ni Levian. I’m not expecting anyone bukod sakanila ni Morris.

I was nervous ng maisip ko na baka si papa yun. Tumakbo ako papunta sa may Cr at tiningnan mula sa bintana nito. Nakahinga ako ng malalim when I saw Zylea.

“Bukas yan Zy” I shouted.

Naglakad ako pabalik ng sala at sakto namang pumasok si Zylea. She looked shocked.

“Nagbabahay-bahayan kayo?” she maliciously asked. Wala na lang akong nagawa kundi mag roll eyes.

Bumalik ako ng kusina para kumuha ng isang baso para sakanya.

“You didn’t tell me about this huh kuya” Zylea said to levian.

Nagawkward smile na lang si Levian sa kanya.

“This is Morris, Zylea.” Pakilala nito sa aso niya.

“This is morris that you are talking about?” She asked me. Tumango tango naman ako “Ang cute noh?”

She faked her smile “Ahehe, gusto mo na ata si Kuya Levian eh”

Both of Levian and I were confused sa sinabi ni Zylea.

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The last remaining week before the semestral break ay nagcheck lang kami ng papers and submission nung mga kulang na projects and requirement. Mabuti at wala naman akong naging kulang kaya puro na lang kami tambay sa school.

“Punta na tayo sa Gym amelie.” Excited na yaya ni Zylea, nag yaya kasi ng sparring ang team.

Since wala naman ng ginagawa ay pumayag na rin ako.

“Gusto niyong manuod?” Aya ko kila maki. Mukhang iniistalk nanaman ata si Brent dahil todo ngiti nanaman siya.

“Ayos na kami dito. Saka may pupuntahan ako mamaya” She replied and her eyes glittered. Tch. Ano nanaman kayang gagawin nito this time for brent?

The last time nalaman na lang naming na nakikain siya ng lunch sa bahay nila Brent. And its was by far the most bravest things I’ve seen. Pupunta ka kahit walang imbitasyon, plus, hindi naman siya kilala ni Brent. Elyza should learn a lot to maki when it comes to strategies kung pano ka makilala ng crush mo.

“Parang gagawa nanaman ng kabaliwan si Mackenzie” Bulong sa akin ni Zylea

“It’s not a doubt” I replied back.

“Kayo Abi? Hazel?” Zylea asked.

Sabay namang umiling ang dalawa. I eyed Abi, she was smiling. It’s a relief kasi nung isang araw parang kakagaling niya lang sa iyak nung pumasok siya.

“Okay” Zylea said and fixed her things. Inayos ko na rin ang mga gamit ko at nagpaalam na sa tatlo.

“Bye guys. See you na lang bukas” paalam ni Zylea bago ako hinila pataas.

On our way, my phone buzzed. It was a text message

‘you coming?’ karlwin texted me

‘yes, paakyat na kami’ I replied

‘tagal mo. We are already here.’

We hurriedly walk pataas. Bot are bodies are excited to play, the last week has been very mentally tiring and difficult

Pagdating namin sa gym ay naglalaro na ang iba. Kumpleto na rin sila, kami na lang pala ang kulang.

“Let’s play” aya sa akin ni Karlwin ng umupo ako sa tabi niya.

“Okay.”

“Hindi ka makaka-score sakin” he boastfully said.

Humarap ako sakanya at ngumiwi.

“Try me Karlwin, baka ikaw ang 5-0 jan”

He smirked at me and wishpered “What’s my prize kapag nanalo ako?”

I smirked back “That will never happen. Nanalo na ako sayo nung unang beses tayo magsparring. You’ll never win this time.”

He looked at me with his confused face “Kailan naman yun?”

“Matagal na. Unang sparring ko yun sayo.”

“Baka pinagbigyan lang kita that time.”

“We’ll see it this time Rivarez” Sabi ko sakanya.

“So ano nga ang prize ko kapag nanalo ako?”

Ikinunot ko ang noo sakanya “You’ll get confidence”

“Ahhhh, wala man lang motivation”

“If you’ll win, hindi na kita tutuksuhin dahil natalo kita last time.”

“Wala nga yun, baka hindi ko naman kasi sineryoso.”

“Bahala ka” I said and smiled.

Lumapit ako kila kuya Malcolm at kinuha ang mga gears.

“Hinahamon ako ni Karlwin, 5-0 daw ako sakanya” Sabi k okay kuya Malcolm

“Pakitaan mo nga ng moves mo yang hambog na yan haha.”

Bumalik ako sa pwesto ni karlwin at ibinato sakanya ang isang body gear.

“Let’s get this on”